#Chapter176
/"But we weren’t anything back then and you still had contact with me. You always had me./" I watch him carefully, trying to understand how he could think that’s what he did. Trying to understand what she ever was to him.
/"I moved away, I wasn’t getting to see you as much, because of life, school. Work and training made it harder to drop everything to see you and I didn’t even know that’s why I felt so fucked up. I thought I was just tired of dates and random hook ups. I couldn’t see the connection, Sophie, so I couldn’t understand how emotionally invested I was with you. You saw how I reacted when you told me you loved me, I was so far down the path of denial I couldn’t think straight./" He nudges me with his nose and gently kisses the corner of my mouth, stroking my face once more. His voice so low and husky, still sitting in darkness and lit only by candlelight, our food forgotten and this moment so much more intense than I ever imagined it could get.