Rebirth

Life is a bitch, isn't it?

As I was dying after being starved and losing my blood after falling from the stairs I thought that line.My death was not just because of those two factors. It had numerous reasons but the easiest to explain would be these two. My name is Shirogaki Hanma(Hanma is my first name).

I am a [Player]. Yes that is my job occupation. The world after creation of VRMMO has thrived on [Players]. VRMMO was a dream come true for most of us when it was first introduced during Year 2059. We teenagers had always dreamt of such a thing coming true after watching countless anime and reading countless novels over this topic. I was one of early testers of the Nerve Gear in this VRMMO program. The initial games were mostly based on Racing and Shooting as the technology was only beginning to take place.

I was only of the initial and best players of each of the early enactments of the MMOs. I was called the [Mad God]. Yeah, it was a chunibyou name but I liked it. I was from a well off family before my parents died and I had to fend for myself. I was happy when the MMOs launched. They gave me an identity and let me out of my depression from my parents' death. It was hard for the thirteen year old me but the introduction of MMOs let me come out of that shithole. I was not a very bad or lazy student but I was not what you call Extraordinary as well. Last I remember giving my Highschool exam and then the Black Ops Test. I was about under Rank 2000 in the Country for both of them. If you think that is a high rank, please don't. The closing rank for becoming a recruit of the Black Ops was about 783. Like I said 'not a fucking genius'.

But then the MMOs came and I was a pro at them. It was not until Year 2063 that 𝗣𝗿𝗶𝗱𝗲'𝘀 𝗝𝘂𝗱𝗴𝗲𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁 came out.It is the game which in today's time controls about 23.89% of the World Economy. If you want to understand in Simple Language, it is that if the Game one day just shuts up then about 5 nations will just go to war over this very fact. The game affects REAL life that much! I was one of the very first players of the game. I was a fucking PRO at the game for the first few months. I was at an average of top 20-50 during those months. I was on a high adrenaline intake. Then I noticed the build up of various guilds a little too late. Various top-tier(God-tier) guilds had already been introduced and I was a big fish for them. I was thinking of making my own guild. I made one as well but alas I was naive, very very naive. The guild I made was so full of moles that I fucking don't get why I even made that shit up. I was offered up so many offers for joining the guilds but I rejected them all and made my own fucking guild. It was exhilarating. Being a top dog but now I know that the creation of that guild was the biggest mistake of my life and I still regret it.

With me and some of my friends being top players, we made the guild a Demigod tier guild.(5 tiers of guilds- Rank1, Rank2, Super, Demigod, God(top)). It was all going well for 3-4 months but then most of our top players started leaving except for me and my friends. They started joining some very specific top tier guilds and then I knew the true meaning of Betrayal. So many of my comrades gone after we made them who they were. This was too frustrating for me. Then what happened still hurts me. All those players, those comrades of mine started to gang on us remaining members of the guild and exclusively PK us as they knew our weaknesses. Many of my friends quit the game due to being so many times repeatedly being PKed and losing levels. I got dragged from No. 28 to No. 736 in a span of 2 months. I was the only one left of our guild. Even the friends who tried to stay with me had to join one or the other guild to stay safe from the PKs.

I was left all alone. Then began my depression. See the revenue model of the game was something like this: Gold,Properties and Businesses inside the game translated to money outside the game. So being a Player even inside the top rankings without a guild won't earn you much money as the only thing you will have to exchange for real money will be gold which is also required for game progression. So yeah that was quite tricky. Being a guild member means Fixed Monthly salary as Guilds mostly have businesses running which get them revenue.So yeah, after a few years, I couldn't stay dependent on my parents leftover income and the game was not providing me enough money. Many of my friends helped me over the years but even they couldn't continue to help a poor helpless vermin for all those years.

This leads to my current predicament. As I lay over dying, I couldn't help but think that if I had thought more, If I had been a more driven Business thinker then I could have established a better guild, I could have repayed all my friends for their contribution and I could have lived a good life. At death's door, my only wish was that I could somehow change all that happened and fucking start over.

And then I started falling and falling and falling into the endless abyss....

"Wake up or I will kiss you"X4

I shut up the alarm and woke up from the bed covered in sweat. What the fuck just happened. I am getting a very heavy feeling of nausea. For a few minutes, I vomitted in the bathroom and drank water to calm myself down. When I calmed down from the death induced hysteria did I start to think again.

The first thing I noticed was that my body was not malnutritioned but very fit as it was during my highschool days. I was 17 year old chunibyou [Mad God] Hanma but I was also the malnutritioned Depressed as fuck [Solo God] Hanma who just got killed. What the Fucking hell! Did I just time travel! That's so awesome dude. I get a second chance Yay!!

Wait a second... I would definitely not have behaved so much excited when I was 29 so that means that even if I time travelled, it was a soul merging kind of thing because I feel extremely relieved (a middle aged thing) and extremely excited (a teenager thing). Did some God grant me my wish?? Well I don't Fucking care! This time I will prevail. This time the guild Of [Mad Conquerors] will prevail.