The memory I wanted to forget

Gyles.

Memories. 

The ceremony is supposed to start in an hour. In the ceremony, they are supposedly going to wake me up and make me who I really am. 

I am in my room, or should I say the basement. I hear a knock on the door "Come in,'' I shout already knowing who he is. Fenris walks into the room with a smile on his face. He is so excited for tonight—a lot more than I am. I am just doing this for him. I want to get to the point where he trusts me so that I can go and look for Roger. I have missed him so much. I have been thinking of the things I will say to him. 

He must think I am already dead. 

He might have moved on? 

I never asked him to wait for me and I will completely understand if he has but there is a part of me that hopes he doesn't move on. The part of me that loves him so much. the part of me that gave him my heart. 

"Are you ready for tonight,'' he asks.