Memories

I don't know why I've been feeling this weird for the past 3 days or so then I'm having this crazy dream about meeting my mate or maybe that's what I feel is the only reasonable translation of the dreams I've been having I kinda love them though it worries me what if I'm possessed or cursed I never heard werewolves had erotic dreams so why should I have one. Another thing that worries me is waking up to thinking I'm finding my mate sooner than expected when Goddess knows the least thing I wanted was a mate I don't wanna be fucking tied to a mate like what the hell was the goddess thinking when she came up with the idea of us having mates who we're bonded to for eternity whatever happens to one happens to the other it's so late I prefer how humans do it a guy likes a girl he courts her and if she likes him too they date each other and may get married in the end but with us all there is finding a mate and who knows you find him in the mall and he fucking marks you with everyone around not minding if you wanted that or not tying you to him forever and as it is you gotta move in with him and forget you dreams all you now do

is figure how to be a perfect mate and produce pups at every given opportunity then the thought of what happened to my bff last semester is still fresh in my mind she turned 18 when I was barely 17 she didn't find her mate until the moon festival she wasn't really happy and her mum was worried but she felt elated because she could complete highschool and go to college things went normal for us till that particular moon festival she had us shop online for the best dresses since we didn't want to dress like other she wolves after getting our hair and makeup done we wore the dresses and shoes we got alongside we had dressed, done our hair and makeup identically we were twins from different mum's when we got out of the house to meet our parents in their car everyone stood in awe I'm pretty sure a lot of people who present got themselves confused by us mistaking me for her and her for me and those who didn't belong to our pack my have called us twins well things went normal for us at the beginning of the festival until the middle of the festival when she'd started smelling something like cinnamon and honey and was asking me if I smelt it too I nodded my head negatively and her eyes went wide she told me in a hushed tune that she might have found her mate tho she doesn't know who yet the most annoying thing was that he didn't come for her imidiately and it hurt her badly he was supposed to smell her the instant she smelt him and that meant he was supposed to come get her well she didn't let him affect her that much we both continued moving around with cheerful smiles and greeting everyone we met in attempt to find her mate after walking around non-stop she said his scent was fading away and she doesn't know why she was not happy about it and decided to follow his scent this time going alone even though I insisted on following her in case she needed help if problem arose but she was certain that her so called mate was not gonna harm her or let something happen to her

She continued following the scent until she felt she was very close to him she waited for him to show himself instead she was greeted by the sight of her mate in the arms of another and when she was tryna say hi to then he snapped at her making her flinch in fear he told her he doesn't want a real mate and leaving the festival ground should have proved it to her he further claimed that she was too dumb that's why she'd followed him out even when it was clear he never wanted her right before her he started kissing and romancing his lover leaving her to watch he's PDA with his lover her heart was broken into a million pieces she cried and attempted begging him to stop but he paid deaf ears to her he even went as far as saying the moon goddess doesn't know what she was thinking when she paired mates cause she's nothing compared to what he wanted