While I was sleeping

I woke up after almost 4 days of being unconscious. My mom was so worried. I can see it in her face. She hasn't slept that much.

I feel better and my bruises were not aching anymore. They turned almost gray.

Morgan came to visit me and I noticed none of the boys were there to visit. I was relieved. I didn't want to worry any of them. It's between me and my friends.

After a week I went back to school. The whole time I was in recovery, none of them even messaged me. I guess they're too busy or at least they realized that I was just a waste of time. Since Karlee already have Zoe. Maybe Jaz finally got tired of chasing me.

This is peaceful. I love this.

Chloe welcomed me in school. She visited me at home as well when I was recovering.

"Hey, there you are. Welcome back!" she hugged me tight and walked with me going to our class room. I haven't seen Heleina. She wasn't around even during lunch. Even the boys were not around. I feel like there's something going on that they're not telling me.

Chloe went with me back home after class. I felt like I'm a little kid having chaperone all the time.

I was getting a little worried about what's going on.

When we arrived home, got settled in the sofa, I asked Chloe directly.

"Okay, we have to stop this. This is making me feel uncomfortable. What's up?" she felt surprised, hesitant and nervous. I know something is wrong.

"I'm not sure if it's OK to tell you all about it now. You just got back and I don't think it will be good to stress you out. I mean... isn't this nice? Quiet. No one's bothering you. You can rest easy." Chloe was fidgety.

This feeling is really nice but I can't just wonder what is there to know. I need to know. If it is something that concerns me.

" What is going on? " I'm getting impatient. Why all this suspense? What happened when I was unconscious. It's just four days.

" I need you to be calm and understand the situation better OK? I don't want you to get sick or hurt again."

Chloe sighed and made some deep breaths.

"Go. I want to hear it."

"First, Heleina, got suspended for 3 weeks and she needs to stay away from us from now on. In or out of school. The girls who beat you up also got suspended but shorter time. Heleina paid and ordered them to do it to you." Chloe sounded sad. But I was expecting it already since I heard their phone call with her.

" I guess she got caught or the girls she paid stabbed her in the back. " I think that's what happened.

" Not really. " Chloe said with a frown.

" Did she admitted it in the disciplinary committee?" that's a surprise.

"No. It was Jaz Ford." Chloe whispered.

"Huh? How did - - is he also behind what happened to me? They conived to do this to me?" That's shocking news.

"No. NO. Jaz actually saved you. Even though he also got suspended." So that's why Chloe is sad. She still likes Jaz.

"Saved me? How? I don't remember". Everything's technically a blur.

"He found you unconscious in the gym, took you to the hospital where your mom is. Stayed with you in the hospital for 3 days straight not until the council called for the disciplinary hearing. He admitted that it was because the girls are jealous of you because of him. Because he liked you. The school suspended him for a week and then... " Chloe stopped in between the lines. I was so shocked to hear all this. I wasn't expecting him. I thought some random student brought me coz I wasn't breathing.

" Then? " the cliffhanger Chloe.

" Jaz punched Karlee and made a ruckus about your fake relationship. The girl with Karlee got hurt so Karlee fought back. He also got suspended."

The chaos I didn't witness was a blessing. But hearing what Karlee did for Zoe, I'm sure it's her, was heartbreaking for me.

I was banged up by the fangirls of Jaz but he didn't do anything. When Zoe was hurt, he fought back. I can hear a tear, a faint cracking sound in my heart.

"Oh, I see now." was all I could say.

" I know that it's not the right time to ask this but, I'll ask anyway. Is it true? You made a deal with Karlee Benz so he will pretend to be your boyfriend for us? So he will stop flirting with you? To avoid Jaz." I know Chloe wants to hear an honest answer. And since Zoe is already there for Karlee, there's no point in lying and continuing this fake relationship.

" Yes, Karlee pretended to be my fake boyfriend because I want to get rid of Jaz. I'm sorry if I lied. I just thought it's the best way to keep our friendship since I really wasn't into him anyways."

"After all he has done for you? You still don't like Jaz?"

Really Jadis? Not even a single drop of crush or admiration to the guy who did everything for you. That not even your fake boyfriend achieved?"

Honestly, I don't know now.

"Chloe, I truly want to be honest with you and myself but right now, I don't have an answer for that. Maybe I'm thankful but nothing more, I think. I was overwhelmed by what happened while I was sleeping. I'm not even sure how I'm going to face everyone once they all get back to school again. " My head is starting to hurt.

" I don't think Heleina will be staying in school though. Her dad was furious about her suspension so they decided to drop her out of our school and take her to a different one. I can see Heleina's against it but she can't do anything because it's her dad's decision. I got banned from coming to her house as well. She's grounded, I think" Chloe is still looking sad. She gets too affected by this and I know she doesn't deserve this. But she got caught up between our mess.

My vision started spinning and when I stood up, I fainted.

I guess the stress isn't really going to help with this recovery. I can't help it. I'm the reason why all of this happened.

I woke up with my mom beside me. Chloe was sitting beside her.

"Honey, are you feeling OK?" I can see mom's reaction in panic. I have to calm her down.

"I'm alright. Maybe I was just tired from school today. I'll rest" I reassured my mom so she won't worry too much. Chloe left and it was just me in the room.

What should I do in my situation right now?

I don't want to force the fake relationship with Karlee anymore, that has to stop because I don't want to cause trouble with them. No more pretending.

I have to start facing Jaz a bit more to make it clear to him but I do appreciate all his efforts and hard work towards me. He saved me many times already. He might be a jerk but he didn't pretend to be a good man just to impress me. He impresses me with his annoying actions but also makes me feel like I'm special. I'm confused. I like someone who like someone else. And this person who keeps on liking me despite all the rejections, stays and watches over me to keep me safe and makes me feel special most of the time.

I am really confused right now.

I need to be brave enough to face this or else, all of us are going to continue hurting each other.

Figure it out already.