So Sarah left my school the next session but I would never forget the impact she had in my life both the good and bad ,I learnt not to trust people easily to the extent that they know everything about me and the bad part being that I wasn't able to keep my good girl reputation in school.
So after Sarah left I tried my best to stop gossiping and telling fake stories for fun ,I didn't stop fully but it reduced.
So both my first and second sister had gone to the university to further their studies.I cried so much on the days they both left ,I still remember sleeping on their beds every night for a week I just felt can of comforted when I smelt their scent when going to bed and sometimes I cried my self to sleep when I remember that am not going to see them anytime soon .
So it was only me ,my third sister Mary and my brother favor. So during that period I started something that i wasn't proud of,I became an attention seeker mostly in school , because my mom just started a new business and Mary and favor where too busy in their own worlds to care about me .Don't get me wrong they do they care of me but it was only how elder siblings do, but they weren't my friends.
When my two elder sisters were around they always took me where ever they where going and played with me but Mary and favor we different.
We went to the same school but I was in the junior section which was in another building but sometimes I do go to their classes to collect things that I forgot with them or just to see them but they can of limited me going to their classes.Then I didn't get it but now I can of do, because it tough to be with your younger siblings all day at home and their classmates sometimes teases them for always being with me too much .
So I started craving attention I wanted all eyes to be on me always and I had to get it through any means .
The creepy teacher John wasn't my classroom teacher because I entered a new class .So I had a nice female teacher let call her faith so yeah miss faith was on of the nicest teacher I had in my stay in junior class .
I started gossiping and telling fake stories again but this time I didn't say anything about the teachers just stuff about the students and my self .Lying and bragging about stuff that I didn't even have ,buying a lot of snacks with my lunch money during break so my classmates will be jealous of me and stuff like that.
I started getting the students attention and also the teachers by during very well in my academics.I won't lie I really enjoyed that feeling of being known and almost all the students mostly my classmates wanted to be my friend ,some wanted the stuff I bought during break time ,some wanted to be Known through me ,some had crush or admired me while some were just curious about me and what I say.
The curios ones were mostly the ones that doubted what i say when am bragging or gossiping about fake stuff, some of this curios ones always wanted to prove me wrong and debunk what I say which led to some of my lies being exposed and now that I think about it when people listen to my stories they look at me with admiration but behind my back they say dirty stuff about me .
I started to notice and hear rumors (which some were true) stuff like she lies alot ,all the things she says are lies don't believe them , they all made up stories,am sure she steals the money she uses to buy snacks during break ,have seen their family their not rich likes she says and so on and so forth.
Well it was awful because I turned to the girl who cried wolf and I was getting attention but not the one I wanted .
So going to school wasn't that fun anymore,I was always trying to prove one or two rumors where lies while making up stories about the people who started those rumors as revenge, while creating new stuff to say to get more attention.
I also had to study in order to maintain the teacher's attention and also had to prevent the rumors from spreading to the teachers.
I didn't really have any true friends, I was known my almost all, had friends but none were true almost all just wanted something from me whether it was snacks,attention for my admires or to make my reputation fall .
It wasn't fun at all and going to school was exhausting because I had to keep making more lies to cover up the previous ones which led me to thinking about everything in school or at home what to do and say that ,how to handle this and that situation and so many other stuffs