Our Last Kiss

*Ryan's POV*

"JAMES NATHANIEL GO!"

I grabbed his collar.

"Anong ginawa mo kay Theia ha??!"

"Wala kang pakialam!" Sagot niya. "It was between me and her. Kaya pwede ba bitawan mo ko??"

"Eh gago ka pala!"

I punched him really hard.

"Papaiyakin mo siya tapos sasabihin mong wala akong pakialam??!"

Napaupo siya sa ginawa ko.

He brushed his left hand on his lip. There's blood. Nagdugo yung labi niya.

Tumayo siya agad at lumapit sa'kin.

"Ano sasapak ka??" Tanong ko. "Sige. Punch me all you want! Siguraduhin mo lang na okay siya 'cause if not, babasagin ko yang pagmumukha mo."

I saw him clenched his fist pero hindi siya gumanti.

I wasn't scared.

Kahit magsapakan pa kami dito walang problema sa'kin basta maiganti ko lang si Theia.

Bugbog aabutin sa'kin ng gag*ng 'to.

"If you're just going to make her cry, you shouldn't have volunteered to do whatever the hell you're doing!" I said. "Hindi mo na sana siya pinaasa in the first place!"

He looked away. "I didn't.."

"No. You chose this." Sagot ko. "You had the choice para hindi gawin yung pinagawa nila pero pinili mo paring sundin yun. Bakit? Kasi narerealize mo narin na posibleng mahalaga nga siya?"

Hindi siya nakasagot.

"That's the problem, Nathan. The facts are right in front of you but you don't want to acknowledge it."

"You don't know anything, Ry."

Habang buhay ba talaga siyang magpapanggap?

"Bakit ayaw mong aminin yung totoo? Dahil natatakot kang saktan si Ivy?"

Natatakot siyang saktan yung totoong taong nananakit sa kanila.

Ironic.

"Paano kung siya naman yung unang nanakit sa'yo? Would you even protect her??"

"What do you mean?"

"You don't know what she did, Nathan." Sagot ko. "You don't know her. Hindi na siya yung Ivy na nakilala mo noon."

She's changed.

The love she has for you made her selfish.

The love I had for her ruined me.

And I won't let that happen to my bestfriend.

"Ikaw yung unang gumulo kay Theia." I pointed out. "If we just knew that this would happen, pinigilan sana namin siya na papasukin ka sa buhay niya."

She was really happy nung nakilala ka niya tapos ito yung kapalit ng lahat ng saya niya noon??

"I might've let go Ivy para sa'yo but not Theia." Sabi ko. "If you think hahayaan kitang saktan ulit siya, nagkakamali ka."

I turned to leave.

"Makita ko pa siyang umiyak ulit ng dahil sa inyong dalawa, hinding hindi ko kayo mapapatawad."

I've given you hints, Nathan.

It's time for you to move.

Kailangan mo na malaman yung totoo.

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*Theia's POV*

"Bessy."

I stared at her.

"Hindi mo ba talaga sasabihin sa'kin kung ano yung nangyari?"

Hindi ko kaya, Charm..

"N-othing happened.."

"Kung wala talaga, bakit ganun si Ry?" She asked. "He looked really mad."

Kasi hindi maganda yung naabutan niyang itsura ko kanina.

"Namamaga din yung mata mo." Tinignan niya ko ng maigi. "Umiyak ka ba??"

I looked away.

Hindi niya pa dapat malaman kung anong nangyari.

"Charm, I promise to tell you everything kapag ready na ko." I said. "Pero pwede ba muna akong magpahinga ngayon?"

She didn't answer at first pero tumango din siya.

"Thank you, bessy."

Dumiretso ako sa banyo pag-akyat ko. I turned on the shower at paulit ulit na kinuskos ng sabon yung leeg ko.

I didn't noticed that I was crying until I saw myself in the mirror.

I've finally let him go.

What I did was for the best..

Right?

***

"Why are you doing this to me, Theia?"

"Nate--"

Hinatak niya ko kanina nung paalis na dapat ako. He cornered me and placed both of his hand on the wall. I was trapped. Wala akong takas.

"Why do you even call me that way??" He asked. "Ikaw lang yung tumawag sa'kin ng ganyan."

Because you wanted me to..

"And this." Hinawakan niya yung kaliwang kamay ko. "Bakit ba nasa'yo yan?? I've given that to Ivy."

No. It's mine.

It belongs to me.

"Bakit ba ginugulo mo ko ng ganito??" He said. "Sino ka ba talaga??"

"I---"

Sino nga ba ako?

"ANSWER ME!" He shouted. "SINO KA BA TALAGA, THEIA??!"

"Nate--"

Nagulat ako nung hinawakan niya rin yung isang kamay ko. He pinned both of my arms on the wall.

"What are you---"

He kissed me. Aggressively.

Sinubukang kong kumawala but it was no use. Lalo lang humigpit yung hawak niya sa'kin. He was too strong.

Sumasakit na yung braso ko.

He never kissed me this way before.

Naiiyak ako at nasasaktan sa ginagawa niya.

His kisses slowly went down to my neck.

"Nate.."

"Please stop!"

I even tasted my own blood. Nasugatan niya yung labi ko kakahalik niya.

"NATHAN, STOP!!!" I shouted while pushing him. "PLEASE!!"

Hindi parin siya nakinig. Ni walang epekto yung pagtulak ko sa kanya.

Natatakot na ko...

I decided to stop resisting and didn't moved.

If this doesn't work, hindi ko na alam kung ano pa bang dapat kong gawin.

Tsaka lang siya tumigil at tumingin sa mukha ko nung hindi na ko gumalaw.

His expression changed when he saw me crying.

"Theia..."

Binitawan niya ko agad. He was about to touch my face but I used all the remaining strength that I had to push him away and slapped him.

"STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM ME!!"

Napaupo ako. My knees felt weak after what happened. I held my face.

Takot na takot ako.

"How-- how could you even do this to me??" Tanong ko. "What did I ever do to you para saktan mo ko ng ganito???"

He didn't answer.

"Dahil kay Ivy?? Dahil ayaw niyang makita tayong magkasama??" I said. "Well, f*ck that! Gaano ba kalaki yung nagawa mo? Hinatid mo lang ako ng dalawang beses, Nate! Did that even help para maalala mo ko? Hindi naman diba??"

I couldn't stop crying.

Sobrang sakit ng puso ko.

"You rejected every single way to remember me. Ni hindi ka nakinig sa lahat ng sinabi namin." I cried. "Tapos ngayon guguluhin mo ko just because you're finally curious kung sino ako??"

"Sino nga ba ako, Nate? I was supposed to be your girlfriend but I don't even know who I am anymore."

Naramdaman ko nalang na niyakap niya ko.

"Let me go!!"

He didn't moved.

Mas lalo lang humigpit yung yakap niya sa'kin.

His hug made me cry even more.

"You were the one who forgot me!" I yelled at him. "Kasalanan mo kung bakit mo ko nakalimutan! Pero bakit ako yung nagdudusa ngayon??"

Kahit nakailang hampas na ko sa kanya, hindi parin niya ko binibitawan.

Why do you have to hurt me this way??

"Bakit hindi ka bumalik??! You promised me!!"

"I waited for y-you to wake up, Nate. It was torture pero kinaya ko kasi mahal kita. Tapos kakalimutan mo lang din pala a-ako?" I cried. "Do you even know kung anong sinugal ko para ipaglaban ka???"

Pwede akong mamatay sa pagpili ko sayo.

This meant everything to me.

You meant everything.

I wiped my tears away at dahan dahang tinanggal yung yakap niya sa'kin.

"I'm done fighting for you."  I told him. "Malaya ka na. Ibabalik na kita sa tunay na nag mamay-ari sayo."

I reached out for his face and kissed him.

This will be our last kiss.

I didn't want to let you go.

Akala ko masakit na yung makita kang masaya kasama siya. Pero pinakamasakit parin yung iwanan kang mag-isa, Nate.

Kalimutan mo lang ako..

You need to be happy even if it's not with me.

You need to be happy without me.

"Goodbye, Mio."

******