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With my dreams shattered...I felt it as an unjust act with my life....and asked the god "Why?Why this faith?I haven't yet meet my father yet, after 5 years I was planning to meet my father..." .

Then I opened my eyes,"where am I?whats with my view....where are my limbs..." as I investigated myself out I found myself as a early green cherry blossom tree. What am I doing here it was the first question that hit my mind and then I saw an old man passing me I tried to talk and it was a silly thing to be thinking of I was a tree after all. As much i could caught from seeing the old man, I figured that I reincarnated in the early Chinese history. I was in a forest and it seemed likea new world to me...

Many days passed and I felt that I have got tanned the scorching sunlight is really like frames but the slow rain is also fascinating...after the long struggle. The cool rain drops falling on my leaves the beautiful scenery of every day, the calling of the wind, the chirping of the bird....And at night I experienced different kinds of sounds of bugs, the shivering breeze from the south along with the creepy sounds made by the bamboo forest when the wind blow. These past days were really relaxing but...few days later I was able to see something perhaps the tree told me it past but also future. I saw ken with a girl in his arms; the girl said, "why do you hang around with that lu, don't you love me?" in reply he said, "don't worry darling she is just my pawn but you are my queen. First let me gather some riches from her than we can elope...".The girl asked "You don't love her that great but for how much long do I have to wait"...he said "For a little long"; and then both of them kissed and for the first time I felt betrayal in my life. Life doesn't go according to what you have planed...And then suddenly the vision changed a story unfolded in front of me. I saw a young man and a young lady standing against the tree, the lady said "Lin, i wanted to tell you something" " yes go ahead!" " I wanted to tell you that my father is sending me to New York for studies and it seems like i have to be their for 10 whole years" "oh i see" " and my flight is tomorrow and that is why i came to...." The young man seized her lips and said "no need, I will wait for you till you return" and then they hugged each other tight that women was none less than my mother and that man was my father Lin Huangguan, and then another vision clipped i saw mother standing near the tree and saw father running towards her. It seemed as the vision of later 10 years...and on the very day he proposed mom and she to accepted. The next vision was undesirable I saw mother standing beside the tree talking in thr phone, " I know doctor if I give birth to this child my life will be in danger, but I want to bring this child in these world , please don't inform my husband about this matter" her words shocked me and in the last few visions I saw dad walking towards the tree with white irises and he had found a hidden letter from mother stating:

"Dear lin,

I know that I will be not present in the world when you will read this letter. Forgive me for not being beside you now, but please don't waste your time on my death...and don't blame my child for this. She is innocent, it was me who wanted her to see the world. And don't tell her about the reason of my death if she hears it, she will feel guilty even though it isn't her fault. Raise her well don't let her feel the absence of her mother... I know only you can do it well because you are the man I fell in love with and i know how much capable you are...I trust you and will always trust you...

Yours loving wife,

Yin. "

After reading the letter his eyes started flowing, and that wad the end of my parents clip.....