Just Let Him Go

*Theia's POV*

Kakatapos lang ng 1st half nung game.

47 vs. 50

Lamang yung kalaban nilang team ng 3 points. I already told Ry to focus first but he still seemed distracted.

Buti nalang maayos silang naglalaro ni Nate. Akala ko magkakagulo sila tulad nung sa practice.

They were given a 15 minute break bago magsimula yung second half.

"Bessy, bili tayo corndogs." Hinihintay ko palang yung fries na inorder namin nung nakakita siya ulit ng bibilhin.

Umalis kami saglit ni Charm para bumili ng pagkain. Hindi yata siya nabusog sa chips na dinala niya kanina.

She was already pouting when I looked at her.

"Sige. Order ka na."

"Yay! The best ka talaga, bessy!!"

"Bilisan mo ha." Sabi ko while looking at my watch. "5 minutes nalang magsisimula na."

"Aye ayeee!" Dali dali naman siyang tumakbo papunta sa bilihan.

Si Ivy yun diba?

Kakapasok lang niya sa cafeteria.

"Here." Inabot ko agad yung bayad tapos kinuha yung fries.

"Thank you po."

When I looked back, wala na siya.

"Bessy, okay ka na?" May dala siyang 6 na corndog paglapit niya sa'kin.

Kasama nga pala namin sila Kuya, Ate Naomi tsaka Tita Dina.

"Bakit sobra ng isa?"

"Dalawa kasi yung sa'kin. Hehe."

I chuckled. Ang takaw talaga ni Charm.

We were almost by the gym nung nakita ko ulit siya.

"Bessy, cr lang ako saglit."

"Samahan na kita?"

"Wag na." Sabi ko. "Saglit lang naman ako tsaka magsisimula narin yung game."

"Sure ka?"

Mukhang nag-aalangan siyang iwanan ako.

"Oo. Bibilisan ko. Promise."

"Sige."

Nawala na ulit siya nung naglalakad na ko papalayo kay Charm. Sigurado akong dito ko siya nakita.

Nasaan na siya?

Wag nalang kaya? Nagsisimula na yung laro. Baka nasa loob narin siya.

I ended up going to the cr and was about to go out of the cubicle nung may narinig akong boses.

"He seem okay, Tita."

I peaked outside. Si Ivy nga. May kausap siya sa phone. Her face was reflecting on the mirror.

"Wala naman po. Bakit, Tita?"

"Sa room niya po?"

"Pumunta po siya dyan?"

Mukhang hindi niya gusto yung naririnig niya.

"Tita, kelan ba po siya na-discharged?"

Discharge?

Si Nate kaya yung pinag-uusapan nila?

"Ano po yung naiwan niya?"

Kung Tita, edi si Dra. Guevarra?

"Tita, he's not going to remember right?"

He's not going to remember?

Tama ako. It's about Nate.

"What do you think you're doing??" Lumabas na ko sa cubicle to confront her.

When she saw me, nahulog yung phone na hawak hawak niya.

"Th-theia.."

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I was waiting for her to start pero mukhang hindi siya magsasalita.

"Why did you lie to me, Ivy??"

"So, nalaman mo na pala."

She looked away and smiled.

Yung ngiti niya.

Her same smile in my dream. In my nightmare.

Kung saan sila na ulit ni Nate.

"I'll get to the point." She said. "I want him back, Theia."

She wants him back?

"Pero sa'kin na siya."

"He was mine to begin with." She said. "Babawiin ko lang ang akin."

"How can you say that??" Tanong ko. "You were the one who left him in the first place. Kaya hindi na siya sa'yo."

"And he doesn't remember that." She grinned. "Tulad ng pagkalimot niya sa'yo, hinding hindi niya na maaalala yun."

"How could you? Sa'kin si Nate. Kami na. Sa'kin lang siya."

Naramdaman kong paiyak na ko but I held back those tears. I don't want to cry right now.

"Because of his amnesia, never na siyang naging sa'yo Theia." Napatingin siya sa garden. "Kahit yung lugar na yan kung saan kayo madalas magpunta, yan nalang ang naaalala niya at hindi yung alaala niyo."

"Akala ko ba si Ry ang mahal mo?"

"This isn't about Ry, Theia. I didn't love him. I never did. He knows how much I love Nathan." Sagot niya. "He knew that I could never be happy with him that's why we broke up."

Ry knew..? Naghiwalay na sila?

He didn't tell us anything. Ni hindi niya rin nabanggit na mahal pa ni Ivy si Nate.

Paano na siya??

"Nathan even gave up on the treatment." Napatingin siya sa'kin. "Can't you see na ayaw ka niyang maalala?"

"That doesn't matter. I won't give him up."

Hindi porket ayaw niya kong maalala, aayawan ko narin siya.

"You should." She said. "Haven't you heard about his condition? If you knew that I was lying, edi alam mo naring hindi ka na talaga niya maalala, right?"

That's the reason why she lied to me.

"It took me years, Theia. Tiniis ko lahat." Sabi niya. "I was so jealous of the fact na mas minahal ka niya kaysa sa'kin. I was about to give up on him nung nalaman ko yung plano niya. Pero tignan mo nga naman? Naaksidente siya at nakalimutan ka pa niya. He even called me babe nung nagising na siya."

Ayaw niyang maalala ako ni Nate.

"Isn't that fun?? Wala pa kong ginagawa pero naagaw ko na siya agad." Ivy laughed. "He doesn't know you existed. Even your memories with him meant nothing."

She's using his Amnesia to get him back.

"With or without the therapy, he will never remember you kasi ayaw niya." Sabi niya. "Kaya kung ako sayo, I'll give up. Tutal kahit anong gawin mo, ayaw ka parin niyang maalala. Talo ka na Theia."

"I won't. Ipaglalaban ko si Nate."

I wanted to fight for him.

Pero yung puso ko, pasakit ng pasakit lalo.

Paano na kita ipaglalaban?

Kung yung puso ko na yung gustong sumuko?

Why won't you remember me, Mio?

"Can't you just accept the fact na sa'kin na siya??" She said. "Sa'kin naman siya nung una palang. Kaya wag mo na siyang kunin pa."

"You left, Ivy. Iniwan mo siya."

"You have no idea what happened." Sabi niya. "I needed to leave him that time.."

"Kahit ano mang rason yun, hindi parin yun sapat para iwan siya! You left him despite of what was happening." I remembered how sad Nicole's story about them. "You broke his heart, Ivy."

That affected her. Umiiyak narin siya.

"And you think he loves you?? Sa tingin mo ba minahal ka niya ng totoo?"

"He does." That's true. "Ramdam ko sa bawat sinasabi niya. Ramdam ko sa bawat ginagawa niya. Lahat yun para sa'kin. Lahat yun ginagawa niya kasi mahal niya ko."

I never felt unloved when we were together.

"Hindi ka niya minahal, Theia. He never did." Sagot niya. "Kasi kung mahal ka talaga niya, hindi ka niya makakalimutan."

Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko.

Natatalo na ako.

Tama ba si Ivy?

Hindi mo ba talaga ako minahal, Nate?

Kaya ba ang bilis mo kong kinalimutan kasi hindi mo naman talaga ako minahal?

"Just let him go, Theia." Sabi niya. "Palayain mo na siya. Pangako, hinding hindi ko na siya sasaktan. Ibalik mo lang siya."

"Please, Theia.."

Nakahawak siya sa kamay ko.

"IVY!!!"

Boses ni Nate.

Boses niya na iba yung tinatawag at hindi na yung pangalan ko.

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