I feel like we left on the wrong foot

Bea's POV

-6am

It's been 4 days since we've returned from Thailand. I haven't spoken to Ryan since the last day, I'm still undeniably in love with Josh. I fully made up with Steph and I'm still great friends with Grace.

Oh and Josh and I have basically moved in together. It's a big step, but I'm ready. I've told my mum, she doesn't agree although she is willing to try.

His clothes are at mine, and some of mine are at his. But it's mostly when we feel like it, but because of school I don't think he'll be around that much.

Today, I'm waking up by myself. Surprisingly. It's my first day back at school, I'm nervous but I'm ready.

"Hey Alexa, play pink and white by Frank Ocean."

Music has a way of awakening my soul like no other. As soon as I press play on my Frank Ocean playlist, I get an instant rush of motivation and energy that allows me to start my day on the right note. It's almost like a ritual now; I turn on the music and begin to apply my makeup.

I don't think I'd be able to get ready without music. It's almost like it's a part of me now; I'm not sure if I could even function without it. Music sets the atmosphere for my day and gives me a sense of purpose. It's like a form of escapism for me, and it helps me start my day off on the right foot. I'm not sure if I'm the only one that needs music to get ready, but I do know that without it, I'd probably rather die.

Grace calls me, "Hey Bea, do you want to go to school together today?"

"Yep. Sounds great!"

I quickly put on my shoes and head outside.

"Are you excited for the first day back?"

"Well, no and yes. I'm scared to see Ryan."

"There's nothing to be scared about, he fucked up, not you."

"Yeah, I know."

I'm so scared to see Ryan. I can't avoid him forever, but I'm dreading the moment I have to see him in school. I know he still loves me and it's so hard to face him, knowing that he still has feelings for me.

We both have happy relationships now, but I'm so angry at him for kissing me when he knew I was in a good place. It's like he didn't care about my relationship with Josh and was trying to sabotage it.

We arrive at school, "It's time to face him."

We meet Josh and Theo at the gates, "Hey girls,"

"Hey Josh,"

It feels nice being in love, I think I could get used to this.

"Bea, are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. Why?"

"You look a bit- nervous."

"I'm fine, just a bit worried to see Ryan."

"Why it'll be fine. I'll be with you, the whole day today."

—11am

It's history now, I spend it sitting next to some random girl. Telling me about her amazing experience of losing her virginity. Oh, how the teenage years never fail to amaze me.

I can't do this lesson anymore, "Can I go to the toilet."

I walk out the classroom and as I enter the bathroom-

"Bea wait."

Ryan.

"Ryan?"

"Bea. Don't go in, can we talk?"

"We don't need to."

"I feel like we left on the wrong foot."

"No, we left on the right one. We don't need to be friends Ryan."

"I- I didn't know you felt this way."

"Well I do."

"How's it been with Josh in school."

"Well we haven't told anyone, and we're not planning on."

"Is he ashamed of you?"

"No. Ryan," I roll my eyes, "I don't need other people in our business."

"So..."

"Ryan. If I find out that you've told anyone?"

"I won't."

"You better not, if you do I'll tell your girlfriend what you did to me."

"She won't care."

"Trust me, she will."

"Well then she'll care the same amount that you did when Melanie joined us at dinner."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"Oh nothing. It's just the fact that you thanked Josh for cheating on you by taking him upstairs."

Ugh. Ryan makes me sick, "Ryan you don't understand."

"No I don't understand. You're so forgiving for someone who kissed another girl right next to you."

"You wouldn't understand."

"Why wouldn't I?"

"Because you're the fucking reason that happened in the first place!" I shout

Oh fuck.

"What?"

"Josh knows that you came on to me,"

"And? It's not about who came on to who, it's the feelings that were mutual"

"Ryan, you're sick. And we're done."

"I'll see you at lunch-"

"Ryan and Bea, detention." A teacher shouted across the hall,

"Go back to your lessons before I call your parents."

I sit back down in the class, and the girl next to me attempts to start a conversation,

"Bea, how's it going with Josh?"

Sorry, what? How the fuck does she-

"I'm sorry, how do you know?"

"Have you not seen his instagram story? It's so cute!"

I open my phone and-

*Bea sees an Instagram story that Josh put off saying how much he loves her

"Holy shit!" I shout

"Bea, is there a problem?" My teacher asks, concerned

I shake my head, but there is a problem. A big problem. Josh and I didn't agree to do this, and now our whole school knows

It's cute, don't get me wrong but-

"Have a great lunch! Class is finished."

Finally, I catch Grace's eye as we leave, "Grace, did you know about this?"

I show her my phone, she gasps.

"I didn't see this! Aww that is so cute."

"No, it isn't! I didn't want anyone to know."

"Aww Bea," She pulls me into a hug, "There he is now."

Josh runs up to me, picking me up and spinning me around -

"What the fuck were you thinking?"

"Woahh, what's wrong?"

I pull him into one of the classrooms, "Oh alright. Someone's missing Thailand"

"No, Josh. I'm annoyed,"

"About?"

"The insta story."

"Ohhh, that was cute. What's wrong with it?"

"Josh, I don't want anyone to know about us."

"Who gives a fuck-"

"I do."

"Bea, I'm not taking it down. Let's go."

We walk out and-

"Well, well, well if it isn't Josh and... Bea?"

"Guys just fuck off."

It was Steph's old friends, I've never met them but I know that they used to be obssessed with Josh when they were dating.

"Why would you go for someone like her?" She said,

"Because I love her, and she's the best thing that's happened to me."

"She's nothing like Steph, Steph had beautiful blonde hai-"

"Bea has beautiful black hai-"

"Josh, she's just not... your type."

"I don't care what you think, I don't care what anyone thinks."

He goes into the middle of the school field and shouts, "I'm in love with Bea and anyone that disagrees can go fuck themselves."

I laugh, cause of embarrasment, and for the fact that I'm really in love.

We walk towards Grace and Theo, "Hey guys,"

"Rough morning? We just heard your announcement Josh."

"Yeah, I'm sure the whole school heard it. That was the point." He kisses me on the neck,

"Bea, are you okay?"

"Yeah- well no. I have an after school detention today."

Josh, turns to me confused, "Why?"

"I was talking with Ryan in the hallway-"

"Why the hell were you talking to your toxic ex in the hallway?"

"I thought you hated him."

"Guys, it's not that easy."

"What's wrong babe?"

"He's still in love with me, and I threatened to tell Steph."

Josh gives a look to Theo, "Josh, don't do anything!"

"I'm not planning on."

---------------------------------------------------

Josh's POV

It's the next lesson now and I sit next to- Steph.

FUCK.

I'm too tired for this shit, but we'll see how it goes.

"Hey Josh, I saw your insta story."

I keep quiet, there's nothing to say. It's awkward-

"You two are so cute, I wish me and Ryan could get there."

"Ha," I laugh to myself, "that could never happen."

"Umm Josh, that's rude."

"Sorry but it's true-"

"You don't even know Ryan."

"I know that he kissed his ex in Thaliand cause he still had feelings for her."

"Wha-what the fuck. You're lying."

"No I'm not."

"Wait, why are you not mad?"

"Because he forced himself on to her. It wasn't Bea's fault."

"I- I'm so mad. Thanks for telling me Josh."

"Gladly."

I don't have to use violence to get my point across, I can easily make Ryan feel the pain of a couple punches just from a few words.

He shouldn't mess with me. When it comes to love, I'm not the one to play with.