LOST LOVE(ONE SHOT)

"When the moon met it's sun, I hope the heart too."

The pitch black sky began to eat the blue pinkish sky and soon the rain started falling down. The wind blew and my umbrella flew away. Not wanting to get scolded by my parents, I run as hard as I could and sheltered in a nearby shop.

When the heavy rain stopped, I find my way to my house. I entered it with my whole body being soaked in water and what awaited me was my mother fuming in anger. She scolded me before I could even dry myself. She did not let me explain. She blamed me for being soaked rather than the rain who had caused it. I cannot get mad at her for I am really the one to blame. Due to my carelessness, my umbrella got flown away. I didn't hold it tight for I was afraid that it would break and got more damage because of me.

After getting scolded, I went straight to my room and took a shower. After drying myself, I began to study again. Mom and dad will scold me if I won't finish answering my assignments before dinner.

I was busy studying when I heard a knock on my door. I paused for a moment before ignoring it. The knock didn't stop for a few minutes until I opened the door and reveal the face the same as mine. "What do you want?" I asked coldly.

She ignored my cold tone and answer my question. "It's already time for dinner so let's go down together and I hope you will join us this time." She held my wrist and drag me towards the stairs but before we could reach the stairs, I snatched my arm back.

"I'm not yet finish doing my assignments so go ahead and eat without me," I said. The girl in front of me looked at me with sad eyes. "I thought you'll be able to join us this time."

"Don't worry about me, I can take care of myself," I said before returning to my room.

I continue doing my assignments and did an advance study until late at night. When the sleepiness began to ate my energy, I laid in my bed and went to sleep.

I woke up before the sun could rises. I head downstairs and accidentally heard the conversation between my mother and father.

"When will Aria take her studies seriously? She's nothing like her sister Arie. Arie is talented and bright young lady unlike Aria who is always reading those bullshit novels. Why can't she really educational books instead those crap?" Mother said.

I don't plan on eavesdropping any longer but what my father said made me lose track. "We should have just sent her to a strict boarding school. I should have done it sooner. Even Arie was getting affected because of her actions. Aria will soon be the cause of Arie's death."

A tear fall down from my eyes. I thought I wouldn't cry because of it but I was badly hurt by their words. Why do I keep getting hurt? I just don't understand why am I suffering like this?

I stop myself from thinking any negative thoughts and silently went back to my room. I don't want to hear what they will say next, I might burst into tears and won't be able to stop myself.

I did my morning routine and welcome the morning despite it being ruined. After I was done, I quickly went to my school. I am walking down the hallway leading to my room when I was stopped by two girls.

"I don't know where did you get the confidence to still study here after everything you have done to your sister," said by one of them.

"Don't ever touch her again or else you'll meet your end!" The short haired girl said.

"She's so kind to you yet you still bully her! What kind of sister are you?"

I clenched my hand. "Calmed down, they're getting mad at you because they're only thinking what's the best for your sister," I said to myself.

I bowed my head and apologize. "I'm sorry for causing troubles."

I walked past them and entered my room. I sat in the very back corner of the room. I read my book and waited for the bell to rang. I remained quiet during the morning classes and didn't disturb anyone. It's better to stay silent rather than being in trouble.

When the bell rang, all my classmates left the room expect for Arie and her friends—my ex-friends. "Aria, let's eat lunch together!" Arie said with a smile on her face.

She was indeed bright and beautiful. If only we weren't twin sisters, I will gladly accept your offer. "Sorry Arie but I still need to do something. Go ahead and eat with your friends, I can handle myself."

"But Aria, I want to eat with you," she said. I looked at Kian who is beside Arie. He's looking at me with hatred. I really can't blame them. I sighed before leaving the room. "If you began to hate me, everyone around you will be at ease and happy."

I reached the rooftop. No matter how many times I come to this place, the view always mesmerized me. This place is the only place that made me feel like I'm free.

I sat in one of the bench and enjoy the view by myself. I wear my earphones and play a relaxing music. It calmed me down and I can relax even for a little while. I can forget all my problems just because of the view. "I hope everything will be as peaceful and beautiful as this scenery," I mumbled.

"It won't be as long as you're here," like a strong wind, I got shiver down my spine. Even with my earphones on, I can hear his voice like it was already embedded on my mind.

I quickly remove my earphones and faced him. My hands began to shake so I hid it in my back and tried to stop it but it was of no use. "Why are you here?" He coldly said.

I fix my composure and spoke. "I will leave now."

"Did I ordered you to leave!?" He said.

I looked at him coldly before answering him. "You are in no position to stop me from leaving. No one can stop me or even isolate me."

"I see. It must be the reason why you're shackles are loose and was always on a rampage," he muttered.

I stopped on my tracks. "You're right," I said before leaving him in the rooftop alone.

While walking down the stairs, I saw Arie and two other girls fighting. The curly-haired girl raised her hand and tried to slap Arie but I stopped her from doing it. "Who are you to lay your dirty hands on my sister?"

"Oh wow! Trying to be a heroine saving your sister?" The curly-haired girl said.

I tightened my grip on her hands and she groaned in pain. "Let go of me!"

"Let her go or I'll scream!" The girl beside her said.

I don't want to create any trouble so I let go of the girl's hand. "Mind your own business Aria!? Why are you protecting your sister when you're the one who spread those malicious rumors about her!? Don't act like a heroine!"

"Stop spouting bullshit, Denisse!" I said. Denisse began to reach for my hair and pulled it like a crazy mad dog. Arie and Denisse's friend tried to stop us but they are only getting hurt.

I grab Denisse hands and stopped her but she only tightened her grip on my hair that made me groaned in pain. "Stop it, Denisse."

The bell rang but Denisse still haven't let go of her hand and I was being pushed by her towards the edge of the stairs. I shoved her hands and she pushed me. Trying to hold on to something to balance myself, Denisse once again pushed me. Arie got involved and she lost her balance, causing her to fall down the stairs. I tried to reach her hand but I wasn't able to hold it in time. The students who are returning to their class witnessed Arie's fall. Even Arie's friends saw it.

"Arie!" Mavis shouted.

"Aria pushed Arie down the stairs! We tried to stop her but we ended up only getting hurt!?" Denisse said.

Arie's friends looked at me in anger. They judge the whole situation based on my expression and just because of what Denisse said.

I tried to explain to them but I stopped myself from doing so. My anxiety are attacking me right now and my the wounds that haven't even healed yet began to open up again. "Calm down Aria," I mumbled to myself

I saw Devin—our childhood friend, running down the stairs when she saw Arie. He pushed me aside to get to Arie fast. My hand hit the ground and I could feel the pain coming from it.

"What did you do this time Aria!?" Devin shouted.

He came towards me and grab me by my uniform. "I won't ever forgive you Aria!? I will loathe you for the rest of my life!?"

Kian and Brent stopped Devin. "Calm down dude, Aria is still a woman," Kian said.

"Let's get Arie to the hospital first. She already lost to much blood," Brent said.

Devin let go of me and drop me to the ground. I grasp for air. I stand up and tried to walked towards Arie but the students who were watching blocked my way.

The teachers came and assisted Devin and the others. Some of the teachers make the other students went back to their classrooms. "You need to come with me, Ms. Aria Luella Hearts."

I'm currently in the Dean's office because of the accident. My hands can't stop trembling and I barely be able to stand earlier. I can't stop thinking what happened earlier. What if Arie is even more in danger? I just really hope that Arie is safe. Everyone misunderstood the situation earlier.

"Why did you have to go that far, Ms. Aria Hearts?" The Dean's question made me back to reality. Even him misunderstood what happened earlier. If I explain my side, is he gonna believe it? Will everyone believe it? Are they gonna be able to understand the situation?

"No matter how much you hate your sister, what you did this time really crossed the line. You shouldn't ket your jealousy eat you," he added. Right, even if I explain my side, no one will believe it because in their eyes, I'm a failure and an overzealous sister.

"I won't let this slide. I need to suspend you for a whole week and in those span of time, I hope you repent for your sins," he said. "You can leave now."

I walked towards the door and opened it. Before stepping outside, I fix my composure—the cold and heartless one. I went to my classroom and get my bag.

Once I entered the room, it began to filled with murmurs. I ignored them and get my bag. I haven't reached the door yet when they suddenly started throwing wet papers at me. It hurts but I didn't showed any pain to them because they will keep attacking me if I did.

I went straight to my room when I got home. I read some books to keep myself distracted. After a few hours, the door of my room opened and reveal my mother who was in a rage. She snatched the book away from my hand and throw it away. I went to pick up my book but she tightly held my wrist and slap me hard.

"You crazy little b*tch!? What did you do to your sister!? What did your sister do to you to deserve those kind of things!?" She said then slapped me again.

My father entered my room and stopped my mother. "Let go of me!! I will kill this b*tch right now!?"

I heave a sigh. "Mother, are you willing to listen to my explanation?"

"Why would I? I know you will just lie and won't admit your mistake!? You already deceive us so why should I listen to your explanation? And, aren't you the one who spread the rumors that your sister go on a dates with many men and did something!?" She angrily said.

I let out a laugh. "Mother, you listened and believe what other says but you keep your ears from listening to your own daughter."

"Why should I believe you?"

"Mother, I am your daughter by blood. You're the one who raised me so you should know me the best yet you didn't know anything about me and didn't even believe me. You are a fool, mother," once those words escaped my mouth, I received a slap from my father.

"Don't leave this room until I say so," he said before walking out of the room with my mother.

After they left, I locked my room and put the book that was thrown to its original place. I opened my computer and play some online games. I didn't even notice that I was crying while playing the game. I instantly shut off my computer and let my brain accept all the negative thoughts.

"All of you are so unfair. Why didn't you listened to me even once?" I said while crying. "Why didn't you believe when I said I'm not the one behind the rumors? Why am I always being left out? Can't you guys see that I am suffering too? I was hurt. Deeply hurt but I hide it because I know that you won't even care about it."

"I tried dealing with all my problems alone without anyone's help. But I can't overcome all of them without help. Even though I tried to ask for help, no one will reach out their hand to me."

"I thought your words won't matter anything to me but it really did. It deeply cut me and wounded my heart. It left me traumatized. My anxiety keep attacking me non-stop, killing me every single time. It made me hard to breathe," I mumbled.

I lay down on my bed with a heavy feeling inside. I'm staring in my white ceiling. The feeling of in pain didn't let me sleep until the sun rises, my eyes are wide open. I get up from my bed without feeling anything at all. It seems like the pain really wounded my heart so deep to the point that I couldn't feel any pain at all. Was it a good thing? Maybe for me, it was.

I soaked myself in the cold water. It made my soul's awake from it's deep slumber and at last, I feel the pain once again. It was worse than any physical pain. Maybe, I shouldn't have let myself soaked in cold water. Despite the cold water, I remained in the tub and let the darkness ate my soul.

I hurriedly get out of the water and grasp for air. My whole body was soaked in water and was shivering because of it. I quickly get a towel and dry myself. "I'm gonna catch a cold."

I walked towards my closet and change my clothes to comfortable one. After that, I sat in my bed and read the book that I've been reading last night. A tear escaped my eyes without me noticing it and fall in my book. I wipe my tears but it doesn't stop. I'm still affected by what happened last night.

I pulled out my phone and call my brother but no one answered. I called him again, still, he didn't answer. I called him for the fifth time yet no one answered. I really need someone to talk to right now. Someone who knows me and understand me well but that someone doesn't answer me right now.

"Maybe he hates me now just like everyone else. He probably caught of the news about me pushing Arie down the stairs," I thought.

"Stop overthinking, Aria," I mumbled.

My hands began to tremble and my heart started beating so fast. I touched my chest and massage it but it was no use. I hurriedly went to my study table and get my medicines. Luckily, my anxiety stopped. I was able to calm down thanks to the medicine my psychologist prescribe me.

I sat down again and tried to called my brother and this time, he answered.

(Hello) he said. When I heard my brother's voice, my mouth were like sealed and I can't seem to remember what I was going to say.

(Hello? Aria? Are you there?) He asked.

"Hello, brother," I answered. Before he could even speak, I get straight to the point. "I know you already heard the news about your sister, right?"

He remained silent. "You really did. Are you gonna be the same as others? Are you going to blame me too?"

"Aria, I don't know what really happened but many witnessed the scene. Almost all of the students said that you pushed Arie," he said on the other line.

I clenched my fist. "You won't hear my side?"

"I-I need to have some time alone to think about the situation. Mother and father was really mad and Arie was in a very serious condition," he said.

"I see then let's end this call now. I don't want to bother you anymore. Bye," I said.

I ended the call immediately and cover myself with blanket. I don't feel like I have someone to hold on to right now. I feel like everyone left me behind. No, rather, I feel like they didn't care about me at all. It was sad yet it's the truth. I cried silently until I feel my eyes getting tired.

I opened my eyes only to see that it was already dark outside. Like a ghost, I get up from my bed and went downstairs. Fortunately, my parents are not around or else I'll be dead. I drink some water and eat some junk foods. It's the only food I xan fin inside this big house. While eating, I went back to my room and locked it again.

I opened my computer and watch some tragic movie. I want to cry as hard as I can so when my parents came back, they will noticed that I needed them. It was an act only done by attention seeker.

In the middle of the movie, I heard my parents' car. I looked outside my window and saw them getting out of the car and entering our house. They seem to be in a hurry. A few minutes later, I heard a knock. I opened it and my mom slapped me hard. "You really did went far this time!? Your sister was in a critical condition because of you!?"

I heard from my brother that she was indeed in a serious condition but for my mother to slapped me this hard, it must really be critical. "I'm sorry," I apologize.

"Do you think your sorry will make your sister's condition better?" She asked furiously. I remained silent and let my mother scold me.

"You're really an ungrateful brat!? I should have just let you die in the hospital that time!?" She said that made me lost in my thoughts. Like a knife, it pierced my heart and wounded me again. Like a glass, my heart broke into pieces and left a void in it.

I looked at my father when I came back to my senses but he diverted his gaze to my mother. With a teary eye, I stared at my mother. "You didn't mean that right, Mother? I know you said those words because Arie was in a critical condition and the situation overwhelmed you."

I expected mother to deny it but she just remained silent. The atmosphere was getting worse and it made me hard to breathe.

"Let's go now, my dear. You need to take a rest," father said that avert our attention to him. Father drag mother out of my room.

After they left, I fall on my knees and burst into tears. My anxiety are attacking me right now, my whole body was trembling and I can't breathe properly. "C-calm d-down, A-aria," I said between my sobs.

I tried calming myself but it only worsen my condition. Soon, I was grasping for air and doesn't have the strength to stand up. I need to drink my medicine. "S-stand u-up, A-aria."

With my remaining strength, I stand up and drink my medicine. I thought the medicine worked but after just a few minutes, my anxiety attacked me again. My whole body began to tremble again.

I lean my body to my desk and fix my breathing pattern. It took me some time to calm myself. After calming myself, I laid down in my bed again and take a rest.

"What is it that you wanted to talk?" He asked.

I looked at my hand when I saw him staring at it. I quickly hid my hand when I noticed it was trembling and give him a smile. He turned his gaze on me and locked eyes with me. I looked at my surroundings when it was already getting awkward.

"Since when?" He asked. "Huh?" I acted like I didn't know what he meant.

"Don't make me look like a fool, Aria. You know what I'm talking about." I remained silent and change the topic. "What is it that you wanted to talk about? Please get straight to the point and don't waste my time."

He sighed. "Explain to me what really happened 'that time.' I wanted to hear your side."

I was quite taken aback by his words. Should I tell him? Will he believe me? Is he going to say that I'm lying? Is he gonna hate me too? What if he despise and curse me for the rest of my life?

"Aria!" He called my name that made me back to reality.

"Huh? Oh sorry, what are you saying just now?" I said.

"I'm just waiting for you to explain yourself," he said. I hesitated at first before telling him the actual truth. "It was an accident. I didn't deliberately pushed Arie down the stairs. Before the incident happened, I saw Arie and Denisse fighting. I don't know what's the cause of their fight. When Denisse tried to slap Arie, I stepped up and stop her and that's when the fight between me and Denisse started."

He stayed silent and let me continue. "Denisse pulled my hair and keep pushing me to the edge of the stairs. She pushed me, luckily, I didn't fall down but she pushed me again. I tried to hold on to something but my balance was off and Arie got involved. And that's what happened."

He nodded his head like he believe me. "Why didn't you explain it to them?"

I looked away. "Do you think they will listen to me? Do you know what it feels to be isolated by the words people told you? Their eyes that tells that they won't and will never believe you? You don't know how hard it is."

"I'm sure at some point they will believe you," he said. It was a reassuring sentence but it didn't make me feel assured.

"When is that? When I decided to ignore them and kill my emotions? When I erase their whole existence on my mind?" I sarcastically said.

I looked at him again. He tried to say something but stopped himself. "What do you think is the reason why I restraint myself from explaining further?"

"I don't know," he answered.

I faked a laugh. "Knowing that people won't even listen and accept my explanation scares me. the eyes that shows they're not interested, it's terrifying."

"I'm sorry," he said. I turned my gaze to the sky before speaking. "I won't accept your apology. It's hard to forgive you and the people who made me this way. Don't you think it's unfair that I'm always apologizing for the mistakes that I didn't even did yet people never apologize to me for the mistakes that they've committed."

"Although you won't forgive me, I still need to apologize to you. For not being there in your darkest times, for not believing you and understand you, and for hurting you. Words are not enough to express how apologetic I am but I will keep apologizing to you and correct my mistakes in some way," he sincerely said. I didn't talk. I continue to look up at the sky.

Suddenly, we heard the school bell rang, it's time for the afternoon class. I felt Kian standing up but I didn't bother turning my gaze to him. "We need to go now."

"I won't attend today's afternoon class," I quickly answered. "Just go and leave me alone."

He didn't pushed me further and just go back to our classroom. At last, I was alone. I calmed my mind and let myself relax.

I was reminded of what happened earlier. Kian's apology took me by surprise. I didn't expect that someone would apologize to me but I didn't even feel glad. I didn't feel anything despite him being sincere earlier. Perhaps, I was already used of being accused and always apologizing for the sins I didn't commit.

There are still some things that I wanted to tell him but I restraint myself because he won't stay by my side. He already left me once—they already left me behind, so I know he(they) can do it again. I don't want to keep my hopes up again. I don't want to make myself believe that they would still love me and give me the attention I crave for. I don't want to suffer again.

Hours passed and it was already dismissal time. I walked back to my classroom. While walking down the hallway leading to my room, someone grab my hand and drag me to the bathroom. She pinned me against the wall. It made me wonder why I didn't ecen groaned in pain.

"What are you still doing in this school!?" Sh shouted right in front of my face. "Why aren't you answering!?"

She slapped me. "You should just go cram somewhere!? You don't belong here!?"

"She's right!? You're worse than a monster!?"

"You don't deserve to be her sister!?"

"You doesn't deserve to be part of the Hearts family!?"

"You're an outsider!?"

Hearing what they were saying, I was once lost again in the darkness. It's slowly eating me and killing my soul. My anxiety is attacking me again. It's making me hard to breath every single time.

The girls around me keep saying hurtful words. Soon, they started hitting me physically. Pulling my hair, punching me and kick my stomach when I fall to the ground. I let my arms shield my face and just silently let them finish.

I don't know why I let them hit me but my whole body feels tired. I am physically, mentally, and emotionally tired. I'm not in my best condition. I'm not stable. I really need someone to help me stand up but who will help me? Who will stay by my side? Who will care for someone untalented and trash like me?

Despite being lost in my own thoughts, I forced myself to stand up and walk towards my classroom. I didn't care about the people continuous gazes. Upon entering the classroom, my classmates who was left behind looked at me in shock but didn't even try to help me.

I went towards my desk and saw a writing in my desk and my stuffs scattered around my table. I cleared up my desk and saw the full writing. 'You should just kill yourself instead of showing up in to this school,' is what written on my desk. It was no use erasing what was written on my desk since things like this will keep happening to me.

I turned my attention to my stuff scattered in the ground. My notes are ruined, my pencils are broken and my sketchbook are torned. I picked up my stuffs and put them in my desk. I am nearly putting my stuffs in my bag when I smelled something unpleasant.

I smelled my bag and it smelled moldy lunch food. I opened my bag widely and saw a food inside my bag. I looked at my classmates but they all just turned away. I sighed. I just put all my stuffs inside my bag and left the classroom.

Once I was home, I immediately went to the bathroom and put away all my stuff. I wash my bag and let it dry in the dryer. After that, I separate my stuffs into two group: the stuff I can still use and to the stuff that needed to be thrown away.

I was almost finished separating it, all is left was the sketch book. I opened it all the paper drop to the ground. There was nothing useful left in ny sketchbook so I out it in the stuff that needed to be thrown away. I burned them all outside and not even a single evidence of their existence can be seen.

I went back to my room afterwards. I put my belongings to my extra bag and added a pencils, pens, eraser, and highlighters. I put it away once I'm done and read my book. I spent hours reading it until I felt myself feeling tired. I put aside my book and went to sleep.

"You should have just taken it."

"Ungrateful!!"

"Useless!!"

"Troublemaker and a bitch!!"

"I should have just ket you die in the hospital!?"

"You shouldn't have been born!?"

"Unlucky and unlove child!?"

"Attention seeker!!"

I woke up grasping for air and my whole body sweating. I put my hand on my chest and calm myself. After calming myself, I lay down in ny bed again and cover my eyes using my arms.

Their words keep repeating inside my head to the point it gave me headache and losing consciousness. When I couldn't sleep again, I get up from my bed and start my morning routine.

Afterwards, I ate some cookies that I found in my room. I also opened my computer and watch something. While watching, I remember that my phone are still off so I opened the drawer of the study table where'd I put my phone and get it.

I waited for a few minutes for my phone to open. Once it opened I quickly tap the messages but I halted. Why would I open the messages? They won't even send me a message. Who would you always try to get your hopes up, Aria? It's stupid. I began to question myself because of the stupidity that I will make.

Anyway, I still open the messages but this time, it's not to look for their message, rather, I opened it because of the arts academy I'm attending. I haven't gone there for over a week already, I'm sure they're wondering the reason why.

An hour had passed, I get up from my chair and fix myself again before going to the school.

There aren't many students yet when I arrived. I walked up to my classroom and sat in ny chair. The writings yesterday are still in ny desk and was completely visible to the naked eyes. I let it go and just pull out the book I've been reading.

I'm minding my own business and ignoring my classmates who entered the room. I closed my ears in their insensitive words not until someone snatched my book away from me and stamped it on the ground.

"You're really shameless, aren't you!?" Said by my classmate named Nevanna.

I looked at her coldly and she laughed sarcastically. "You're really shameless. How dare you look at me like that!?"

"I attend this school to learn and gain knowledge and I have eyes so how do you expect me to look at you?" I backfired.

"We'll see later what will you gonna do to be able stand up against us," she said then walked away.

I sighed and picked up my book and read once again. When the bell rang, I hid my book and get my notebook and listen to my teacher's discussion.

After the morning class ended, I went to the cafeteria and eat my lunch. While eating, a group of girls went into my direction and interrupted me.

"Look who's here!? The shameless b*tch of the Hearts family!?" She said loudly. Everyone inside the cafeteria stared at me with contemn.

"Arie is unlucky to have a sister like her."

"The whole Hearts family must have felt embarrassed because of untalented her."

They keep murmuring like bees and like fly sticking their nose to someone's business. "Why aren't you talking? Aren't you used to this kind of situation? Aren't you used to throw your hands at someone and beat the hell out of them? Why aren't you doing that?" She said again.

I continue eating my lunch and completely ignore their existence. Suddenly, the girl on my left poured her lunch on me and her friends did the same. I was quite shocked by their action but I instantly regained my composure.

"Oops sorry, my hand slipped," she said then laugh. The students inside the cafeteria laugh with her. I clenched my fist in anger.

I looked at her with coldness then I quickly grabbed my orange juice and spilled it on her. She was surprised by what I did. "What the hell fo you think you're doing, shameless b*tch!?"

I stand up from my seat and faced her. "I thought there's a garbage can on my left side that's why I throw away my orange juice but I didn't expected it to be a person."

"You!? You will pay for this!?" She tried to slap me but I grabbed her hands and shove her away. After that, I left the cafeteria.

While walking towards my classroom, everyone was looking at me and murmuring to each other. I ignored them and get my p.e uniform. I went to the bathroom and changed my clothes. I also wash my uniform afterwards.

It was dismissal time. The girls in my class and in the other section gang up on me. We're currently inside the bathroom. They were surrounding me and spouting words.

"You don't deserve to live!!"

"You don't deserve the Hearts surname!!"

"Die!? Kill yourself!?"

"Get lost!!"

"You will pay for what you did to Arie!? You will suffer 10 times the pain she felt.

They started beating me. Pulling my hair, slapping me so hard, punching my stomach and my chest and even kicking me. My whole body aches because of them but I didn't retort. I was too tired to fight. Too tired to care about their bullying. I was so done fighting for myself when in the end, I'll be the one getting oppressed and they'll be the victim.

"You're always creating trouble for your family, have you got no shame!?"

"Your parents should have left you die!?"

"You're untalented!? You're more worse than a monster!?"

"Jealous bitch!?"

"I want to gauge your eyes and cut off your tounge so you won't be able to see and even speak!?"

"Do you think people would still believe you? They won't because you're a liar and an attention seeker!?"

"You're always the villainess in everyone's eyes!?"

"Sucks to be you."

Their words keep repeating inside my head until I got home. I was beaten to death by them. Even my insides are having a hard time keeping itself alive.

Once I entered my room, I fall to the ground. With my hands on my stomach, I massage it calm myself before my anxiety attacked me again. Luckily, I calmed down but I wasn't able to stand up from the ground. I remained silently and feel my whole body. I groaned in pain when it started aching. It hurts so much that I cried for not handling the pain.

Despite the pain, I crouched towards my study table to get my phone and called my brother. It's been ringing for 10 minutes already but he still hasn't picked up his phone. I sighed in defeat. I stopped calling him. What do I expect? He also forgot that he has another sister.

His name entered my mind and completely erased what I'm thinking. Without ado, I called his number but as expected, no one answered. I smiled in pain.

"You're really a fool, Aria. Didn't you told to yourself that you won't expect any from them but here you are, calling them and tried asking them for help," I laughed at my own thoughts. I laughed at myself for being such a fool, for believing them again and for putting my trust on them.

Stand up and tried to went to the bathroom. After I opened the door, I fall once again. I looked up at my feet and saw that it's swelling. I closed my eyes because of the pain when I stand up again. I used the sink to support myself.

When I got a good look on my face, I saw how messed I was. My arms are full of wounds and even my neck has one. I ignored how I look like and picked up the first aid kit and started aiding myself. Once I'm done putting bandage on my right foot, I started treating the wounds on my arms. My wounds are still fresh, there's even blood coming from it. Then, I stropped my clothes and treat the bruises.

When I stand up after treating my wounds and bruises, my eyes noticed a violet with a hint of black color on my back. I tried to touched it but I suddenly felt a pain in my arms. That bruise alone indicate that I shouldn't ignore this matter any further but what can I do? Fight back? As if I have a power to fight back. My mother and father will surely side with them, the whole school will ignore it and my father will surely burried my matter into the depths of ground. He won't let me tarnish our family's name let alone let me fight back.

I didn't noticed that I was already crying. I wiped my tears but it kept flowing down. I already know that I won't be able to fight them back, I already know it but it was just really worse that the world always reminded me of that. I am a human who wasn't bestowed any gifts, not even a power nor something I could call my own.

Suddenly, I felt an inkling sensation to hurt myself. My heart beating faster every single step I take towards our kitchen. Upon getting a knife, I went back to ny room and locked it.

Facing my own reflection in the mirror, staring deep at my soul. Cutting the links between my heart and mind. Going down the memory lane that filled with agony and despair, I delete all of it. The pain and sufferings left a void in my heart, a deep wound that even time could not heal it. I looked at my reflection for the last time. I smiled knowing this pain would not last forever, knowing my heart will be complete again, knowing I won't remember every single pain and knowing I won't see them ever again.

I filled the tab with water, enough to drown my soul and enough to cover my whole body with blood but not enough to cover the deep wound in my heart.

I soaked myself in the cold water, and picked up the knife that was on the marble tile. The knife reflect my eyes, the glowing blue eyes that I was once so proud of lost its light and even its life.

I started playing with my wrist. The red liquid started flowing down and tainted the crystal clear water. It's a beautiful scene only a few who's the same as me could witness.

I drown myself with my own blood. The blood that I thought I was lucky to have killed me. It reap my soul and left a hole in my core. The blood that I was once grateful for lost its sense and use in this world—the chaotic world.

I began to feel my eyes closing off so I let it be and let the coldness of water eat me.

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Kian's POV

As the darkness of the night began to unfold, the bright moon that I was expecting to see was cannot be found. Even the stars shining along with it didn't lit up the night sky. The dark sky was clear like the evidence of the moon and stars' existence were erased.

"Kian!" I call from my friend made me come back to my senses.

"We've been calling you for 10 minutes now but you haven't answered us as if we never existed," Vince said.

"Why are you even staring up at the sky?" Devin asked.

"The sky was so clear today," I answered.

Mavis sighed. "Seriously, dude? We have more important matters to discuss than just staring at the sky," Devin irritatingly said.

Vince nodded his head in agreement. "I heard Aria bullied our classmates and hurt them physically."

"Seriously!? I thought she will stay lay-low because of what happened but I never expected her to be so bold and shameless," Mavis said.

I sighed. "Are you really going to cover your ears and close your eyes? You believe them easily even without sufficient evidence but when Aria tried to explain herself, you does not even care nor give her a chance to speak. Your facial expression is the evidence that you have no interest in knowing or even finding the truth," I blatantly said.

The irritation was evident in Devin's eyes while guilt took over Vince and Mavis.

"How do you expect me to believe a liar? She lied many times in front of me yet she doesn't even feel embarrassed about it. She even framed Arie and now she tried to kill her own sister. Her sister who has the same appearance as her yet their attitude says otherwise," Devin firmly said.

Aria will never do that. Aria will always be the Aria we know, she didn't change. It's the people who change their view on her. Just thinking how others mistreated her angered me. I looked at Devin coldly. "You, who are always with them since they were a kids, should know better than anyone else their attitude and true self."

Devin stand up from his seat and grabbed me by my collar. "Even if I know them since they were a kids, people change as long their surroundings change. Arie remained the same while Aria changed a lot to the point I asked myself 'who is she?' She turned into a terrible person."

I also grabbed Devin by his collar and looked at him in the eyes. "You're right, Devin. People change but not because of their surroundings but because they decided it for themselves. Also, you're wrong about Aria. She didn't change. You didn't noticed it because your eyes was always at Arie. She remained the same as she was since she was a kid and that's what enraged me. Do you know why?"

He didn't answered. "Because no matter how many people mistreated and didn't love her, she remained humble and understanding. She still love them and care for them. She gives everything but no one reciprocate it." I said in a monotonous tone.

"Kian, Aria just called you," my mom said that caught our attention. When we looked at her, we are as shocked as her. "Oh my goodness! Did you two are fighting just now?"

I ignore my mom's question and get my phone from her. I looked at the one missed call coming from Aria. I wonder why she called but what I have a bad feeling about this. I tried to call her back but she didn't answer. "I'm going to the Hearts' mansion."

I ran towards the garage and started the engine of my car. I tried to call Aria again but she still hasn't picked up her phone. I drove to their house which took me an hour.

The enormous mansion of the Hearts' family was covered in darkness. No light was opened and not even a single person's soul could be seen. It was like this house was haunted for over a century now.

I pressed the doorbell but no one answered, thus I decided to trespassed the mansion. The main door was locked, fortunately the back door was opened.

I used my phone's flashlight to light up the dark surroundings. I quickly find Aria's room. While roaming around the house, a dim light that was coming from one of the room caught my attention. I ran towards it and immediately knocked on the door. When no one answered, I broke it down and search for Aria. She was nowhere inside her room except for the bathroom.

I twist the doorknob and it reveal Aria's body submerged in a bloody water. I immediately went to her and lifted her out of the water. I checked her pulse but it was weak. I quickly did first aid on her.

After a minute, she woke up and grasp for air. I caressed her back and hold her like she was an ancient treasure. "Don't leave Aria. Don't leave, the one whom I consider as the moon. Don't leave and keep shining until those fallen stars find their way to the light again," I said.

I called my personal doctor and ordered him to come to the Hearts'mansion. While waiting for him, I'm applying pressure to Aria's wrist. I also began to notice the wounds and bruises on her body. It made me feel guilty. If I was always by her side, she won't suffer like this. She won't even experience something like this. I left her alone. I left her alone in the middle of the war.

The doctor came and treated Aria's wounds. While observing what he's doing, his forehead crinkled. "What happened to this young lady? Her wounds and bruises seemed to have been caused by humans worse than the monsters itself. This is terrible than what I have thought."

"Please treat her with care, Dr. Brentwood," I said. He smiled at me before answering. "I will do my best to treat this lady's wounds and make sure she'll be healthy again."

Afterwards, Dr. Brentwood left. I was left with her alone. I was staring up at the dark clear sky. No stars and no moon. It's sad seeing the sky like this.

I heard a faint sound coming from the bed. I quickly looked back and saw Aria trying to sit. I went to her and help her. She was taken aback by my presence. "What are you doing here?" She asked with a puzzled look on her face.

"Why am I still alive? Why? And how come you're here? How did you know?" She asked.

"Calm down. I will answer all your questions once you settled down," I answered.

It seems like what I said worked. She calmed down or should I say she remained silent. "First and foremost, how did it all lead to 'that'?"

She looked away, not wanting to answer my question. I sighed. "I will wait for your answer so keep your time and don't feel pressured."

"It's my turn to ask." She looked at me like she was pleading for an honest answer. "How did you know? If you answer this, all the questions inside my head will be answered."

I fix my composure before answering. "You called me which I missed. A question started building up inside my head because of your call so I rushed to get in here and what awaited me tremored my whole being."

"I accidentally called your number," she looked away as she answered the question I haven't asked.

A smile was form in my face. "You're lying Aria."

She instantly turned her gaze on me. "I didn't lie, Kian."

"Yes, you are. You always looked away when you lie, Aria," I said. She didn't answer which made me worried. "Are you alright? Did you feel any pain just now?"

"No, it's just, I was quite shock," she said. "I know that you already know the answers to the question inside your head."

She instantly turned serious. "Don't do it again, Aria. Please don't. I'm begging you."

A tear fall from her beautiful blue eyes. "It's the only answer I know to end everything."

I hold her hand tightly than ever. "You don't know how hard it is to always live in the darkness. You don't know how hard it is to be inside this house that I no longer felt as my home. You don't know how my emotions died as time flew by," she said between her tears.

"I always crave for their attention and love which no one showed and no one took a glance on their back where I was always. Their love was like the February 29 in the calendar, the day everyone look forward to. The existence of that day only happens once in every four years just like their love. I can't even compare their love to that date," she said bitterly.

"In search of love, I also lose myself. I even forgot who the real me is. I forgot about my true self because of the mask that I always put on. The mask that always showed that I am okay although my heart shatter every single because of that lie. People teared me apart like a paper that was tainted with mistakes. I am that paper. So now, tell me, how could I still hold on to this life that holds no value to others?" She was crying as she said those words.

"I've been in the dark for too long that I forgot how warm the light can be," she said.

I didn't know what to say to her. I don't know how to console her. But I do know one thing, it is to pulled her up from the darkness. Save her from her drowning thoughts and be the light that will warm her from the cold water of her past.

"I apologize. Those words are not enough to express myself but I do know one thing that I need to do. Let me be the one to hold your life. I will be your light and warm you up. I will be your oxygen under the water, the one who'll help your breath from your drowning thoughts. So please, I'm begging you, hold on to me and I'll be your guide to escape," I said sincerely.

She hesitatingly hold my hand. "This will be the last time I will gamble, Kian. Make sure that it will be worth of my life," she said.

"It will be worth your gamble," I smiled. "I will truly make sure of it."

After our talk, she sleep peacefully in my arms. I carefully laid her in her bed and let her sleep. She looks so peaceful while she's sleeping and that is the face that I don't want to witness earlier. Her, sleeping so peaceful forever is not something I don't want to see.

The next morning, I woke up in the couch and found Aria still sleeping on her bed. I sigh in relief. I was afraid of losing her again.

I stand up and wash ny face in the bathroom. I used the same bathroom Aria used to commit something I didn't expect. Her image of laying in the tab was still fresh in my mind. The wounds and bruises on her body caused by the people. I can't erase all of it.

I called someone I trusted and order that person to book a hotel. Afterwards, I went to the kitchen of the Hearts' mansion and cook some foods for her.

When I went back to her room, she was already up so I placed the food on the mini table. "Good morning. I cook some food for you," I said.

Her face lit up as she stare at the food. "Thank you."

"After you're done eating, we will talk about what you wanted to do," I said.

"I already planned it," she said in a serious tone. "If my suicide plan won't work then I'll just leave this place and go somewhere. I'll completely erased the evidence of my existence in this place.

I flinched. "I will follow you. If that is what you want, I will help you. I'll be the one to protect you."

A small smile formed in her face. "Just as expected."

After she was done, she went to the bathroom and do her things while I went to the kitchen and wash the dishes.

Once I'm back to her room, she was already wearing a black pinafore dress and black leather boots. "You can go back now. I can handle myself."

"You have a business to attend to?" I asked. She nodded her head. "You still need to rest and the doctor will check up on you this morning. I won't let you go anywhere until you're fully healed."

"Don't fool you're, Kian. No matter how many times you said that, you will still let me go," she said. I sigh. What she said is true. I don't have the rights to stop nor confine her. "And I can easily cover these wounds. In fact, I'm a master when it comes to things like that, don't you agree, Kian? Honestly, this wounds is nothing and was something I can handle on my own," she added.

I heave a sigh. "I won't stop you but if you feel any pain or something happen, call me and I'll pick you up." I gave her the name of the hotel where she'll be staying for the meantime. "You can go to this place for a change. This house brings you so much pain and suffering."

She accepted it and put it in her sling bag. "I'm glad you handle some things for me but I still have some business in this house that is why I cannot leave for now."

When she's done fixing herself, she went outside the mansion do did I. I let her ride a cab before driving my own car back to my house. My mo greeted me with such a worried face. "Where have you been?"

"I attended some urgent business. No need to worry about it," I said. Luckily, she didn't asked me any further and let me went back to my room. I can't tell her where I've been last night due to it's reason and it'll cause a commotion.

I take a shower and work in study room after. I called that trusted person and told that person to cancel the reservation of the hotel. I did some research about the houses in the countryside where someone can peacefully live without worrying about his past nor future. I took down some notes as well the furnitures needed and basic necessities. Aria may not want me to do this but I know her plan and that's what I need to follow and this is one of the few things I can do to help her.

I also hacked into the security system of the Hearts mansion and delete the cctv footage where I enter their premises. I can't let them know that I entered their house and mostly Aria's plan.

I received a call from her after some hours telling me to go to some library. I drove to the address and went inside. The library is not that big but it was decent and has a classical vibe. The Victorian style and the vintage furnitures make the library more elegant yet classic. And the library was built in a secluded area, a perfect place for resting. There's also a small cafe beside the library and it was exquisitely beautiful and the design was very calming to the mind.

I walk towards the end of the library and saw Aria reading something. "You're here," she said without looking at me.

"What are you reading?" I asked. The book had no title but the cover was something that came out a hundred years ago. "Young Lady Escapade" she answered.

"I'll get straight to the point, I'll be leaving the house in a week. I know you already prepared a place for me to live, I just need the information and I'll consider living in the place you select," she said blatantly.

I was awestruck by her words. "I'll send it to your email later. Now, what will you do to not leave a trace?" I asked while looking for a book.

I don't know what kind of expression she's making right not but I'm sure it shows a perfect grinned—the plan was already planned ahead. "I'll used the 7-day to transfer my belongings and I already have a plan but you don't need to know it.

I face her but the expression I thought she was making was the complete opposite—emotionless. A face who once showed care to everyone completely turned into emotionless. "Let me at least know your plan. If I know it, I won't be bothered by countless negative thoughts."

She didn't looked at me. She indeed turned into someone I didn't want to witness. "It's just a simple plan. I will alter my room and even remove all my belongings. I'll swap the memory book with something new—a book without me. I'll retrieve the data and information regarding my existence, drop out, ah, I won't drop out, rather I'll get an expulsion instead. If I drop out, those people will know that I'll plan it ahead and they will question the school but if I get an explusion, they will find it reasonable because of my records and the rumors about me."

"What if your parents seek help to the authorities?" I asked. It's concerning me. The whole nation will surely got involved especially the person's missing came from a high-end family.

She grinned. "Those people won't. They can't take the risk. They value honour and dignity compared to their own child. Right, those who have significance to them are also valued and was treated with utmost respect and have many advantages—one of them was Arie. If the authorities did an investigation, everything that they do not want other to know will be known. The authorities will question their parenting and they might even be charge and have records because they're neglecting their child that it comes to the point that the child erase her existence. ."

"They can't bribe those in power because someone trustworthy and wise was sitting in the police station and was taking over the command of the whole police force," I added. "But, won't you warned Arie about this?"

She let out a fake laugh. "Everything that was to happen was all up to her hands. I've already done enough to cover up for her."

I sighed. It's a bigger mess than I thought. "If they tried to hire a private investigator, that poor investigator will never be able to get hold of my information and whereabouts because I know you'll block them," she said that made me halt.

A smile formed on my face. "That's right. I won't let them touch you."

She already made up her mind that she will soon leave their house. Honestly, I am glad that she doesn't want to be associated with them anymore and completely cut off their ties. What she may be doing right now is not acceptable to the society but she will soon tuned adult and making the cut ties legal was a pain in the neck and she still need to meet her parents because of the process. She already gone through much, meeting her parents again was a bad idea.

We left the library together. With her back turned on me, with her face not being bask with warm light and with her feet walking through the path of endless night, all I want for her is freedom.

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Aria's POV

For the past that cannot be undone, for the future that was to unfold and for the present that crossed both path.

I began to changed the pictures in our mansion and packed some of my belongings in a big box. Afterwards, I took some rest and resume my work again.

When the warm light hugged my skin, I quickly rose from my bed and did my morning routine.

I prepared the documents needed for me to get expelled from the academy and sent it anonymously to the dean's secretary.

An hour later, I got a call from the school guidance counselor. I immediately rode a cab and enter the academy.

When one of my foot entered the school premises, like a signal, it relayed to all the students outside. I ignore their existence just like how they ignored mine.

I entered the Dean's office with my head facing the ground. I need to do it for my act not to be blown. "Sit down, Ms. Heart," said Dean.

"Please don't call my parents," I said in a sad tone.

"I could not possibly do that. I must speak to your parents about your possible expulsion," he replied.

"Please don't. I'll tell my expulsion to my parents myself," I said.

I could hear the Dean sighed. "Okay, Ms. Heart." His tone began to change and his behavior towards me began to cold. "Let's go back to what we really need to discuss. You are aware of what you've been doing to your classmates and fellow schoolmates, right?"

I nodded my head. "A document containing the evidences of bullying was sent to us by an anonymous person. It's an evidence about your misconduct and misdemeanor inside the school premises. Complaints about you began to fill our desk before that evidence could even reach us and now that we have sufficient evidence, the boards and I came into conclusion that we'll issue an expulsion. Ms. Aria Luella Hearts, you are expelled from Everdale Moral Academy."

As soon as those words escaped the dean's mouth, a tear fell from my eyes. He ignored my crying face and gave me the documents that I needed. I wiped my tears before exiting his office.

I never thought I would act. Now that my business here is done, I need to finish the remaining steps.

As soon as I get back home, I called a person that could help me move my stuffs. He came a little early and help me transfer my belongings. It took us an hour and a hlaf before we finished. "It was a bold move, Aria. Are you really sure you wanted to erase your presence in this house and in the academy?"

I nodded mt head. "That is the only way I can freed myself from the past, Froilan."

"Kian knows it too, right? If he don't, that guys would be heartbroken," he sarcastically said.

"He knows. In fact, the place where I'll move was set-up by him," I replied.

Froilan was shocked. "For real!? I know that guy, he won't let you go but he can set you free, I guess."

"Enough the chitchat, let's finish this before they come back," I said.

We moved out everything and all there is left to do was delete the cctv footages. "Delete," I said.

"You're taking it too far but I won't say anything about it to your family. They deserve it," he said.

"They indeed do. They...," I halted. "Continue what you was going to say."

I shaked my head. "It's not important."

Before I left the mansion, I left a note with the word 'goodbye' on it.

Finally, we arrived at the port. Kian already settled everything I needed including the ticket and he also paid everything for me.

"Wazzup, Kian," Froilan said when he saw Kian. Kian slightly waived his hand as a greeting.

"Everything is settled already. You can now board the ship," he said to me.

I nodded my head. "Did you pay using your card?"

"No, that would be putting you at risk," he answered.

I walked towards the boarding area and left the two. No need to say goodbye. I looked at them. Their eyes showing it's not the end of everything. They're not bidding a farewell. Goodbye is futile because we will still see each other in the future. Our connection won't end just because I chose to leave. Goodbye symbolize the end, and I don't want to end the connection between us three. I've already forgiven the two of them.

A week had already passed since I chose to leave. Everything is turning out great for me. I am healing my broken self little by little. I am picking up the pieces of my broken heart. And the life return to my eyes once again. Hopefully, I will be better again.

"The lost love found it's way within me again."

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ENDING 2: LOST LOVE

I twist the doorknob and it reveal Aria's body submerged in a bloody water. I immediately went to her and lifted her out of the water. I checked her pulse but it was weak. I quickly did first aid on her but it was of no use.

I quickly called 911 and told them about the situation. While waiting for them, I was putting pressure on her wound. I also began to notice the other wounds and bruises in her body. I questioned myself.

The weakening heartbeat I felt on her making me hold onto her tightly. "Don't leave Aria. The one whom I consider as the moon, please don't leave. Don't leave and keep shining until those fallen stars find their way to the light again," I said.

Her heart stopped beating.

It made me lose track.

It made me want to wake up in this terrible dream.

When 911 came, it was already too late. She already stopped fighting. The slim chance of her survival quickly vanished into thin air.

When we arrived to the hospital, they asked me a few questions which I answered all. "Can you do me a favor, Miss? Please don't call her parents, I will talk to them on my own." Although the Miss didn't agree, I persuade her. Fortunately, she agreed later on.

Afterwards, I went to my personal doctor's office and told him what happened. I calmed myself before calling Aria's brother. He needs to know what happened to her sister.

There was silence on the other side before he hang up. He was probably boarding the plane already. I wished he won't cause a commotion once he set foot in the hospital.

A day passed, Aria's brother arrived as well Froilan—one of Aria's true friend. They were both lost when they saw Aria's pale body.

Her brother arrange the funeral and later on told his parents about it. Just like everyone else, they are shocked especially Arie who was healing herself in the hospital. She began to cry. I excused myself and left the hospital.

Her last day arrived quickly but it was not as warmth like last week. I wore a black suit and attend her last funeral.

The dark gray clouds filled up the sky and covered the sun. The heavy rain poured down. It was dusk when Aria's coffin was buried on the ground. Everyone around me was crying. Crying was futile, it was already too late. Your tears won't give life to her.

I looked at her coffin. "If you can't find your place here, maybe the universe will suit you the best. Indeed, it's true."

When the funeral was over, I walked towards my car. I looked up above the sky and saw the full moon shining, but sadly, it's not as bright when you're still here. The moon was mourning your death too.

"The moon didn't meet with the sun, just like the love you tried to find."