Frozen

Pumasok ako sa school with a heavy heart. At hindi nalang ang utak ko ang hindi gumagana, I think nabibingi na rin ako. My friends are talking to me but I can't hear them. So they began to make a fuss again. Sinasabi nilang may bago na namang ako.

Pagbalik ko sa unit ko, I saw him in his veranda. Lumabas din ako at tumingin sa kalangitan.

"She's pretty. She looks like a celebrity." Bigla kong nasabi as I look at him. But as i look at him, his eyes is too hard to read. That I don't have any clue about what he's thinking. He just look back at me casually.

"You look bad, may sakit kaba?" napangiti na lang ako sa sinabi niya. This vampire is trying to look cool again. Magsasalita sana ako ng nagring ang cellphone niya. Pinanood ko lang siya as he turned his back and answered his phone. Pumasok na rin ako sa loob because I know who is in the other line.

"Noona, they're planning to go in Lapresa this Saturday. I'll come in your house after class." Pagkabasa ko sa message ni Hyunwoo ay para na naman akong isang maliit na gagamba na hinampas ng isang malakas na hangin. My heart is in pain again.

"Who suggested na pupunta sila don?" I replied back.

"It's Jin. Jiyeon is not yet familiar about the places here so." Sagot niya. And i felt like I'm really such a fool I guess. I already know the answer and yet I still asked. And now that he said it clear enough, my heart seems stabbed by a hundred needles again. Siguro nasasaktan ako dahil Jin seems showing me that the time we spent together in that place is nothing but normal. I'm sure I'm just the only one who thinks that it was special.

But it is strange pero parang ayaw paring sumuko ang puso ko. Hindi ko alam kung saan at kalian ko natutunang maging ganito. Ang alam ko lang, my heart is still fighting and dreaming.

So just like the two of us planned, nauna ulit kaming pumunta sa Lapresa. We're here standing in our own crazy outfit. And as I think about it, are we cosplaying some kpop idol? Huh? We are wearing t shirt and jeans with a red handkerchief on our head at ang mga jaket namin ay nakatali sa bewang namin.

"Saan mo kinuha ang mga suot natin hah? " sabi ko sa kanya.

"Wae. You don't like it? This are signature clothes that the kpop idols are wearing yaknow?"

"Huh. Hindi naman sa ayaw ko." Tanging sagot ko. Kpop huh. The truth is I just started to get interested sa kpop because of that song 'on rainy days'.

"Wear this for us to be more unnoticeable." Huh? Galing ba sa korea ang glasses na to? It's kinda funny. Hay naku, ang dami talagang gimik ang batang ito.

Pagkasuot ko sa eyeglass ay tumambad agad sa paningin ko ang bampira. Hinila ko agad si Hyunwoo at tumalikod kami.

"They're here now." Bulong ko sa kanya.

"Okay. Let's do our first plan. We're going to make them waste their time. Acha Noona!"

"Acha!"

....

Sinundan namin ang dalawa habang naghihintay kami nang tamang pagkakataon. Then, Jiyeon started to open her bottled water.

"Noona, let's make her wet para bumalik ulit sila sa baba at magpalit ng damit." He said mischievously.

"Oh.. Right.. That's brilliant Hyunwoo." Sagot ko naman agad. So we quickly run towards them when we saw that Jiyeon raised her bottle to drink it and Hyunwoo bumped at her purposely. Naibuhos sa kanya ang tubig kaya sinigawan niya kami. Pero hindi kami tumigil sa katatakbo hanggang sa nakakubli kami sa isang wall.

"Hahaha.. We did it Noona. That leech deserves it. Grrr." We even made a high five as if we accomplished some great mission. Para kaming mga batang napapatalun sa tuwa. Afterwards ay sinilip namin sila. They are going down now. Mukha ngang nagtagumpay kami sa unang plano namin.

"Okay, let's get ready for the next plan. We're going to ruin their date. Fighting!" the naughty kid cheerfully said again.

"Fighting!"

We waited for them to come back again pero mag-iisang oras na kaming naghihintay ay wala pa rin sila.

"Hindi kaya, hindi natin sila nakitang umakyat?" sabi ko sa kanya.

"What? Posible nga. No way. Let's go now. Hurry!" hinila niya ako at tumakbo kami papunta sa itaas but we can't find them. Saan kaya nagtungo ang dalawang yon?

"Why don't we go separately, if one of us will find them magtawagan nalang tayo." I suggested.

"Okay, let's go!"

Nagtungo na kaming dalawa sa magkabilang direksiyon. Dumiretso ako sa pinakatuktuk ng lugar. Naisip ko kasi na baka nandon sila sa mismong part na pinuntahan naming dalawa back then. Pero habang papunta ako don ay palihim kong dinadasal na sana hindi sila pumunta don dahil kung nandon nga sila ay talagang wala ngang meaning para sa kanya ang mga moments naming dalawa.

Pagdating ko don ay inilibut ko ang mga mata ko sabay sabi ang mga salitang, 'wala sila dito'. But when my eyes reached that very spot, there they are. I'm starting to feel so bad when Hyunwoo called.

"Did you find them? They're not here."

"Yeah, nandito sila. Come up here na." mahina kong sabi.

As I put down my phone, napatingin ulit ako sa kanila. They're doing just the same thing we did before. Kinukunan nila ang isa't isa ng picture while they're laughing. They look so happy. And then, Jiyeon grab Jin's hand and put it in her waist while she raised her phone and took a couple selfie. That's the only thing we didn't do back then right?

My eyes we're glued in them now. Even if I wanted to turn back, I just can't move that It seems like I'm frozen. Then, my heart felt like it is stabbed again but not by a needle anymore. It felt like a knife is deeply stabbed and the world seems like it turned into an eerie wilderness.