chapter 44

I am very sad because the mistake I made.

I am unable to regist any of them because I care about uncle , Victor and Henry all of them.

And I am becoming more and more confuse about whom I actually like , what is lust and love ?

But in reality I don't want to hurt any of them by rejecting any of them.

I am so much devoid of love that all of them are only filling the gap .

May be I loved all of them and none of them , but actually in reality I don't know.

May be it's my surging body heat and lust that blurred my all senses.

If it is love than how can a woman love three person at the same time and with same amount. So in practically and in reality it is not possible to love more people with same amount.

With all of this I can know about whom I liked more and accept his love.

I will talked to my friend Daisy about all this.

she is my childhood friend so she knows about me more than anyone even more than my mother.

I called her and without any formal talk I came straight to the point , why I called her.

She told me that she is busy with her mother in taking care of her brother two years old girl because her brother 's wife died during the birth of her child .

I apologize for my selfish rude behaviour not asking about her and only focusing on my problems.

She insisted me to tell her everything what happened till now, what should I do and not.

She also suggested me and more like requested me to meet her brother who is great psychologist and feels free to tells him about my problem.

I am not sure what should I say so I said yes to meet his brother.

So instantly she send me number and his address and told me that she already informed her brother about me .

I only said yes to meet her brother, to avoiding to meet her brother but I ended up falling in the hole that I created myself. Because in reality yes means only yes.