Chapter 118: Penitents, Part 13

James

I am content simply that she accepts me again. Any desire I have to make love with her is eclipsed by her need for healing, and not just healing of the body.

I don't try to touch her, not beyond a kiss on the cheek or a hand on the arm...

…. Nothing sexual ….

For all that I know there is far more to her than a beautiful face and body, I miss the physicality of how it was. I want to make love with her. I want to romp and rejoice with her….

…. but right now. I am content to wait while she heals….

And I wait and hope for more, for the time when we two will be as we were before….

…. We three….

Then I was Master. Now I am the Supplicant.

We have not made love since my sin against her, but that's fine. Happy simply to make my peace with her, I want to love her with my body, but as I hold her, draw her close, there is a slight stiffening that says I have gone far enough.