Keeping Secrets

After Syn asked to visit her friends and family for the tenth time I made a point to make time for it. I still wasn't comfortable letting her out of my sight and I can't help but feel like she's hiding something from me.

At first I thought it was because of everything she's been through but I still felt that wasn't it. I went to The Pit myself and destroyed every single thing down there before collapsing the hell hole. I can only imagine how frightened she must have been facing those things but her behavior wasn't adding up.. And it's starting to worry me.

Any time I bring it up she deflects.. making me sure she was hiding something from me. For several days I followed her and Fig around trying to figure it out but all I saw was Fig napping.. a lot. I'll watch her mumbling to herself and pacing as if trying to think of something but the second I show myself she stops and gives me a genuine smile. I'm left with confusion and concern.

I know her.. I know her on a soul level and if she was hiding something from me then it was because she was afraid of hurting me... So what would hurt me? Was it because of the dragon, Nexus? Sighing I lay back on the large couch and close my eyes trying to understand what was happening.

"Rune?" Syn calls my name snapping me out of my thoughts. "Hey, everything okay?" I ask pulling her onto my lap. She leans in and rest her head on my shoulder and I feel at peace. "Yeah, thank you again for letting me visit my family and my friends but I need to visit one other person." She says and sighs. "Who?" I ask frowning. Who else does she need to see?

"Leon.." She says in a small voice and I feel myself stiffen. "Why do you need to see the Vampire Syn?" I ask in a level voice. She's quiet for too long and I feel my beast stir. "I just need to speak with him for a moment okay? It won't be long I promise." I try my best to control my growing anger "If you need to speak to him then I will go with you."

She sits up and I fight against the urge to push her head back down. "You can come but I need to speak to him in private." I can feel my eyes burning and I work the muscles in my jaw. "Why alone? What is going on?" I see her internal struggle and I want to shake her. I bring my hand up to her small face and say "Whatever is going on.. you can tell me. Trust me love."

Her eyes begin to water and she bites her lip, making my heart clench. What was so bad that she was choosing to suffer this alone.. how bad can it be? I search her eyes and see the internal struggle and I say "Please.. I know you're hiding something from me love and if you're doing because you're afraid of hurting me then just tell me. Keeping me in the dark is hurting me.. whatever is burdening you.. let me share that burden. No matter what it is.. we can get through it together."

A large tear breaks free and I catch it with my thumb, wiping it away as I wait. It's tearing her apart keeping this secret.. and all I want to do it take it all for her. Take the pain.. the worry and whatever else is bothering her. I hate seeing her in pain like this... "I.. I'm dying Rune.." Her voice breaks and with it so does my heart... I freeze not knowing if I heard correctly. "You're what?" I ask in a soft voice and another sob escapes her as she says "Dying.."