Chapter 27

As the pressure inside to respond to the music increased, I loosened my resistance slightly, allowing my hips to move.

I merely shifted from side to side with the beat, but it felt nice, felt right, and I experienced a rush of pleasure—which was immediately followed by doubts and judgment. I gritted my teeth against this, and focused again on the beat and the music, and—my body.

It came to me that focusing on my body, the sense of wanting to move, and the sense of actually moving, helped me stay out of my thoughts. And that felt like a real relief.

I had my eyes lowered during all of this, and gradually I felt the music more, and felt my body move more in response.

Oh my God!I thought. I’m dancing! Thisis dancing.