Chapter 7

I was sitting on the cafeteria sipping on my cappuccino. I love this thing, I swear nothing is much better than this, I let out a sigh as I was enjoying the evening view sitting on the second floor at window side not even bothering that I was waiting for someone.

"I'm sorry, I'm late." a voice behind me said.

"It's Okay!" I said and smiled at him.

"I'm really sorry, I'm an hour late." he said, I can see genuineness in his eyes, his deep brown eyes seemed guilty. he was looking extremely handsome, one thing I loved about him were his tattoos, he look so handsome with them. His alluring deep brown eyes were shining, his black silky hairs and the bangs shedding on his forehead looked insanely beautiful. He's just a pure definition of charm, I don't deserve this gorgeousness.

"it's Okay! I was enjoying the view haha." I tried to calm him because he was not looking good, I don't know what happened but he seemed upset.

"Shall we go now?" he asked taking my hand.

"Yes!" I sighed.

"Where are we heading to?" I asked him excitedly.

"umm! You'll know yourself soon." he side smiled.

The night view, it was so beautiful, the wind was touching my face as if it was caressing my face. I closed my as I was leaning on the car window. I don't remember the last time I had a view of these things, actually I don't remember the last time I had this much freedom. No, no one ever snatched my freedom from me except myself. It was me who was keeping myself in that dark room ever since my mother died and my dad turned out be a cheater and pretender. The only place where I connect with nature was the garden near my house. I loved sitting there alone I never knew, even the small things nature have made will be this beautiful.

"Hey you ain't wearing seat belt?" Hardin interrupted the me who was admiring the nature.

"huh? Uhh! No! I'll do it right now." I said in a low voice.

Fuckkk I don't even know how to wear it, I'm so dumb.

"Hey are you sure you're 23?" he noticed me struggling with the seat belt, and laughed.

"But- I never wore it!" I said in embarrassment.

"Oh? you rule breaker, let me do it." he leaned a bit towards me. His hands were covering my small body and our faces were a few centimeters away. I don't know about him but I was being seduced by his plump lips and his eyes being busy on that stupid seat belt. I was eventually reminded of what happened to the party, he was looking as much alluring as then.

I guessed he noticed me being seduced by him that he gave a smirk and I lowered my head.

"We're here." He stopped the car.

he went out and opened the car door for me. he reached out his hand. I put my hand into his, I was overwhelmed by his action.

"But where are we?" I asked in amazement.

"It's my favorite place, whenever I feel down I come here." he said taking me inside the huge library.

The library was so beautiful and perfect it was like an old museum. the smell of old books enrolled into my nose. I admired the sculpted library while touching the en-carved walls I saw the ceiling it was like old traditional English carvings.

"do you like it?" he asked looking at me.

"I loved it" I jumped in excitement.

"I love reading books." I said.

"especially, haunted novels? I know it." he smiled

"But How come there's not anyone here?" I stopped running and asked him.

"I booked it." he crossed his arms and popped his shoulders.

"Ohhh! Mr. Hardin Wilson, did so much?"

"Yes, I did" he started coming towards me.

"And why so, may I ask?" I teased him.

"Because I wanted to make a girl so happy that she've never been before." he looked into my eyes while I was searching his. I felt something being touched in my heart. To be honest, no one ever thought about making me happy. I was never loved by someone. I was always a tomboish girl who never had a boyfriend. I was childish but not fool, everyone just thought that I'm dumb. Boys tried to get close to me in highschool and that's because my father was William Young. no one ever loved me for who I am. For sometime I left the hope of getting someone by my side and I hated this thing, I thought I'll never be loved. I realized that tears were already rolling down my cheeks when I realized my life was like this since forever and I didn't even noticed it.

But my heart stopped when he slowly pulled me in a tight embrace, one arm wrapped around my waist and the other placed behind my head.

"Shh! don't cry, I am here for you now, I wanted to do something for you, I'm not good when it comes to feeling, I know I'm not warm and gentle I can't afford to be anyone of this, but since the day I saw you I really fell for you. so please stop making things even more harder, stop making me want to...." both his arms tightened around me as he kissed the crook of my neck.

But you are kind and warm right now. Why? Why are you giving me hope? Why do you make me fall for you more and more? What will I do with my life if you ever leave me?.....Because I know you will. What will happen to me then? I know you're just a sweet talker, you're a cheater like everyone told me, I know you'll corrupt me, But why am I ready to be corrupted myself? Why are you making me ruin myself?

I was melting between his strong and comfortable arms. My legs felt weak. Thanks the heavens he was holding me tight because I wasn't able to stand on my own.

But when I felt his arms starting to loosen, I quickly grabbed his shoulders.

"Don't let go" I let out a thin voice, barely audible, as my cheeks burned in embarrassment.

I felt his gaze on me for a while and then I heard a soft laugh.

Out of the blue, he lifted me up in bridal style and we looked at each other. My heart was a complete mess. My eyes didn't leave his for a second. There he was, standing with me in his arms, without moving an inch.

I couldn't keep my hands to myself. My trembling fingers touching now every inch of his face and stopping on his lips. My heart was pounding so fast that I could actually feel the blood throbbing through my veins.

"I'm so sorry." I said in a low voice and lowered my head.

"No! I'm sorry, I didn't met you before, before all the obstacles in your life, before this hesitation of loving someone." I suddenly lifted my head up. I was amazed by his words, How did he even knew, He's so thoughtful, I didn't expected him to be like this, now I had a doubt, Maybe everyone else had misunderstood him.

Before I could say anymore, he pressed his lips on mine. for a second I was struck in the moment and my eyes left opened. I couldn't think of anything I was a mess. I should resist him, I should push him but why can't I? It's like a rope is linking me to him. I couldn't think of anything except for cooperating with him. I closed my eyes and kissed him back. A tear dropped from eyes, travelling my cheeks, he started kissing even harder. he gently put me down and pinned both of my hands up on the wall and started kissing again, now his lips traveled my neck kissing there gently and slowly. One of his hand traveled through my waist, while the other pinned my hands. I was so weak to resist his grip on my hands. his other hand lifted my T-shirt and his cold fingers touched my waist giving me chills, his hand was cold but the touch was gentle. Even though I was pounding so hard, I tried my best not show him, that I'm hesitant and nervous, I clenched my hands stopping them from covering my body. He suddenly stopped, he noticed that I'm hesitant.

"Have you ever been touched before?" his gaze felt gentle on me and his thin voice was consoling.

"N-No!" I shook my head.

he put me into his embrace again and hugged me as tight. before he parted he placed his hands on my cheeks and kissed my forehead.

"Why- Why did you stopped?" I asked my voice was low.

"Maybe next time." He gave me the same alluring smile that made me fall for him.

AM I FINALLY BEING LOVED? for the first time in my life?