If I lose myself

I learned that love is cruel and you need to play it in order to not get played around with it.

Love is more like a broken record, its supposed to play along well but it can get messed up at any time.

I cried and I don't know how long I cried. Putting it to thought all I ever did with them was s*x, I was only their boy toy. We never went on dates and do what couples do.

I guese in love the more you know your lover the longer you stay together and the more you will love each other.

Four days passed and its morning now and I have got over it, its not like it was the first maybe every girl I like along the road will end up with another dude. I will keep on living dispite the amounts of broken bones I have.

I, I did it all♪

I, I did it all♪

I owned every second that this world could give♪

I saw so many places♪

The things that I did♪

Yeah, with every broken bone♪

I swear I lived♪

I am now playing video games with Armson and Gerrald. I don't dislike them after all its my own fault for keeping it to myself.

"Armson did you know where those two morons are," 

I had to ask about our idiot and lier as it was too silent with out them around. I can't believe I miss them.

"Those two got themselves a party time job at the coffee shop in Gurdon street."

"What?"

Both me and Gerrald were beyond shocked just thinking of the two working is beyond my thought process.

"Lets go mess with them,"

"I agree with Gerrald"

I said as I left the joy stick down and put on a yellow jacket. Armson just sighed and took the lead.

Gurdon street wasn't that far and it was near Gerrald's house. We walked for thirty minutes and arrived at the Coffee shop.

We entered the shop and saw that Godfrey and Michael were wearing black pants, a white t-shirt with a black half jersey on top as they served the people.

When our eyes moved, we saw a girl with a height of 168 cm, snow white pale skin, a midium sized bust, a charming face with golden eyes and royal blue hair that reached her middle sized hips. She was in a black waiter uniform.

We stopped advancing and stared at her and let her beauty sink into our minds. Gerrald was the first to break free from her charming powers.

"Guys lets sit first and hear from Michael and Godfrey."

Lucky for us there where few people in the coffee shop so we find ourselves a nice place near the window, we ordered caffe Americano.

We finaly got the answer to why our two friends dicided to take the job. It was because of the waiter girl.

Godfrey and Armson could take turns looking at her a*s and chest. It was so systematical like a planned thing. The two also ignored us like we weren't friends.

I smiled and wanted to mess up with them like we wanted to do before coming here.

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I rang the small silver bell infront of me. The waiter girl started walking to our direction. Godfrey and Michael were currently serving someone and could only glare daggers at me.

Her hips were like ocean waves when she moved. She kept on a pleasant smile and her royal blue hair was adding a godly vibe on her face.

I took out my phone and went to a piano application and started playing notes and since it was on high volume the others took out their phones and played their respective musical instruments.

We didn't have our guitor boy and lead vocalist but we can still rock. We looked at the girl and we all sang to her as she walked towards us.

Oh call me any time ♪

Every time you are losing it ♪

And tell me♪

Anyone and everyone who makes you feel like shit♪

But honey I won't♪

See you with a, see you with a broken set of eyes ♪

I swear that you are♪

You are the future♪

The girl blashed and her steps became even slower. Everyone in the Coffee shop just started clapping at us and I could see our two morons grit their teeth. 

The waiter girl reached us and she was so shy that her thin lips couldn't outer a single word. All ears were on us and the answer to that was what would be our next line to her.

I knew Gerrald would not say a thing as he is scared of girls and was even leaning on the glass just to get alway from her. Armson was even pretending to listen to a fake audio note. I can't believe they were singing to her a minute ago.

I had paused the thought of having girlfriends but there was a tiny bit of hope that my fourth girl would be the one. I looked at the waiter girl and I felt nothing in my heart. 

It was not like I had a heart of stone but the things I would few when I looked at the girls I liked weren't coming out from seeing her. Its not like she was ugly, she is even prettier than Veronica.

But before I could ignore her and order more coffee I felt like Grandpa had touched my shoulders a little. It was something he always did when he knew that something could work out when I didn't want to do it.

I smiled at how even after his death, he could still do that. It might have been my mind just playing tricks on me but I just trusted my dead Grandpa for now.

I stood up and faced the waiter girl but since her head was down she couldn't see my face. I moved her silky royal blue hair to her back and thats when she finaly looked at me.

She was blashing and her golden eyes were just moving side ways avoiding direct contact. Is this what people call love at first sight. I hold both of her small cold hands with mine.

I stared at the sun♪

Thought of all the people,♪

Places and things I've loved♪

I stared just to see♪

Of all the faces,♪

You are the one next to me♪

I kept on singing until she hugged me and everyoe in the coffee shop clapped their hands and just like that I got my self an angel that would save me from two Devils.