prologue

He actually said it.,I wasn't wishing or dreaming as always .my eyes a little teary,my fair skin flushed and with a faint blush "be my girlfriend,Alicia".the words kept ringing in my head as I walked back home.we had drove in awkward silence,I wanted to say something but I couldn't because my voice would betray my raw emotions.the joy and shock,I would stutter for sure and he'd finally see me as the freak and wierd girl and take back his proposal.I've been hiding that part of me,coming out sophisticatedly,laughing at every joke and trying not to laugh at the things that where actually funny .

"Alicia!"

hearing my name brought me back from my thoughts ,my hand on the fence of the front porch and the other on my hips.my face squeezed

"Alicia what in the world are you doing out here?

Aren't you supposed to be on a date with Cleve?

I stepped passed her,walking over to the front door with out taking off my shoes,I threw my self on the couch

"You better tell me why you're acting so wierd" Esther said walking over to me

"He-" I managed to say before all my emotions came gushing,betraying me

"I screamed,laughed like a lunatic ,covered my face with both palms and cried

"He what?,c'mon Ali"

"Asked me to be his girlfriend " I said running up the stairs ,screaming.

"No way in hell"Are you sure?

I stopped on the last step

"What do you mean,of course I'm sure I'm certainly not dreaming"

"Don't you think it's a little too sudden?;Alicia I mean just a weak ago he wouldn't even reply to your texts messages"

Ok you can stop now Esther if you are not happy for me you don't have to make it so obvious " I said heading to my room

I sat on my black heart shaped bed,one of the best things I had in my room.I was happy,I know I was,I had to be.Finally cleveton noticed me finally I could be happier,I don't care what anyone thought.I curled myself up on my bed my soft plump cheeks squashed in my pillow.I didn't realize when tears fear freely through my eyes my nose turned red and puffy my eyes squinty to straight dash.I was crying ,again and again. My sobs turned into quite muffles and I slowly drifted into sleep.