Missing Her

Jake's POV

It's been almost 3 years since my best friend Brianna moved away to California.

We were inseparable, did everything and went everywhere together.

She was one of the only people I was ever willing to open up to and be myself with. We went separate ways when we graduated high school. She attends USC, and I'm attending MTSU- or Middle Tennessee State University.

I have one year to graduate along with my buddies Jeremy, and Matthew, the three of us come from the same town, Lakeview. A small quiet country side town. Most folks there have been living there from generation to generation.

My family and Brie's included.

I've been playing football here since my first year, we got recruited when we were in high school. I get scolded by coach all the time, he and everyone always say I got a big temper and need to work on it. I really just don't have the patience for anyone's stupidities and their bullshit.

I took up boxing a bit after Brie left to college. It helped me channel my "anger" as people call it, and I honestly became fond with it. I was really good at it. Until I was band from it last year because of a fight where I knocked a dude's teeth out with one single blow to the face. Bad thing is, it happened out of the ring and at a party near campus. The owner had warned me of any fights out of the ring would mean an automatic expulsion from the gym... so he had no other choice then to close the door on me.

It wasn't my fault honestly, the guy kept getting in my face saying I was eyeing his girl. I kept telling him I didn't want trouble, and I wasn't even looking at her, next thing I know, he'd pushed me. When I tried to walk away and he swung at me, I duct and landed one on him right on his face. That's all it took.

I got suspended from playing our next two games of the season in football and had to pay to get the dudes dentures done. He on the other hand didn't just get suspended from school. He got a warning from his dad to be sent to the military for causing the fight in the first place, rich boys. They think they can always get away with everything.

It wasn't the first time he'd start trouble with someone, guess he wanted to act tough because he was impressing his new lap toy.

I didn't see him past winter for spring semester, so I kind of figured he really did get sent out to the military or what not, since he kept getting into compromising events. He's a year older, so by now, if he transfered to another school, I hope, he'd probably graduated.

When Brianna's parents separated a few years back, I was the only one there for her. Her brother Matthew took it pretty hard and isolated himself, often taking it out on her.

Some time around middle school, we kind of became a bit distant her and I. I didn't like it one bit. But I was never really good with words, nor was I good at expressing myself, specially when it comes to her. I always become tongue tied around her, now more then usual for some damn reason.

One day during summer time as we were ready to start sophomore year in high school, she told me she was going to a private school in California with her dad. I thought maybe it was because I'd been so busy with football and school, she thought I didn't want to be around her anymore, she was having trouble at home with Matt as it was, he was going through his teenage rebellious years I supposed. I didn't make things better, I went off on her...my stupid temper clouded my judgment towards her.

I tried to convince her not to go, which ended up bad..... we argued and she left not talking to me,ignoring me for months when I'd call. I was glad when she finally took my call. I can't live with out her, she's not just my best friend,  she's my world.

She only lasted two years out there and came back before senior year.

We managed to patch things up and remained best friends at her return. when she came back, we became closer then before. I tried everything in my power to make her feel important to me. Her opinion was the most important to me, everything I did and accomplished was thanks to her. She was not only my inspiration, but my biggest support.

When it was time to graduate, she told me she had been accepted to USC, and she left few weeks before the beginning of the semester, leaving me completely crushed. There's not a day when I wish I could of convinced her to have stayed here and attended school with us, but it was her choice to make, not mine. And I wasn't about to argue with her again making her stop talking to me again.

I would have hated myself for making her stay here and keep her from her dreams of attending USC, she had talked about it all year as we placed in our applications.

I get to see her from time to time on our video chats and when she comes visit her mom during holidays. I miss her terribly, more often now then before. Lately, I just haven't been myself, man she is always on my mind. No matter what I do, she is always there....taking over my mind  every second.

I miss her terribly.

Her twin brother, Matthew, decided to stay back home with his mom, that's why he decided on MTSU with me. In middle school he and I didn't really see eye to eye, we were always bumping heads in football practices and games. I hated him, just as much or more of how he hated me. He took his anger out on her and it pissed me off. She constantly had to break us apart from getting into arguments before I or him could take the first swing.

It all got better between us when we got to high school and started playing football together again. Specially because he'd start missing her like I did. Not having her here as our rock gave us something in common. We both realized how much we had taken her for granted. We had chosen to pass our time in other priorities rather then her.

We've gotten along pretty well since then. We became real good friends. Playing football for our schools together in high school and now college.

We've been hanging out on a daily bases in and out of school. I'm second year captain and quarterback of our football team, he plays second man defense, the best defense our team's had too. I played distance runner my freshman year and I liked it, but coach said I'd do better as quarterback like I did in high school. I mean our whole team is awesome, three time champs in my team since I started school, and hoping our senior year is the same.

Best part, I get to take out all my frustration and energy when I'm out on the field. So it's cool to be able to get to tackle men around.

Matthew and I have become like best friends. I guess you could say that, I've stood up for him many a times, and so has he. We're always sticking up for each other.... and I'm pretty sure we'd do it again in an instant if ever the case needed.

This year we both turned twenty one, and we'll both be going in to our senior year college. To be honest, I'm on the verge to lose it, I need to see Brianna again. It's been a few weeks since she came to see me, but I really miss her. I wish I could just have her here all the time. I hate being so far from her.

Brianna has been my best friend since diaper years.My mom and Lorreta have been best friends since they were in elementary themselves. Our mom's go way back, so I guess you could say we were destined to be best friends.

I just can't get Brianna out my head. This last time she visited, we had a compromising encounter that left me completely questioning our friendship status.  I just can't shake it off my head. I had always had a crush on her, she is fucken beautiful after all. But I never really revealed it to her because I thought maybe I'd get over it.  I'm doubting now, if I ever really got over her. My stomach flutters when I see her or talk to her. She's constantly in my mind and I hate it.

We made a promise long ago to keep our relationship as friends only, althoughyes, we are friends with benefits,  and often times things get heated more then we can handle, but no more then that. I've been in the friends-zone since forever with her, and I'm not ok with it honestly speaking, but I'm a man of my word, so I gotta honor my promise to her. So long as this is what she wants and she's happy, I'm happy for her.

I miss her, I miss her alot.