How the f*ck I end up in this situation?

Do you know this moment when you fall in love blindly? Do you remember the moment you looked at him and you thought his the one? Because I do… and I feel very sorry for it.

The moment when you're seventeen and your first crush who is seven years older then you come to you, look at you and says "I like you too".. That moment messed up all my teenager life. Let me tell you from the beginning.

I was a messed up girl already, but I didn't thought that if I fall in love and I truly love, that relationship will be gone. I was very happy when I kept coming to his house to be with him, but I was to stupid to see that he never came to meet me. Every girl is happy when he do something to show you that he loves you… I was happy to know that I'm in a relationship with him and nothing mattered more then that. That moment when he do the dishes just to show you that he know to do it and split the things to do in HIs house. I was that stupid. Because today I'm living with him and his doesn't do them anymore.