22

Gabriella's POV

It's been a pretty rough couple of days, of course. I feel dumb, used and mostly just betrayed. I want to scream. Just scream away all of the damn pain, anger and every damn emotion I have coursing through me right now.

I've basically just been going to my classes, going out somewhere alone and trying to distract myself with different things but sadly those idiots didn't leave my mind. Mostly Luciano...he came over, comforted me, I mean he made it really seem like he cared and I really believed it me, the dumb girl believed it all and started to fall and enjoy it. I let myself not care, even if he pissed me off sometimes and seemed thirsty for my attention I so badly wanted him...he was fun. He made me smile. I started to feel a bit safe with him, my goodness I should've read between the lines. I feel like such a fool, I guess that I just got caught up in the idea that someone, anyone liked me. I kinda liked the attention and now I don't have it anymore and fuck it doesn't at all feel good. I just came back home from another lonely walk when the person I least expected began to talk.

"How long are you gonna be like this?" I looked towards Amara. Another Martini. Another reminder of them, of him.

"So now you decide to speak to me?" I questioned her.

"Yes. Only because I'm not a bad friend. I care about you. Your my friend and I've noticed that you haven't been the happiest lately. Why?" 'My friend'. Last time I checked, friends don't ice each other out for ages without even trying to have a civilised conversation first Amara!

"Ask your fucking brothers, there's a whole load of shit that they're both not telling you. OK? But you know what maybe I'm just sad because I'm a normal human feeling out my emotions. You never cared to hear me out before so why bother now huh amara? You completely just left me in the dust and I hated that. Look I'm sorry or what happened I truly am but come on, we were friends, we could've talked it out. We could've talked it out...ugh. But quite frankly I don't feel like talking to any members of your family right now."

"Ok sorry for asking. I'll leave now." I shooed her away. Ugh am I turning into a terrible person now because of them? I should call her back right? She means well but then again I don't exactly feel like talking or being around any of them right now. I should get a drink instead, I'm not much of a drinker but you know what I deserve that. I'm gonna go out tonight even if I'm alone, it's fine I'm just gonna go to the bar and get drunk and watch some good stuff. That sounds really fucking fun.

I had FINALLY found a decent dress to wear and I did in fact buy it with my own money, that feels really good to say. I tried it on and it was perfect.

Now, it's time to truly enjoy myself, with no one in mind except for MY own fun. This was gonna be good.

_________________________