16 Ty

I thought it was cute the way Alex. She was the love of my life, and I didn't know how to tell her. I had to figure a way to express my feeling for her although I know that Alex is crazy as hell. I would watch how Ivy would talk shit about her all over her social media, and think nothing of it. I thought she the most sexiest people in the world. I tried over and over again to not tell Ivy that I was the one who took Alex from her.

She was my best friend and I didn't want to loose her as a friend. I thought I would reach out to Ivy because we haven't spoken in so long. After all we been through I was ready to put the drama aside, and get back to the old us. I wanted to call her, and see how she was doing. I picked up my phone, and I scrolled through my contacts where I found out. I looked at the phone for about 5 minutes before I decide to call Ivy.

"Hey Ivy." I said to her

"Hello who is this." Ivy said to me.

"It's Ty. I said to her.

"Wassup it's been a long time since we talked." Ivy says to me.

"Yeah I know. I been really busy trying to get my act together after being in jail." I said to her.

"What you was locked down and why you didn't call before and tell me you were in trouble." she said to me.

"I was still a little mad at you for what you did to me back in the day." I said to Ivy.

"I didn't for that to happen but me and her were having a conversation. when out of no where she kissed me and then you walked in the room." Ivy said to me.

We talked for what seemed like hours catching up. It felt like we never lost touch. I know it been like 5 years since the situation started. I know the past was the past and we were Young when that stiff happened. But going to jail is no joke. Let me explain what who I was when I in my teens.

I was born Aaliyah Monet Johnson. The only people that will call me by my name were close family members. Of course when I met ivy, she also knew my name. We met when we were in middle school. I always wore my hair long and straight and had my nails done. That was before I cute my hair off and started buy men clothes. When I changed how I looked that is when I changed my name. When I meet Ivy thing she was a dope person. I tried to make a move on Ivy, but I never got no where with Ivy. Over and overs I swirled my hair between my fingers how to make Ivy notice me. But she didn't really seem to care. She saw right through me everytime I tried to flirt. Although things didn't go as planned I still had the chance to be her friend. I tried so much to to date Ivy. I had my eyes in her for some time, but then I knew thing would get weird because she keep friend zoning me. After that I stopped trying to flirt with her. But after Ivy turned me down I started dating femmes and I never really wanted to tell her that I had feelings for her.

I thought about calling Ivy again and telling her how I felt her back in the day. If I do that I don't want thing between me a Ivy to get hella weird. I mean we just started talking again and do something like would make our friendship strange. plus in top of that I still have to be the one to tell her that I was the one that Alex was cheating on her with, and I don't know how I'm going to break that news to her. I'm worried about the reaction I will get when I finally tell her it was me that was sleeping around with her girlfriend. At first I wasn't gonna tell her what was going on with me and her ex, but I don't want her to hear it from someone else what's going on, and we just started talking again. I just have to find the right time to do so before things go left.

Even though she has hurt me in the past, I don't want to leave her in the dark about things. I don't wish bad on her and shit. But she has to understand what's done is done and I don't want no bad karma on my hands behind it. I thought about taking her out on the town and telling about me and Alex, but she needs to be wasted before that happens because I know Ivy for a long time, and when you say something to piss her off the first she is going to do is punch someone in the face, and I don't need her to do that just yet. She was just that cool and if she could I bet ivy would give the homeless the clothes on her back.

Ivy grew up in foster care and never really understood the true meaning of family. That was until she was 18 and able to find out why her birth mother gave her away and the story goes like this. Ivy's mom was always in and out of trouble with the law. The records show that Ivy's mother Victoria was molested by her uncle at a young age. He would sneak into her room at night and he would rape her. But when her mother found out she was pregnant at the age of 17 things changed for her. she did not want to raise the child from from a man that she called Uncle. She thought by giving the baby up for adoption things will go back to normal, and they didn't. Ivy's mom started doing drug and was never the same after that. There were even sometimes when she sold her body for money to buy drugs and food. she thought by giving her her child that the child will have a better life. the child grew up with wonderful parents but that never filled the gap of Ivy never knowing who her family was.