Sky's cry of love

Blue,so much bright blue

So beautiful

So empty

So perfect

My eyes spot something pale in the corner of the celestial blue

Pale

Almost white but also blue

So small

So easy to ignore

Why didn't I?

I come closer

I should have admired the stillness and the painless beauty of my kindgom a moment more

An eternity more

Why didnt I?

My eyes deceived me

The truth didnt came until it was too late.

I see her.

So bright

So beautiful

So perfect

The imperfection that awakened my curiosity was a trap all along

I should have seen it

Why didnt I?

The paleness was so bright that blinded my heart's eyes and when I regained my vision my heart was forever out of my reach

My most beautiful dress is not bright enough

My most blue neckless is not perfect enough

My most honest call will never be heard

Because a dress will never be a sword

A neckless will never be a beard

A woman's plea will never be a man's demanding voice

Blue

So beautiful

So empty

So painful

So perfect

All of this because you exist

My nature feels my desire

My nature is afraid of my future choices

So am I

But I long to feel what I know is there

To feel the beauty of your hapiness

To feel the emptiness of your insecurities

To feel your pain as if it were my own

To feel perfection in our unity

For that alone,for you

My dress will become a sword

My necklace will become a beard

My desparation will become pride

I will give up my nature to rediscover it through you

Your eyes see me

But they dont

Your lips kiss me

But they dont

Your love surrounds me

But I am not the receiver

I am alive

But I am dead

I rejoice

But I am in pain

In a way I took my revenge on you

You deceived my eyes with your pale light

I deceived you with my nature

I could end the circle of deceit

Why didnt I?

I love you

Maybe one day I will tell you the truth

Maybe when my heart stops beating inside your chest

Maybe when your eyes stop being the only blue I want to see

Maybe when your smile stops being the only perfection I wish to witness

Maybe when your body stops being the only divine beauty I am greateful for existing

Maybe when your love stops filling my emptiness.

Maybe when I wont have to scream every dawn when we seaparate.

Maybe when that scream stops painting red the sky around the rising sun

I am a liar,like my eyes

I told you my secret

When I will tell you the truth

When my heart breaks for the last time

When the sky cracks under the weight of the truth

When time stops moving forward

When I am weak enough to do it

When the fear of losing your love will not fuel me with strength to forget my nature when I am with you

I deceived you,yet again

I will tell you when that time comes

But I will tell you the truth,just this once

All of this will happen when you stop loving me

So to learn the truth,you will have to kill me

I love you

And you love me.

But its not me.

For the joy of your acceptance

I suffered the heartbreak of your rejection

I love you

Could you love me?