Chapter 3:SOMETHING NEW

About the car and how amazing it is...I am flying down whatever street I'm on right now and i feel a rush of excitement flow down my body. I love my new car. No more walks to school for me i thought...

I head home and immediately pull out my laptop, there's a race at the tracks on Friday. Awesome! I will definitely sign up.

I have a quick warm shower and change into my comfy pjs. I was thinking about starting to write a blog  anonymously ofcourse. I feel like I'll be able to let my feelings out in that way, So I grab my phone and start to think of something.

Okay so you guys can call me a cloud, like you guys are the sky and im just a cloud, since this is being written anonymously...

○DEAR SKY○

Id like to start by telling you all something about myself.

I'm 19 years old I'm in love with racing and i started this blog so that I could let out my feelings. Even if no one ever read this it makes a difference to me because I'm a really lonely person i don't have any friends or family.

I lost my parents in a car accident, along with my older brother. Ever since that day I have been alone. I don't like being around people I like my own personal space and loneliness is a big part of my life. I hope you all don't think I'm some crazy freak as I am  just a lonely soul looking for someone to talk to without them actually knowing me.

Ever since my family died, "life has been really hard on me." Anyway that's enough for today. Be back soon:).

~Cloud

I shut my laptop as fast as I can and lay in my bed. I decide to take my sleeping tablets as I would really like to sleep tonight.

I wake up screaming!.

This usually happens everytime I actually got some sleep. I dream about the accident. I notice the time and start to get done for school. I pull up at school with my new car and grab the parking I see after a few minutes of driving like a crazy women.

I walk over to my locker to grab a few books when Josh walks up to me.

"Hey Ashley."

" Piss off Josh! "

"Look I'm not as bad as you think I am, i want to apologize. Just give me a chance to explain myself, my friends asked me to throw the coffee on you. It was a dare."

" Not interested Josh your still an asshole to me."

" But Ashley..."

"Goodbye Josh", I say and walk to my history class.

My earphones are in my ears when I notice the person next to me, stare at me. It was Josh.

"What?",I ask.

"Nothing, you just nice to look at.",he replies.

I pretend as if i did not hear what he had just said and continue my walk to history class...unfortunately for me he had the same classes as me so he was like a tail behind me the entire way.

I can't help but think about what he just said,nobody said that to me in a while,does Josh have a thing for me?

No that's impossible,everyone just thinks I'm a freak.Even if he does he'll probably just end up hurting me in the end,I'll be the one suffering.

"So are you just going to ignore me the entire day?",he asks.

"This entire lifetime and maybe even the next",I reply.

He chuckles,"who said i was going to be around you for your entire lifetime?"

"It just shows that's what you want",he adds.

"Oh please Josh,not even a skeleton in a grave will want you around for even a second,you're cunning,annoying,rude and inconsiderate so will you please just leave me alone."

I wondered why this boy could not just leave me alone.I mean it's been easy for everyone else.

"You know what I like about you Ash?"

"Its ASHLEY!"

"Do you at least want to know what it is ASHLEY!",he chuckles.

I hate his sarcasm.

"What?",I'm probably going to regret this.

"You're different."

"Different how?"

"You have to be a bit nicer to want to find that out missy."

I just stare at him and the bell goes ending this weird conversation.

........

I can not help but wonder what was he about to say anyways why am I even worried he's a jerk anyway.

My heart,my brain,my soul and every part of my body told me that Josh was trouble.

........

It was almost the end of the school day. I have not seen Josh since our last conversation.The part where he told me i was different kept playing in my head and i couldn't help but wonder what he meant by that.

What he didn't know was, i thought that he was different too. I am not saying I don't hate him anymore. I still do, i really do.

He was like a calm ocean,but at the same time he was like a typhoon. By that i mean. He was the first person that took interest in me in such a long time. At the same time he gave me the impression of someone whose getting ready to destroy anyone in his path. By someone, i mean me.

That's all everyone ever did to me. They hurt me. They hurt me like i am some human punching bag. Punching like they don't give a damn that it might hurt me,wear me out or even break me. That's how the world is cold,dark and brutal. It's a place where feelings don't matter.

I notice him down the hallway,aggh that face!

A part of me hated that he was kinda cute.

I try my best to avoid him because my heart is scared to know the rest he had to say to me. I hear him scream Ash but i storm out of the doors before he gets close enough to grab my attention.