Stalemate (updated)

I was taken advantage of.

All I wanted was your love.

Yet you shoved me aside

You hurt me and lied

Stole my kingdom, my wealth and tarnished my name

And still point the blame on me.

Are you satisfied?

That I tried to make you smile,

That I would do anything I could so you could feel worthwhile.

I shared all that I had,

yet you sought to steal

All of that I held dear,

you claimed me traitor with all to hear

And I don't know if it was by persuasion or fear,

but my allies kept their distance

As you demanded that beg for forgiveness for my existence.

You stepped on my bones to bring you up to a higher ground

and left me bound on the floor while you were crowned.

We've grown up past the childish play,

willing to hurt any who stand in your way.

Do you think this is some sort of game?

That my kingdom is yours to claim?

I tried to stay,

But you only got worse

You coerced all my friends

I told you already, I don't want to play,

So the best thing I could do was leave

And it hurt, I'll admit it's true

At the time, I was so scared of losing you,

More than your harsh words and neglect;

But a tyrant queen gone unchecked

Who sacrifices her subjects to take her fall

Should not rule a kingdom at all.

I've removed myself from the playing field,

And all this power you thought you would wield-

Is gone.

Because what you do is wrong,

You're not happy. Nor will you ever be, because you choose to forever hate and hurt

And all have learned to leave you,

because it was them you deserted.

So in a way I won, though I wish it were a tie. You choose where you are, you choose where you lied. Your spite was your demise.

I wish you could have chosen to be happy.

Because that was all I ever wanted.

~Stalemate.

2017

Edited by Katie Fastaband

Written by Camille Chrisman

3.19.19 now, years later, I did gain something, my voice