54. Bring Back Her Past

|| Logan Figueroa ||

My lips went smiled when I gazed her, while she's still sleeping. It's actually makes me to smile while also looking on her angelic face, her long eyebrows, pointed nose and her crimson lips.

Darn it. I really love kissing it--it's fucking making me drowned hardly on her and to love her--always. Especially when she confessed on me that she also had a feelings for me as she said that she loves me.

Darn. And I almost wait on it for so many damn days--no. I think I'd rather to say so many years. I just want to know if she really don't make me assumed on it, as I actually do love her.

Throwing those thoughts, I gently pushed away her hair which makes covering her face. And as my eyes are still glued on her, suddenly my eyes look down on her body.

I noticed that she's not wearing her bra, her plain white shirt was actually revealing the shape of her body, which makes me gulped and feel hungry. Yeah. I saw also her nipples na bumabakat sa kanyang suot na damit. Ugh! Darn eyes, Logan.

Yeah. I do have still respect with her and even I habitually tasting her lips, I still know when and where about to control myself.

Well, I'd rather that maybe it's she always does when she'll sleep in bed.

I abruptly look away on it. My mind was turning into a damn wild imagination. And if I won't stop it, baka hindi ko na ma-kontrol sarili ko.

Speaking of it, lalo pa nung maalala ko yung nangyari sa kanya sa cebu. And it was still in my mind when I found her sa isang maliit na cr na gawa sa mga kahoy, at may maliliit na mga butas. It makes me think of why she let herself go there, hindi siya nag-sabi sa'kin na 'don siya mag-ccr.

And there, I saw her there naked but I know that it's not a time to reinforce myself to do my fucking green wild thoughts. I should get her away from that snake where she was became totally scared of it--and I actually been worried on her at that moment.

I tried to lay her head down leisurely on my arms, then I move closer to her. But I noticed that it didn't not cause on her to be wake.

After a few seconds, I heard she groaned when I noticed that she's finally awaken, when she opened her eyes.

"Good morning love.." she smiled on me when I uttered it.

"Good morning din l-love.." mukhang nahihiya pa ata siya sa pag-banggit 'non. Napa-ngisi ako. She should be accustomed to it from now on.

"How's your day? did you sleep well?" I waited for her response. But instead she let out a word, I noticed that she covered her mouth using her left hands, then her body. Afterwards, she abruptly took the bedding and she covered herself unto her half face. I just hide my smile.

"Don't you want me to talk to you?" I cocked up my brows and still watching her doing.

"A-ahh, eh..magmumumog muna ako..." sambit niya. I made a chuckled when she said it. Well, I actually love the smell of her breath, it's luring to touch.

Inalis ko ang kumot na naka-takip sa kanya, sabay umusog ako sa kanya ng bahagya pa. Then, I wrapped my both arms on her body. As when I hugged her actually--it makes her head stuck up on my chest sabay ipinikit ko ang mga mata ko.

"L-logan, babangon na ako.." rinig kong sabi niya habang ganun parin ang posisyon namin.

"Inaantok pa ako. Let me sleep." Yah. I'm not actually lethargic, I just want her to hugged hardly over my hands. Ayoko siyang nalalayo sa akin.

Naramdaman kong sinubukan niyang inalis ang mga braso ko, pero nagmatigas pa rin ako.

"Please stay here for a while. I still want you at my side love.." i uttered as my eyes are still closed. Naramdaman kong niyakap niya rin ako. At halos magkadikit na ang katawan namin sa isa't-isa.

Yeah, and my thoughts turns into wild again and I felt something heat, when her body touches against me. Darn.

"Logan, diba aalis tayo ngayon? Wala ka pa ba talagang balak bumangon?" i know na nag-papalusot lang siya. Pero hindi pa rin ako natinag at hindi pa rin ako bumabangon. Narinig kong napa-buntong hininga siya.

"L-logan.." sinubukan niya uling magsalita.

"Why love?"

"I-kiss na lang kita para bumangon ka na.." halos magpantig ang mga tenga ko sa sinabi niya. But I still don't rise up. I'll test her first.

"No. I just don't want a kiss.."

"H-ha? Ano pa bang gusto mo?" she asked curiously. I just grinned.

"I want you to kiss me until midnight." nakangisi pa rin ako ng patago.

"L-logan! Masyadong matagal 'yon." pagsuway niya. Still I'm just grinning. Darn, I really love playing with her.

Hindi na ako nagsalita. Napansin kong mukhang naawat na rin siya ng hindi na niya ako kinausap. And I just still let myself on that position.

But suddenly, I was bit shocked ng malakas niyang tinanggal yung mga braso kong naka-pulupot sa kanya. Pagdaka'y, mabilis siyang bumangon. Tumalikod siya sa akin habang naka-upo siya sa dulo ng higaan.

Napa-bangon naman ako ng buksan ko na ang mga mata ko, at nakita ko siyang naka-upo lang 'don. Napansin kong bahagyang naka-yuko ang ulo niya at mukhang may malalim siyang iniisip.

I made a wonder for a moment. I tried to let myself draw closer to her, then I hugged her at her back. Ipinatong ko ang ulo ko sa kanyang balikat.

"Why? is there something wrong? did I hurt you love?" I asked in a low voice. I saw that she slightly shook her head.

"L-logan, tutulungan mo ba akong ibalik ang mga alaala ko?" I unwrapped my both arms on her body at bahagya akong lumayo sa kanya.

I saw she turned her head on me at mataman siyang naka-tingin sa akin. Her expression was melancholy and I also saw it in her eyes.

"What do you mean?" I don't understand what's she's pointing out. But I need to know about it. I think there's something that I needed to heard from her.

Napansin kong bahagya niyang iniyuko ang ulo niya. Then she let out a words.

"L-logan, gusto kong ibalik ang mga alaala ko, at mga alaala ko sa'yo. Gusto kong malaman yung nakaraan natin. D-dahil..dahil nabura ang lahat ng 'yon sa isipan ko.." after she said it, she lift her head up. Mapanglaw pa rin ang kanyang mukha. I just gazed on her for a while.

But, darn it. I can't understand. Why did it happen? Does it mean that she had an amnesia? But when it happened? Darn this.

Speaking of it, when I recall that day for a while--when I met her again during that day, when she apply to my company. I noticed that there's something on her that I wanted to know--even her resume was accurately describes the girl whom I love before. Making me to investigate more about her background. And aside from it, everytime she do such ways, parang wala lang nangyari sa nakaraan namin. She acts like she doesn't even care on it, at parang sa pagkakataon na 'yon ay, 'yon palang ang unang beses ng pagtatagpo ng landas namin. Darn it.

Bakit hindi ko naisip 'yon? And if it's really happened on her--that she had an amnesia, why I fucking let it happened to her! I fucking blamed my self. I knew now that maybe because of it, basta nalang niya ako iniwan noon. No, I'm the one who actually does it. Wala manlang akong nagawa para sa kanya. I gritted my teeth for a seconds.

I caressed her cheeks while our eyes are still looking on each other. Then I spoke. "I will help you, Marsha. And I'll always be there at your side to help you remember all those things that happened in our past.." I said with a smile plastered on my lips.

"S-salamat, Logan.." kapagdaka'y mabilis niya akong niyakap. And I also hugged her back. Then, I kissed Marsha on her head.

"I love you, Marsha. I'll do everything for you, to bring back all your memories--and ours, love.."

"Maraming salamat, Logan. Mahal din kita.." as when she said that, humiwalay ako sa pagkaka-yakap sa kanya.

I lift her using my both arms and I tried to seated her on my thighs. I intertwined her right hand on me then next is she wrapped her left arms in my nape.

It seems that she's a little bit shocked on it but she did not try to protest. I just wrapped also my arms on her body then I hardly pushed her on mine.

And I begun to kiss her in a gentle way, which afterwards making her moaned when I hardly now kissing her, making her to respond on it.

Darn. I really love this girl.