2pm 12/08

The cab is moving a little slow. I want to arrive at the airport. There's a lot of traffic. 

After 1 hour and a half we arrive at the airport. I get out grab my suitcase and my bag, pay the chauffeur and head in.  

When I head in I go direct to buy some coffee. That will keep my eyes open. I buy myself some iced coffee I prefer decaf. 

I head into the waiting room, I grab a seat. I put my suitcases close by, I grab my book. I've been reading All the Light We Cannot See it's a novel by Anthony Doerr it's a great book.

I read for about an 1 hour and I drift to sleep without knowing. 

I woke by the sound of a woman speaking through a speaker. "This is your last call for the flight to Korea Miss Lee Eunji."

I grab my stuff and rush to the port. I give them my passport and my pass. I walk to the airplane and I turn around just for 10 seconds and think this is going to be your fresh start (Nae) don't look back, let go of the pain and fear.  That's when I see them again. The two bodyguards that came by  my house today. That's when it hit me. Something bad is going on but I don't want no part in it. 

I turn and keep on walking. I get in and walk to my seat. I sit down and put my bag down. I insert my earbuds and put Far from you by Ryan Librada. It's my favorite song at the moment. I close my eyes and put my face against the cold glass and close my eyes.

In less then 15 minutes I drift back to sleep.

I had a really weird dream. I dreamt that a man and some of his people we're following me. My father was in something bad. Like he owned some bad people a lot of money. They wanted to hold me hostage that way he'll pay up. Guess what he told man on the phone that he couldn't care less what they'll do with me. 

Mr. Lee said through the phone "Kill her, like I care"

The bad guy said "You called it Mr. Lee, You had a chance"

He turns to me and starts grabbing a hammer. He breaks every one of my fingers. I scream in pain. "Mr. Lee Are you going to change your mind?" 

"Never! I told you already I. DON'T . CARE!" With that he hangs up.

I scream out loud "DADDYYY!!!!!" 

With that I wake up in sweat and gasping. A stewardess comes at my seat and asks me "Miss, are you okay? You look Pale. Do you want something to eat or a drink?"

I stutter a bit" I-I-I'm , okay. Thanks."

"Okay then, if you want something we're in the back" With that she turns her back to me and head back to the others.

I look at my fingers and there shaking. I'm really scared. Nothing happened these last few years. I haven't heard of him, and I never asked anything about his company either. I ask myself how come he hasn't contacted me through all this years. I really do miss my dad but I'm just angry at his actions and the choices that he made in life.

There's 6 hours left before we arrive at Korea. So I take the time to read. I grab the other book that I've brought with me Before I fall by Lauren Oliver.  This book taught me a lot when I was 17 years. 

Back then it was me and the four walls in the house. There was nobody there to teach me how to do things correctly or in a right manner. i had to learn in a hard way, by making alot of mistakes and falling most of the time.

I went through alot in my past life. Men has tried to assault me, kids beat me after school and i can keep going. The hardest part of my childhood was that i never had anyone to look up to. So that's when i started reading books. Books thaught me how to speak correctly to others or how to express myself in a right way or how to keep certain stuff to myself. Sometimes people asked me if i was okay but none of them asked me sincere so i did what i felt was right at the moment. "I'm fine thank you" was the only thing i said and everyone believed me.

I wake up to the light coming through the shields and knew that in a few hours i'll be arriving in Korea.