The reincarnation

As I lay on the cold floor in the rain with a throbbing headache and stomach ache that fells like my intestines are pulling out I think about the reasons why my marriage never worked.

It wasn't as if I didn't have a loving or rich husband, in fact I was married to Lo Mufieng CEO of China's biggest company and he was caring but I turned a blind eye to his care and kept on insisting that our marriage wasn't meant to be. I tried lots of methods to push him away like forgetting my manners, embarrassing him when ever I had the opportunity, always talking about getting a divorce, never treating him like a wife should and other bad decisions, that now I thought about it was the worst decisions I have ever made in my life.

I kept on pushing him away trying different methods to make him understand that I never and will never love him. I tried so had to the extent of cutting my wrist.