Back In Time

Tears streaked Lin Qing's face as she stood before the mirror, clutching her phone tightly.

"Why!"

"Why I am back in time!"

"Why can't I just die!!"

She thrown her phone on the ground and collapse on the floor and continued crying.

She is back to this never-ending nightmare, as if gods are punishing her or she is condemned to suffer without reprieve.

Born into wealth, Lin Qing is betrothed to one of the city's wealthiest men—an enviable position for many, yet for her, it's a hollow dream.

In her past life she loved someone else but she never even had to chance for that love to pass being unrequited. Love , love , love...

It is a poison that lurks within you and it forces you to be a marionette.

So her fiancé's wealth and attractiveness was meaningless to her , she simply didn't want him.

But her fiancé , he just wouldn't take "No" for an answer even though she made it clear to him that she doesn't want to be married to him.

So his relentless pursuing gave her no choice but choose him or choose death.

She chose death in her past life.

After being forced to be with him after he touched her.

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Lin Qing's life began under a dark cloud; her birth resulted in her mother's death, and her father blamed her for the loss of his wife.

She should have asked her father if she had any say in being born, isn't his fault for her mother is death cause how can her mother get pregnant by herself.

Now thinking she rather be a stone or snail than be his daughter or live this life.

Her relationship with her father has always been fraught, marked by a yearning for his approval rather than experiencing genuine love and affection.

Slowly she also lost her love towards her only parent as well.

She now hates him as much as he hates her.

Instead of supporting her or doing anything that a parent should do,her father viewed Lin Qing as a means to solve his problems, coercing her into an unwanted marriage to forge better connections for his other children.

And before this , he was like a wall, an ice wall that would never be warm.

Being used as a tool to repay debts, that's the worth of her existence for him.

Don't parents owe their children for bringing them into the world?

Why is it the other way around for her?

In her previous life, Lin Qing accepted her role, believing it was her duty to repay her father's "debt."

But now, given a second chance, she rejects this notion outright.

Why should she owe her family anything just because they provided her with food, education, and clothing?

If it was too hard to raise her they should have give her to orphanage instead maybe her life would be better.

She refuses to be treated like property to be sold, a mere scapegoat.

Despite being born into wealth, she never truly had the freedom to use it.

Her disdain for money has only deepened with her rebirth.

She wishes her mother had chosen abortion over bringing her into this world.

She thought she could leave this world in her past life so she took pills but someone else possessed her body.

That person lived her life for her.

Maybe other people would hate it but Lin Qing didn't hate someone else was taking control of her life cause it was always like this.

She never had control, she never had any chance at all.

When that person took over her body she finally stopped feeling anything, it was dark and peaceful.

Only bad side was being able to watch that person living her life.

Cause that person choose to be with her stalker fiancé.

She endured being raped being locked up and she cheerfully cooked food for him and eventually they became parents.

Lin Qing really couldn't understanding what type of mentality would allow a person to live like that.

Whenever Lin Qing sees her fiancé it feels like millions of ants crawling under her skin.

She just despises him.

And she finally felt like darkness was getting thicker so she thought she could die finally.

But she woke up 3 years in past...

With more pills in her hand than before, Lin Qing contemplates ending her life once more, hoping this attempt will bring her the peace she seeks.

Suddenly, a voice inside her mind shouted "Host, stop," interrupting her dark contemplation.

"Huh?"

"I am hearing things now, hahaha so great!"