Would You Be Able To Forgive Me?

"Good morning Scumano"

"?"

first thing in the morning and I already want it to end, what the hell does "Scumano" even mean?

"good morning Suzuki..?"

I wanted to act like I didn't hear it but I'm kinda curious

"what do you mean by..."

"scumano? it's a mix between "scum" and "sawano", I thought it was obvious...I need to think about it again"

"No! why did I even do?"

Suzuki looked at me as if I'm missing something as big as the sun

"because you are a fucking scum"

"oh, yeah I understand it now"

I don't understand shit, why can you say something this harsh with such a cute face? it's like I want to be called scum again, please stop I don't want to go that way!

we just continued walking to school as normal, in the end I couldn't even understand why she's angry, I'll probably ask Chi-senpai later she's tge best when it comes to this

***

"Yo Trasharu"

I'm not even angry anymore, just disappointed

"Scumano had more effort in it but Trasharu is easier to understand, but you'll lose your trade mark no?"

"Oh right! you saved me there tracchi"

"wait that was actually a good one"

it's scary how fast I'm adapting to this treatment, was I an M all along?

let's not think about that, I grabbed my bento and asked

"wanna eat together?"

since there's a little fight in our classroom I decided to come to the club room, Chi-senpai is here the whole day really, she's a third year so there's no reason for her to come to school this time of the year so she kinda just come here and read books until someone else talk to her

"Eh? are you hitting on me now? as expected of Tracchi, you are a trash"

"oh I see, is it because I slept with Naru? It's just a misunderstanding"

"you did what now?"

oh, I fucked up again, I can't even think about what to say now...of course she won't kniw the details why did I even consider that?

"I was just joking at first but maybe Haru-chan is right about you"

"it's just a misunderstanding!"

and why does Suzuki even care about my relationships? more like I don't even have a girlfriend so it doesn't matter!

I tried my best to explain things to Chi-senpai but she just half listened to me as she stuffed my food in her mouth

"Right, Right , you're the victim"

I really have a lot to say but I'll let it go this time

"so anyway, what's up with Suzuki?"

"it's just a web of misunderstandings building one above the other, somehow it turned into a big mess"

misunderstandings huh? I hate it, why don't we just talk it out? I'm sure Suzuki will stop insulting me then

"is it big enough that you won't be able to solve it?"

I assumed that Chi-senpai would be able to solve any kind of this problems

"not really, it's actually easy to solve even though the misunderstanding itself is complicated"

"then why didn't you do anything?"

Chi-senpai smiled at my question, she crossed her hands and rested her chin on them

"messing with you is my full-time job"

fuck you, I hate you....I barely managed to stop myself from showering her with my emotions, she's just enjoying my suffering from the back seats, I wonder who's the trash now?

"does it pay well though?"

"...?"

"I'll pay you to solve it"

"wait really?"

her eyes started shining, as expected money can buy anything, after I confirmed this idea I calmly raised my middle finger

"fuck you"

I said with a smile,it feels refreshing to let my emotions out once in a while, even Chi-senpai herself is responding to me with a smile

***

after dodging about 50 flying books I was finally able to rest again

"Hmph, I hate you"

Chi-senpai's pouting face is refreshing to see, she's a lot cuter when she's not talking honestly, she needs to shut her mouth more often

"you're thinking about something mean aren't you?"

"not really~ I'm admiring your cute face"

she frowned and asked me with a serious look on her face

"do you think you can just say I'm cute and expect me to forget I'm angry?"

"you already forget didn't you?"

she's that easy, a dumb smile covered her face tye moment I said she's cute, I can't imagine her holding a grudge against someone, I see why did Makoto fall for her

"by the way how's it going with Makoto? your graduation is soon so I guess he'll be trying harder"

"Ah...I think he's going to confess on white day since he asked me to go out with somewhere then, I tried my best to hint that I'm not interested in dating but his dense ass didn't pick shit"

sometimes I'm surprised that Chi-senpai can talk like this, she don't care about her image at all...

"so it's less than a month huh? what about you repeat the year? I'm sure we can pull it somehow"

"oh~? you'll miss me when I graduate? you have a cute side after all"

she's trying to tease me but there's nothing for me to be ashamed of

"yeah, I will really miss you"

"..."

she looked at me with a serious face, she bit her lip and started talking with a weak voice

"please don't..don't say things like this, I'm not the person you're thinking..I'm..."

she started crying all of the sudden, I really don't know what to do, isn't this the first time I saw Chi-senpai crying? my brain is running as fast as possible but I still can't think about what to do

"if you ever...saw the real me...would you be able to forgive me...?"

what is she talking about...? all I think about is the other world, she did something bad to me then and she's thinking that I won't forgive her if I restored my memory, that's the only conclusion I can think about, if it's true then...

"I'll forgive it all, Chi-senpai is an important person for me after all"

"that's a promise okay? if you don't....I'll force a thousand nail in your butt!"

"yeah....I can't go back now right?"

"nope"

she jumped at me hugging me tightly, dodging it is easy so I can't say she forced it but...I can't really dodge it right?

I put my hand on her head to pat her but exactly when I touched her hair I understood this situation,but it's already too late huh?

the door opened and a blonde girl looked at me with dead eyes, it's the same look I gave to the trash I threw yesterday

"I can explain..."

I can't

"I'm listening"

after taking a seat she crossed her legs and arms, looking down at me waiting for the explanation

"Chi-senpai it's your fault, please explain it!"

I threw the blame as fast as professional baseball player but Chi-senpai is an expert in dodging

"you made a girl cry and now you try to blame her, there's a limit to how harsh you can be Tra...Arucchi"

you were going to say Trash right? save those crocodile tears because Emma is smart enough to see through your weak acting

"..."

or maybe not, Emma is throwing daggers at me with her eyes, why am I even in this situation...

after a sigh Emma started talking closed eyes

"it's okay I understand"

the last time someone said that she didn't understand anything

"I thought that I might be able to fix him, but Aru is a trash beyond saving"

ouch, that's harsh

"but don't worry I will accept you no matter how bad you are"

"that's emotional and all but how about you don't give up on me? I'm not that bad"

"he said "I'm not that bad" after he left his duty as my guard to fool around with a girl"

Oh right, she has a point but it's still missing somd important context

"how am I supposed to guard you if you run away the moment you see me?!"

I even asked the boss about and he said that it'll be fine if she's not hurt

"that's because....it's still your fault!"

we're not going anywhere, please Chi-senpai save me!

after she received my look Chi-senpai sighed and started talking

"it's just a misunderstanding, Arucchi isn't that bad, I mean he's still bad but not that bad"

"thanks, I guess?"

I don't how to feel about it but if it's enough to stop this weird misunderstanding I'm fine

"okay I will forgive you, but there's one condition"

I nodded my head admitting defeat, it's never good when someone bring a condition but...I don't have many choices, I'll refuse if it's too bothersome though

"go shopping with me next weekend okay?"

"sure?"

that's a lot easier than I thought, honestly I would've accepted anyway in any other circumstance

"good I'll text you the details later, bye"

she ran off jyst like that, I mean...wasn't she angry because I'm not guarding her?

"girls are such a pain"

"yeah totally"

said the most annoying girl I know, I'm not going to start another fight now since the break is almost over but I won't forget what happened today

"hey Aruuchi"

"I'm in a hurry so make it quick?"

I swear if it's some stupid shit I will-

"thank you"

Chi-senpai smiled brightly, my cheeks are a little hoter than usual, a surprise attack isn't fair! I wasn't ready for this

I desperately tried to cover my face without being too noticeable, but it's already too late Chi-senpai's smile turned into a smug already

I started running away as fast as I could, there was even the sound of a big explosion when I moved, wait don't I look like Emma right now? I kinda understand her a little more now...I'll buy her a gift later and apologize

when I returned to class the first thing that met me was Makoto's dead body

"I didn't expect it to get this far..."

Naru is still fighting with Hiragi-senpai, they were like this when I left the classroom too, I calmly put my fingers on Makoto's neck

"damn he's really not breathing..."

I started healing him enough so he won't acyually die and then turned to Suzuki who retreated from the fight

"how did things escalate like this?"

Suzuki looked at me with teary eyes as she ran to me

"Scu-...Sawano-Kun please help me stop them the lesson is going to start soon"

"let's ignore the scum part, more importantly why are they fighting?"

I remember Naru coming to eat with Makoto but he agreed to eat with Hiragi-senpai, so they just started arguing

"they decided to settle it with a competition but Makoto didn't want to choose, so tgey ended up stuffing a whole bento in his mouth, like the full box"

"Ah..."

I turned around to check what are they talking about now but...

"having a boy that looks exactly like Makoto should be the priority! you dare tell me you love him when you don't even want a small version of him?"

"you are wrong Kiriyama Naru, having a smaller version is indeed compelling but you can always see photos when he was a kid correct? but if I had a daughter that looks exactly like him I will get to see a new side completely"

I don't even want to hear any more....it must be tough being a harem protagonist huh? I'm not even jealous anymore, though girls fighting about having your kid is a bit...

"for refrence, I want a twin"

said Suzuki with a serious face, I didn't ask for that so why would you tell me?