Chapter 43 Brazil Cello

CELLO

Rio De Janeiro 4:00 am

"What a big dumb I am! Why am I pushing the person I love to the person who is pushing her away? I am so stupid and I push myself and get to the point where I pretend to be gay. I still include the family of my foolishness, "I muttered under my breath as I gulped my beer.

"Cello!" Fernando called, I almost didn't notice him standing near beside me. I shot him a look and ignored him.

"It's too early for a beer," he said as he took a sip of his brewed coffee.

I ignored him and continued to drink.

"Okay spill it," he said as he tossed his cup in the air.

I sighed in frustration and ran my hands into my hair.

"This woman again?" he asked.

"Yes, it's her," I answered slowly enough for him to hear.

"Why do you still keep pretending? Why can't you tell her the truth? Simple as that," he stated, he's right why can't I just tell her the truth about me, my life?

"I don't even know."