Chapter 50

A few minutes later, while pressing on the chest, he felt Soobin's heart beating very slowly. Though he wasn't awake, it made him feel a bit relieved. Yeonjun called him by his name again and again, but Soobin didn't respond at all. With all the hope, Yeonjun carried him up and took him outside as he finally could think of taking him to the hospital. Though Soobin's water soaked body was heavy, for Yeonjun, it was a huge pillow of feathers. Because all he was thinking; how fast he could take him to the hospital. He put Soobin's wet body into his car and started driving as fast as he could. Soon, he reached the hospital.

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Yeonjun was sitting on the bench while waiting for someone to come out of the room where Soobin was getting treated. He was still trembling and kept praying for Soobin's recovery. His restless and worried self was blaming himself while tapping on the floor incessantly. At that moment, a nurse rushed outside and was going in the opposite direction of Yeonjun. Seeing her, Yeonjun stood up to stop her.

"W-what h-happened? I-Is he alright?" He asked, hoping for a very positive reply.

"Sorry, Sir. We're trying our best. He got water in his lungs and it's gonna take a while to pump them out. Seems like he was inside the water for too long. You're lucky that he didn't have brain death yet. Anyway, we can't say anything about his condition before pumping the water out. Now, please excuse me." The nurse nearly ran away as she was out to get some tools.

Yeonjun palmed his face and nearly slumped on the bench.

"It's all my fault. I shouldn't have left him alone. I should've taken him with me. I should've guessed that something was wrong. Why didn't I?" Yeonjun was blaming himself though he didn't know how that happened. He tried his best to restrict himself from crying, but he failed. He sighed heavily while tears dropped from his eyes and started dripping through his cheeks. He looked above and fought with himself to hold back his tears.

After about half an hour, the doctor and the nurses came outside while the doctor was giving instructions to the nurses and they were listening to him very attentively. Yeonjun stood up and rushed towards them as he wanted to know how Soobin was doing.

"H-How is he?" Yeonjun asked directly to the doctor.

"Mr….?" The doctor asked for Yeonjun's name.

"Yeonjun! I'm Yeonjun!" He replied restlessly.

"Yeonjun-sshi! Do you know how long he was under the water?" The doctor asked calmly.

"N-no! I-Is there a problem?" Yeonjun got more afraid after hearing the doctor's question.

"His feet are already swollen so I bet he was underwater for a bit too long. Luckily enough, he managed to survive. But, you said that he was submerged in the tub water, right?" He asked again.

"Yes, you're right!" Yeonjun replied.

"That means he was trying to commit suicide. Do you know if he was suffering from depression or some other kind of mental health issues?" He asked again.

"Huh? Mental health issues? I…. don't really know." Yeonjun replied. He was very disheartened as he realized he didn't know about Soobin that well.

"Where is his family? Did you inform them?" The doctor asked.

"I am his family." Yeonjun replied with a low voice.

"Oh! Then do you know if your brother…." The doctor was talking while Yeonjun stepped in the middle.

"Sorry, but he's not my brother. He is my boyfriend. And he doesn't have any other family." Yeonjun said to make sure they don't misunderstand their relationship.

"I… see. Congrats!" The doctor chuckled a bit and started again,

"As we don't have the patient's previous record, can you provide us more information if he has any other abnormalities?" He asked.

"Umm… yeah! He often gets his asthma attacks. And it gets really worse. He even vomits and sometimes he even passes out." Yeonjun replied with a very worried face.

"In that case…" saying this far, he stopped and whispered something to the nurses while they were nodding and replying assertively.

"We need to keep him under our observation for twenty four hours. If he wakes up within the time, we'd shift him to the ordinary ward. Have a good day." He lowered his head a little and smiled to greet him goodbye. Then, all of them started walking away. One of the nurses came back while Yeonjun tried to look at Soobin through the window.

"Sir, you can visit him now if you want. Because you won't be able to see him after we move him to the observation room." She said,

"Huh? Why? Do you have to keep him in that room? He'll be lonely…" Yeonjun said with a gloomy face.

"Yes, sir. Because for a patient who has a record of dysphonia, has a weak heart and they can get a cardiac attack after a big incident like this." She replied, making Yeonjun speechless completely. He sighed and bowed, trying to smile a bit, but he couldn't.

Yeonjun finally went inside and saw Soobin laying down on the hospital bed, surrounded by machines. His face was still pale, but he was breathing as if he just fell asleep. Yeonjun slowly went to him. The oxygen pipe beneath Soobin's nose was proof that he was in a deadly situation a while ago. His one hand had an IV drip's needle inserted. His hair was still wet. Yeonjun took a chair beside Soobin's bed and sat on it slowly. When Yeonjun looked at his other hand, he found his hand had already been bandaged. Yeonjun touched his forehead and removed his hair from it. Then he went to him and kissed on his forehead. Suddenly, his vision got blurry again due to his tears and he rubbed his eyes to see Soobin's face clearly.

He touched Soobin's bandaged hand lightly. He took the hand on his. Beomgyu was right. How long his fingers were! Though they were a bit swollen, they still looked very gorgeous.

"I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. Please don't scare me like this anymore. I thought you were mad at me because I kept bugging you. But, how'd I know you tried to….why did you? How could you? You could've at least call me. Please wake up. Please. I beg you." Yeonjun took Soobin's hand closer and kissed it while crying.

"I really love you. You just gave me a chance and before I get to know you more…you already thought of leaving me? Do you think it's that easy? HEY!" Yeonjun raised his voice and sniffled.

"If you don't wake up, I'll…I'll…really….ah! Fuck!" He couldn't continue as he didn't have any idea what he should do or say.

"You never say anything about yourself. So, how'd I know about you, hm?" he touched Soobin's cheek while saying. At that time, his phone started ringing and he took out his phone. It was Arin and as Yeonjun thought she also might be worried, he picked up the call.

"Hello!" Yeonjun came outside while talking, with his hoarse voice.

"Did you find him? Where was he? Pass the phone to him. I'll give him an earful." Arin was furious without knowing anything.

"He's in the hospital and unconscious so I bet you can't nag at him now." Yeonjun replied with a low voice.

"What? Why? What happened?" Arin was surprised.

"Noona! What should I do? Do you know what was going on with him these days? If you know then please tell me." Yeonjun started sniffling again as he started to cry again.

"Why? Why? Tell me what happened!" Arin couldn't hold back her curiosity as she got worried.

"Seems like he….he…tried to….kill himself." Yeonjun replied, nearly mumbled as his voice faded away.

"WHAT?" She was so astounded that nothing came out of her mouth.