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Its been two days since we performed the transplant. Hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin siya nagkakamalay. Though normal naman ang pagbeat ng puso niya. Wala naman kaming nae-enounter na hindi maganda. We just need to wait for him to wake up.

Mas kailangan kong maging hands on sa pagbabantay kay Marcus we never know may magkaroon ng dis function ang heart. Tatlo kaming doctor ang tumitingin sa kaniya. We badly need to observe the heart.

Normal lang din naman na wala siyang malay for two days. Usually kasi ay tumatagal ng one week bago mag kamalay.

I remember when I had my first failure surgery manliligaw ko pa lamang siya noon.

"Sshhhh don't be sad Ayesha" he said to me. Marcus is my suitor.

"I can't stop crying. It's my first time to failed a surgery" umiiyak pa ring sabi ko

I had a major surgery kaninang umaga. Pero I failed it. Dahil masyadong mahina na ang resistensya ng pasyente kaya hindi na kinaya.

"Shhhh. It's not your fault okay" he said while looking straight into my eyes

"But I am a doctor and I should save him" umiiyak pa ring sagot ko

"But Ayesha. It is God's will" I stop from crying.

"We can't just save them because you are a doctor. It's God's will. And after all his with God now. Aren't you happy for him because finally he won't get hurt anymore" I just sob and let him hug me.

Ayun ang natutunan ko sa kaniya. Na not because I am a well known doctor I can save everyone that I want to. His a realistic person. Ganiyan siya magisip. Malawak at inuunawa talaga.

I am so lucky to have him. I interwined our fingers.

How I really love this man.

"Ayesha have some rest please" tita said

"Okay lang po ako. Kailangan ko pong mas maging hands on" nakangiti kong sabi

"Atleast sleep. Tatawagin na lang kita mamaya. Iha don't be stubborn" may pagbabanta sa boses ni tita kaya tumayo ako

"Sige po. Maliligo at iidlip po muna ako. Tawagan niyo po ako agad tita" she just nodded and continue doing things on her laptop.

Agad akong lumabas ng room ni Marcus at nagpunta sa office ko.

Agad kong binagsak ang katawan ko sa sofa at niyakap ang teddy bear na bigay ni Marcus.

Naalipungatan ako at tinignan ang wrist watch ko. Dalawang oras din ako nakatulog. Bumangon ako at naligo sa bath room ko.

Nang matapos ako ay nagsuot ako ng puting dress. Simple lang ito at walang gaanong disenyo. I blow dry ny hair. Hinayaan ko yung nakalugay. Naglagay ako ng kaunting lip tint para umayos naman ang itsura ko. Baka magising si Marcus tapos ang pangit ko.

Nagring yung cell phone ko. Inabot ko yun at sinagot

"Hello tita" sabi ki habang sinusuot ang wedge ko

[Marcus is awake] she said and sobs

"I'm going there" mabilis kong sinuot ang isa pang pares at mabilis na naglakad palabas ng office ko dala dala ang lab gown ko.

Pagpasok ko sa room niya at natigil ang ibang doctor.

Nakangiti sila pero hindi ganoon kasaya ang ngiti

Agad akong lumapit kay Marcus. I hug him tight as my tears flow from my eyes. He gently pushed me away from him, looking straight into my eyes and

"Who are you?" He said. Napaatras ako at tumingin kay Tita

"Wala siyang maalala kahit isa" she said and cried again.

"It's me baby, Ayesha" I said and cupped his cheek

He removed my hand

"I don't know you" he said in a low cold tone

"What happen to him?" I asked the Neurologist

"Well obviously may amnesia sya. Based on the results sa heart niya noon ay it had several heart attack. The recent heart attack is major one. It lacks of adequate oxygen in the brain. Isa pa ay siguro he had traumatized sa heart attack and the operarion as well." Sabi niyang ganoon

"Will his memories able to go back?" I asked

"Yes. But for now don't force him to remember. For two days let him rest. Then we'll run few tests and observation. Then I'll tell you the results" he casually said.

"Thank you Doc." Pagkasabi ko non ay lumabas na sila

"Baby do you want anything?" Tita asked him

"Who are you?" He asked

"It's me your mom" tita said and hug him

"YOW MARCUS SA WAKAS GISING KA NA" maingay na salubong ni Brent. Tinignan lang siya ni Marcus

"Sino naman siya?" Natahimik si Brent sa tanong ni Marcus

"Anong nangyare?" Brent asked

"Amnesia" simpleng sabi ko

"He forgot us" tita said

"He is Brent your bestfriend" pagpapakilala ko. Tumango tango siya at tumingin sa akin

"You call me baby like her so are you my sister?" He asked while pointing to his mom

"Dude she's not your sister. She's your girlfriend slash finace slash future wife" pagpapakilala niya sakin. Tinignan niya akong mabuti na parang kinikilatis niya ako.

"I'm sorry I can't remember you" he said. Tumayo ako

"Tita I'll just go in my office. Brent dito ka muna. Marcus " tinanguan lamang ako ni Marcus while tita and Brent smiled at me.

Mabilis akong lumabas at dumiretso sa office ko. Pagpasok ay dumiretso ako sa teddy bear na binigay niya. Niyakap ko ng mahigpit yon at duon umiyak. Iyak ako ng iyak.

Bakit kailangan mangyare sa amin to?

ang saya saya na namin. Masaya na kami. Diba?

But I need to be brave. Kailangan ako ni Marcus ngayon. He needs me more hindi ako dapat maging mahina. Kailangan mas maging matatag ako.

Inayos ko ang sarili ko. Magaalasyete ng bumalik ako sa kwarto ni Marcus.

"Don't you have job?" He asked me

"I do have. I am a doctor" sabi ko nang nakangiti.

"Then why you are here?" He asked like he dont want me here.

"Because I am your girlfriend and I need no I want to take care of you" Malambing kong sabi

"But I don't remember you" he casually said. Tumalikod ako at pinunsan ang luha ko

"I understand that." Sabi ko at humarap na

"Where's Brent?" I asked

"Lumabas. Bibili dawng pagkain" he said. Lumapit ako sa basket ng mga prutas

"Strawberry is your favorite fruit. You want?" I asked. Hindi siya sumagot kaya inayos ko ang fresh strawberries

"Here" inilapit ko sa kaniya yung strawberries.

"What the fck" he cursed nang humarap siya at hinampas papalayo ang kamay ko that made the straberries fall.

Natapon iyon. Pinilit kong wag umiyak pero hindi ko kinaya kaya naglakad na ako para lumabas. Pagbukas ko ng pinto ay saktong dating ni Brent.

"Damn why are you crying Ayesha" sabi niya at pinusan ko ang luha ko gamit yung kamay na hinampas ni Marcus

"Fuck. Bakit may pasa ka?" Sabi niya while holding my hand. Umiling iling ako at iniwan sila duon sa room na yon. Bumalik ako sa office ko at nagkulong duon.

Niyakap ko ang teddy bear na binigay niya sa akin. Ang sakit na hindi ka niya maalala. Ang sakit na hindi ka maalala ng taong mahal mo.

The whole night I just cried and fell asleep.

Kinabukasan ay pumunta agad ako sa room niya.

He's asleep. Hindi man lang ako tinawag ni Brent para nabantayan ko siya.

Umupo ako sa may silya sa tabi ng bed niya at hinawakan ang kamay niya. I cupped his cheek with my other hand

"I miss you baby. Please, please don't be too harsh on me. It hurts me a lot." I whisper

"I love you baby" I whisper again.

Yumuko ako at nagbabakasakaling makatulog.

Paidlip na sana ako ng gumalaw ang kamay ni Marcus. Her removed my hands from him.

"I'm sorry" nakangiti kong sabi

"Do you want to eat?" I asked

"No" sabi niya tinignan ko ang wrist watch ko. Almost 8 am na

"But you need to eat. You will take your medicines later baby" malambing kong sabi

"Don't please, don't call me baby" he said while looking to my eyes.

"Sorry" I said and asked for his breakfast.

I helped him to eat his break fast. Maya maya lang ay dumating na ang gamot niya.

He took it and fell asleep.

I wish this is just a nightmare.