Entry 1

Dear Diary,

I love her so much, The distance between us kills me. every second spent without her makes me go insane. I see her face in every car window and mirror. Why have i gotten this attached? The universe has a way of giving me good things and abruptly ending them. Well, I was mad today with her. She doesn't love me as much as how I love her. She doesnt see me as something she would die for. She doesnt see me as her husband, her soulmate. She thinks of me as a insignificant crush she is growing feelings. While she is trying to fall, I have fallen going at speeds i have never experienced. My head tells me things my heart decides to ignore. Love makes me go blind, It gets me high on the drug that is inconsumable. I have gotten more attached than her than i planned to. I am afraid if i love her too much she will leave me. My poor heart wont be able to find anyone better. I have told her i am religious yet, I pray to ever god in every manuscript or in every slice of history that she becomes mine at full. She is my chocolate syrup to my vanilla sponge cake. She is the shade to my hot sun. Yet what kills me is she loves lesser, She trusts lesser, She kisses me lesser, she hugs me lesser, she cares lesser. It makes me crazy because i have let go of myself for this woman, this woman has captured me and engulfed me with her wondrous presence and assertive beauty. I thank every little star i cried to for her, I thank every tree i whispered to for her, I pray to every mystery globe i write her name in, I love every treefrog i talked to about her. She is my birdhouse and my resting place. In her eyes i see the fresh patches of grass, i get lost in it and forget my world, It kills me to say this but.. I love her in every universe and the next