Chapter 30

As the month pass we prepared for the funeral of Empress Mother, my 3rd brother grieven by sadness has tooken ill to the bed. 5th sister wasn't so much different she has locked herself up even with the continuous pleading of the maids. 1st sister tried her best but since she was handling both the funeral and coronation her hands were full. 2nd brother had too take his duty as Crown Prince and fight on the borders. 4th sister has responsibility since she is the Princess of House Moon. Mother isn't awake yet and I haven't heard any news from Shifu

The only comfort to me was A Qi who came everyday, when she came we cuddled and watch the outside world. It has been raining every single day since the Empress death. I sat on the windowsill of my room watching as rain poor down. Today is finally the day of the funeral, I could hear people rushing around outside my bedroom door.

Seeing this Jin Xiao, who has been assisting me since she hasn't fully recovered tried distracting me with all sort of things. I smiled at her weakly, but I continued my watch. At first I thought that she couldn't guard mother properly causing this incident, but them I realized that she too was trying to save their lives almost dying in the process. She tried too make me distracted, getting hot chocolate, making sweets, and more things she did during the past month. But all I was thinking was blaming her as if she is the one responsible for this.

As I thought about it, I couldn't hold back my anger. WHO IS RESPONSIBLE FOR THIS? WHY WOULD THEY DO THIS? DO THEY HAVE NO SENSE OF MORALITY.

As I thought about it I also realized how weak I was, I thought leaving Xiao with mother will protect her but in reality I'm not strong enough, I couldn't protect the people I want too. Suddenly I was snapped out of my thoughts by a knocking on the door, A Qi entered she was already dressed in her black ceremonial clothes. As I looked down I realize that I would be late if I didn't start changing.

As I change I could see A Qi holding back her tears, I also felt I want to tear up. As I put a brooch with the shape of a moon, I could feel my eyes were starting to get wet. I told myself to calm down and not to cry, and turned around to A Qi. We then walked together as the first day we did down the hallways, but this time without mother and with something missing.