Part One: Leroy. Nostalgia

It's lonely without you here in my mind. You are always on me when you know something's wrong, like when we dated without my parents knowing. You decided to surprise them before me. I'm still shocked that they allowed it. I thought they would have driven the thought of us out. You know me when I become distant from you or my goals, yet you point them all out for me before I fall.

Whenever you do that I fall for you all over again. I remember when I told you that I didn't think of you as a friend, we were both 16. I cried while you touched my cheek.

"Look at me," you said.

I wanted to run but, you pulled me towards your chest to your heart. Thump thump thump. It was loud and fast, what does it mean? What are you trying to tell me?

"Me too," you whispered. Then a tear glistened in the corner of your eyes.

That evening we had together, would still make me cry to this day. We shared a kiss that would still warm me up inside. I miss it.

Yet why does everything feel so distant? I forgot how to breathe, my chest feels this weight, pulling me in. On second thought, I'm falling. Weightless I scream you're not here, what do I do?

Water engulfs me all around and seeps into my lungs. My brain, losing to it all, where are you?

I'm awake once again, I see you on my left. I run towards it, to then hit something in front of me.

Why? Why now must this happen? I'm so close to you, I need to wake up, just for you.

I bang on the wall, it's like glass. Water leaks from the floor quickly to my ankles.

"Jess! Please look this way," I fall to my knees, crying then I try once more shouting out your name. Nothing's happening. I don't want to lose hope yet. Once again I stand to shout out your name, but as I look you're already one step ahead of me, right in front of me.

The water then rushes up to my waist then to my shoulders. Not this again, I just got to you. As I looked you mouthed.

"I love you so much," to then see you leaving in front of my eyes.

I knew it, that I messed up, but I can't. There's just too much in my head and around me, I can't. Everything around me changes, the lights, the taste of the water, and its scent. From a soft smell of metallic to gunpowder.

Where am I now?

Everything is just blank.

For a while, I was drifting off to nowhere. The next thing I know I'm standing in our high school gym, with banners saying "Senior Prom", a hand reaches for me, I see no face upon this person besides his warmth. I embrace him while the song Careless Whisper plays, at first we're awkwardly swaying then he pulls me in. Putting my hand behind his back, and his on my shoulders. I don't know but I can hear my pulse speeding up then he says.

"Amame Ahora mi amor,"

I suddenly remembered you. You? But, what's your name? That face I see, subtle features, and those soft eyes. Your arms pulled me closer for a kiss, and I leaned in too.

I don't remember this scene.