My Repeated Beginning

I, Elaina Stella de Vassellet, has been slaughtered by my brother Kawan during his rebellion. The nation's beloved princess, that was loved by the citizens and nobles, died along with her many siblings. Kawan, a man who was adopted by the current Empress Helen, raised in power at the age of 20 and killed the royal family. Not only was he talented and skilled in academics and swordsmanship, but he surpasses all his eight brothers and became a crown prince by winning the Emperor's favor after the war. An undefeated man and powerful Emperor of his time.

What fate leads me to be slaughtered in his hands at age 16? I was an innocent soul that was thrust in the middle of my brother's feud for power and lead to my death. A cruel fate indeed for a pampered lady as I to face.

Yet that was not the end of me…

I was reborn into a normal woman in the united states, middle class, with a strong independent mother. I decided to live a humble and giving life. I was well behaved and tried to give back to my mother since my original one died when given birth to me. To my best ability, I became a well-known doctor and gave back to my family and community constantly. I lived life more fuller instead of a fragile princess like before. An honorable life I would have deemed for myself.

One afternoon I was running late for emergency surgery. I was crossing the road to my hospital as usual, but today I received bad luck. Little did I know that it would lead me to my death at age 35 by a car accident.

My life was once again taken from me. I know in my past life I was a fragile princess that was useless, but I didn't commit any terrible crime or sin! Trying to make up my faults in my previous life I should have lived longer…..or died peacefully at least. Oh, how the world is unfair…..for a woman like me to live and to die twice bloodily.

Yet I reincarnated once again and hopefully my last cause I am tired of this. Once again, I am an infant, you would think that a baby forgets its first day when it's born, but sadly this will be my second time remembering. To my surprise, I am back to my original life, Elaina Stella de Vassellet, as a princess of Ucrania Empire. Why did I come back here? To be honest, I am as clueless as you.

I didn't ask to die young once again! I just wanted to be up in the heavens. Am I too sinful to die peacefully and painlessly? What grave sin did I commit that lead me back here?

Stop.

I need to reorganize my thoughts and need to find an escape plan because this title and place is useless to me. I shall become a doctor that abandon her title and live a humble life away from the spotlight and survive at the age of 15. My children don't need to know I was a princess as long as I will be able to live long enough to have any.

When I first lived this life I was too careless and gullible. Being the only princess, you would think I would receive love and affection from my royal family, but that was not the case I lived a loveless life until age 15 and died the same year. My father abandoned me once I gave birth and died right after that. Which leads me to my shy and fragile personality. Always afraid to go outside the palace and live trapped by my own fears. I will never live that life again and will survive past the age of 15! I will never relive that sad life once again and will win the favor of my tyrant brother Kawan.

Who cares about the well-being of the royal family, I was abandoned to being with beginning with and received no love from here. Tyrant Kawan, you just wait, I am not the same girl I was once before. I'll make sure to survive from your hands and live a life far away from here.

This time instead of pitying myself I shall give all my pity to Kawan. He was adopted by the current empress due to his mother dying giving birth to him just like my mother. His mother was the sister of the Empress and this made him a pawn for the Empress to play with. Too bad, she died in his hands at the end for the cruel actions she had done to him.

Yet my plan needed to be postponed due to my age as I am currently 3 weeks old. Luckily time went by fast and my first five years went by quickly. I already was accustomed to the abuse my maid gave to me, especially the one that took care of me. Cara was the maid in charge of me and she was cruel to me calling me "pitiful", "useless", and "forgotten trash". She was not wrong, but It still hurt me deeply every time she said it. Still, I could not blame her as she was as sad as me needing to beg for my daily needs such as wood for the fire or extra food. I felt sorry for her as she thought she was blessed to serve a princess that was loved by the king, but that was not the case instead she lived with a princess that no one loved.

The world is cruel, but I shall play its game because I will not die young again and will win Kawan favor that will allow me to leave this terrible place.