SECİTON 9

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I wanted to go outside and get some air. I wandered around. I walked, I walked. I wore my headphones on the road and dreamed as if there was no end. I wanted to be a doctor. yes, so I thought I'd set myself a target and work for it. Then I'll buy a caravan and travel the world. I want to visit the Black Sea side first, and then I think I'll go to the Eastern Anatolia Region and then to the Marmara Region. Afterwards, I visit the Aegean and Central Anatolia. The reason it was the first Black Sea; I want to be in touch with nature. I want to sooth the air. I want to forget myself in the trees. And I love the way the people there talk. Besides, I'm so a fan of the places I see from the photos, I want to see them alive. In fact, I am very curious about Istanbul and Mugla, but my love of the Black Sea prevails. When I was in high school, I always wanted to study in the Black Sea. In fact, there was a trip to the Black Sea at school once, and we signed up with Mystery. We were here for 3-4 days. I fell so in love with it in three or four days, what I wouldn't give to go back. It wasn't enough for me in three or four days, but I promised myself I'd go back in the future. I've forgotten that promise, and now I think I need to make it happen. Anyway...

After Turkey, I think I would like to go to England, France, Norway first...

Oh, even the dream of everything is beautiful.

But I have to remember, I don't know. Life brings its own realities while I dream of my own dreams...

I'm home. I'm at peace now. Sometimes I can get into countless moods in one day. I like the way I am. Most people ask me if you're a sign of twins. But I'm sagittarius. I mean, that's what they say. I don't believe in horoscopes.

I'll tell you what we do with mystery. I went door to door to Gizemgil. There wasn't much distance between our house. I was with him for five minutes. Even the moment I went up to him, I was in good spirits. He really deserves the word "best friend" to the end. He's like a psychologist or something. I just woke up when I got to him. I hugged him, we went in. And he knew I was just unhappy. When I'm already unhappy or dissatisfied with something, my facial expression makes it very clear. Asked:

-Tell me what's wrong with you.

-I don't know, I have the sadness of someone I can't make sense of... (I started crying)

-Is it your special day coming up for my daughter? (he came to me and hugged me) and you already have such unhappiness from time to time. I'm aware of it. And every time you say you don't know. If there's something you're not telling me, I'm offended.

- None ... Nothing really happened.

- Ok then wipe your tears come on, I'm putting tea in. Let's have breakfast.

I immediately washed my face and went to help Gizem. He'd prepared most things, so I took the table and the bread and took it inside, and he brought the tray. We started eating. Mystery was trying to make me laugh. Suddenly the bell rang. Mystery has gone to open the door.

When he came back, he was glum.

- What about the mystery, dear, were we just laughing?

- I'm fine, Oya, it's nothing. But I have to go out right now, and it wouldn't be rude to you, would it?

- No, I'm not. I was going to go home and study anyway.

We hugged and I walked out the door. I went home. I've been thinking about what happened to the mystery, but I couldn't find anything. I felt so tired, I needed to sleep. I put my freshly washed bed linen and lay on the bed.

When I woke up, I realized I was asleep for two hours. And all of a sudden, I remember dreaming about the Bard. My heart started pounding. Because in my dream, when I got out of Gizemgil and came home, I saw my room and my mother laughing and walking in. The bard would stand up and hug me and say, "I miss your heartwarming smile." The more I remember having a dream like this, the more excited I was that I was angry.

I decided to go out and walk for a while. With headphones in my ear, I was listening to Cem Karaca's "Let This Be The Last One." I felt like I had a sad smile in my heart. I was on my way to the pensive lakeside. I was craving cotton candy all of a sudden. I went back and bought a cotton candy bar at the grocery store. Uncle Hasan at the market said, "How old are you, but sometimes you're like a 10-year-old boy?" So I laughed and got out of there.

Who am I supposed to see in front of me less than a minute before I get out? Of course it's Ozan Kale. I thought I heard my heart. Even when the Bard's name came up, I was weird. The Bard, in all his coldness, passed by without even seeing me. Although it's like if he did, we'd talk. But I wish he'd see it in that moment. I took cem karaca's song to the beginning and continued on my way to the sad lake.

I have to admit that nature sometimes gives me peace, and when I realized I was sitting there for more than two hours, I couldn't even get up when I decided to get up so I wouldn't be late for home. While I was still sitting there, there was a noise in the back. Looking back, it was the Bard. And then he sat next to me.