I am a monster

　　With so many strange memories in his mind... Shinichi couldn't do something like that.

　　He was just a 10 year old kid, why would such an inexplicable thing happen to him?

　　Why should he have more memories?

　　Why should he be any different from ordinary children?

　　He doesn't know how to face his parents or "everyone else in the world."

　　Therefore, he could only choose to study.

　　Using the "known" to increasingly fight the "unknown" of other lives. This was the only way he could fight at a young age.

　　If he doesn't do this, sooner or later Shinichi will be burned by memories beyond his years.

　　Even though...

　　It was absolutely impossible for him to like the feeling of loneliness.

　　So when the little girl took a book and sat down, his heart, which had been as quiet as dead water, gradually became active.

　　Since that day, he got a reading friend.

　　Every morning, the short-haired girl would bring him breakfast and read quietly in the room with him. She will only leave at lunch, dinner and before bed.

　　 Hina once followed her into the room and tried to play with the two brothers and sisters who were too quiet, but found that no one was paying attention to her. She watched them read for a few more minutes. She couldn't stand the boring atmosphere and ran away.

　　The Asada family's parents also used their cell phones to make video calls with Tachibana Tsukiko, secretly spying on their interactions. Although the two never said a word, their eyes never even met, after the adults finished peeking, they sighed with emotion because the children who were most worried about were getting along well.

　　They were clearly just reading books in the same room.

　　Their relationship is so simple and boring.

　　But without realizing it, the girl gradually forgets the feeling of loss because she can't make friends, and the boy slowly forgets the loneliness because he reads books to escape.

　　Until finally, the day Tsukiko returned to India and brought her daughters back.

　　"I want to help people solve their problems, do you have one?"

The little girl clapped the book in her hand towards the boy.

　　He looked away from the book, stared at the girl silently for a few seconds, then shook his head.

　　"NO."

　　"If you don't have it, I'll stay until you do."

　　The boy didn't really want to pay attention to her, but her little face showed determination that she would do as she said.

　　When Rui thought this annoying guy was finally gone but had to continue living because of such a stupid thing, he spoke reluctantly.

　　"Yes."

　　"What is it?" Asked the girl expressionlessly.

　　The boy lowered his head and spoke calmly in a low tone that did not match his age.

　　"Sometimes, I feel like a monster."

　　Even though he is only 10 years old, he has 15 years of memories of a guinea pig.

　　The shock of struggling, wailing, and grieving in pain almost flooded his entire consciousness like a torrent, making him doubt himself to a very deep level.

　　(I know...)

　　(My father and mother, this little girl, and everyone are different.)

　　(I'm not normal. I'm bad. I'm an anomaly. I shouldn't be there)

　　(I'm a monster)

　　"Why?"

　　The girl's question suddenly caught his attention.

　　This was definitely the first time the two had come face to face with him.

　　"Can't say."

　　The girl snorted in dissatisfaction.

　　"Troublesome guy..."

　　"Forget it, is this what worries you? Don't you want to be a monster?"

　　"Not in the mood."

　　She nodded with deep sympathy: "That's right, monsters can't make friends, and in the end they can only die alone... It's a pity that I'm not a monster, so I don't know how to help you."

　　"But, even if I don't know, I can tell you."

　　Rui jumped out of bed and stood beside him.

　　She stood under the bright sunlight.

　　"Even if you don't know it now, your future self will probably know it, so just leave it all to the future."

　　The boy's eyes widened slightly, and he subconsciously wanted to reply: "It's just an escape..."

　　"Don't worry. We were just 9 and 10 year old kids. If we can't escape now, what will we do when we grow up?"

　　She blocked the boy's defense with just one sentence, and gave him a look of disdain.

　　It clearly didn't make sense, but somehow Shinichi couldn't refute it.

　　"Unlike Hina Nee-san, I can never make friends, and I don't know what to do...

　　"Then today, I suddenly found out. "

　　"You are my friend."

　　"Friends I made through reading."

　　"Before I met you, I didn't know what to do. Now that I have met you, I know."

　　After saying this, the girl showed an uneasy expression and lowered her head and thought for a long time.

　　"Hmm~ I can't explain it... Forget it, that's all."

　　"What you don't understand, you will understand someday! Let the problem go away!"

　　Then pointed at the boy.

　　"So, have your worries been resolved?"