New beginning

Thea's P. O. V.

Today, Gradgie will go home, and honestly, I can't resist crying every night, I don't know how to contact Eli, he doesn't have any account in social media, maybe because he's royalty. But I do have social media account

So why isn't he contacted me yet?

Does he hate me? Of course he would, I left him, I left him without saying goodbye, and I can't go back there, I can't leave Gradgie behind.

I'm out of ideas, my mind is not functioning well, I haven't slept properly nor eat properly

Then my heart breaks again and again, when I saw Gradgie, looking at me so blankly.

She looked at me, but she look at me in a way, that I am a stranger, like she doesn't know me.

But she knows, my father

My tears started falling, I walk towards her and spoke

"Gradgie, h-how are you?" I asked while my tears are falling

"Hello, dear, why are you crying?" She wiped my tear

I suddenly felt that maybe she remembers me

But that changed because of her statement

"Do you know where Thea is?" She asked

"I missed my baby, where is she? Do you know?"

From her words, she doesn't know me at all, the present me, maybe she knows the young me

"Have you fed her already? Did you gave her favorites?" She asked again

my tears started crying a river

She already forgotten me, but remembered the old me, and still, she cared for me, so much, it breaks my heart seeing her like this

I took her upstairs and she spoke

" Dear, do you know where Thea is? My granddaughter, she is a small, beautiful, girl, she never cries you will only see her smile, that's what I taught her, did you see her?"

I don't know if that is me anymore, but I wiped the tear in my eyes and tried speaking, but found difficulty

" I-its me G-gradgie, I-Im Thea, d-don't you remember me? " I asked

She looked at me

" You can't be Thea, she is still young, she's only eleven, you are older, who are you really my dear? And who made you cry? I never liked the idea making a girl cry, it is absurd, no one should make a girl cry so tell me dear, who made you cry?"

I wiped my tears and sat beside her

" The person who made me cry? "I asked

She nodded

I took a deep breath trying not to cry, not in front of her.

" Ahm, the person who made me cry, is the person, I love the most. You see, she doesn't seem to remember me, I don't know, but she said, she will alway remember us, but -"

My tears started falling, I can't help it

" Here I am, she already forgotten me, I can't blame her, since she doesn't want this, maybe its just fate, who wanted us to be like this, I love her so much, so I kept asking God, why her? Above all people, why did he took the person I need the most, I wanted among everything. Hopefully things will go well. "

I said and then, my head fell on my knees

But, Gradgie, held my head up, and started wiping me tears

" Dear, I know your pain, I really do, I'm sorry about what happen to you, but, that is life I guess. They take things, important to us, they take the person we love the one we cherish, the one we wanted to be with forever, but still, they take them, you wanna know why? " She asked

I stood up straight, went closer to her then I nod

" Because, it is life, telling us, to be strong, to stand, to see that death isn't the end, but the new beginning, for example, when the person I love, dies, it doesn't mean, that it already ended, but it is a new chapter, a new beginning. The time where we should, forgive, accept, and remember that life throws rock at people who shine bright, to see and to say, that life isn't all cupcakes and rainbows. So I want you to remember dear, even if you lost everyone you love, they will always remain, they will stay, in a way, that, you can't see them, you can't hold them, but, you can feel them in here "

She said and pointed at my left chest

" Since my Thea isn't here, can you be my Thea for today dear?", She asked me

I nodded and spoke " Of course, being your granddaughter will be an honor, and thank you, for making me realise things today "

I said

She held my hand and hugged me, hugged me tight and I hugged her back. The same time my tears are falling

My heart is aching

My mind isn't working

But one thing is certain

For now, I will take care of my Gradgie, forgive who should be forgiven, hear their sides, and, I'll be successful first, I'll do everything, and I will come back to the Philippines, and I'll ask forgiveness to Eli, hopefully, things will go well

This time

In my

New Beginning