This is a love letter

I love you. I know you would like more if I told you this in person. I do not blame you if you think writing an anonymous love letter is creepy. I am writing because whenever I tried to speak out the words would not come out.

This is not one of those love confessions from the films and books.

Mostly because I do not know what love is. I just can not say the diference betwen love, friendship or a crush. People say it is because I never was in love. But still you are a very important personnto me.

I do not want to date you. I just wanted to let you know there is someone who admires you very much and that when this person sees your smile you make its day be the best day ever.

I want to keep being your friend. Just a friend who likes you, and you know it.

Strange.

But I felt like it was wrong to keep it to myself. It would be like lying to you. Believe me, I lie a loot. But I do not want to lie to you. If I ever send you this letter I hope I do not regret writing this, and you do not regret reading it. So if you feel like regretting it right now. Please just burn or throw this away. If already know who I am, just act like anything never happened. And stop reading it now.

Well, if you are reading this part is because you do not regret it. I do not know what to do now. I just wanted to let you know.

That I really like you very much and every time you hug me and I tell you to stop because I am not cute, it is not true. I love it every time, and I love being told I am cute if it's you telling me.

So, I would just ask you to do not stop when I tell you to stop. ( You already kind of do it) Anyway. If you feel uncomfortable hugging someone you know likes you... Then just do not do it. I can live just look to your face. I do not know if anyone ever told you this, but you are beautiful. I wish I had the talent and ability to paint a picture from you. To show how beautiful you are. If I learn how to draw I promise, I will paint you.

Why do I like you?

You are very passionate about the things you do. You do are a bit shy, but you are always there for your friends. You speak first and hear well when someone wants to tell you something. There are times when you are tired and lazy, but you keep doing all you usually do, just complaining a little. You always speak your mind and do not fear to do many questions. You are my model.

We are not that close, but you are an excellent friend for me too.

When I am at your side all my problems disappear. There was even a Monday we did not knew if there would really be class or not, but I really hoped it did because I wanted to see you again.

At first, I did not think I would miss you so much. It was just the holidays like always. I could still message you and hear your voice. But at some point this was not enough anymore.

I fear I will not see you again.

I think it is because of this fear that I cannot speak to you directly.

It would hurt too much to hear the answer from you directly.

It took me much courage to write this. I am not outgoing or brave. I dislike hanging out after school or call my friends when I need help with something. And I do not think I will ever do it.

I will not act differently from before. The only difference is that now you know it.

This is not a prank nor a trick I just wanted to let you know, nothing more. If you still do not know who I am, then I would be more comfortable if it stays so. But I know you are a very curious person, if you really want to know who I am just read the letter again.

I have one more favor to ask. Do not share it with anyone. ( If you like, mom's and dads are an exception) Please keep it secret until I say you don't have to do so anymore.( This will probably be never) . And if you read until here, I can only be thankful that you had so much patient to read it.

Sorry if I wrote too much, but I feel much more comfortable writing than speaking, and there were many things I wanted to tell you.

If you try to speak with me about it in class I will probably be too shy to say anything about it. So, sorry again.

Hope you have a very good day,