The winter morning

9years,3months,19days.

That much was the long difference when I last broke with my first boyfriend.

And never went to any other way.

Didn't know what happened but lost interest in dating or falling in love all over again.

It was winters again.

Which feel really cold when you have no one to make you feel the warmth of their body, kiss you, touch you, make you feel wanted, make you feel alive. Thinking these and knowing no one coming for me, I made way for my feet to touch the chilling floor, fighting to stand straight which broke my tiring sleep and opened my eyes. "Ah! I look like mess" I exclaimed when saw me in mirror. Not because I wanted to look like sleeping beauty but I was running late for my office and didn't want to be more late already.

I went hurriedly to take shower. Already choose the outfit, a navy blouse which could make my collarbone look perfect and a fitting black trouser with the perfect pair of heels. Just grabbed a bun from kitchen counter with some milk and went straight to door.

I was walking down the lane to the metro station. But I was already late so kind of running. People and passersby looking confused with me.

Finally reached office after whole 15mins late. I thought my manager gonna eat me alive today as it was client meeting today too. I sighed and went to my table where there was already a pile of papers written "SRS" put upon. I asked Siana "what's all these? is manager already here? ".

She gave me confused look and " what do you expect, he just loves giving you work darling".

I knew I was fucked up. The manager came from behind and made a grin. I looked at him in despise but no reaction came.

He just "I told you sweetheart, become mine, you won't have to work anymore, will keep you like queen".

It's not that he wasn't good looking or sexy body but he just couldn't take my mind to accept him.

" it's alright sir, I'll write the codes by tomorrow latest. please don't think otherwise ".

" As you wish, but it ll keep pilling up, let me see upto when ".

He went to his office.

" why dnt you like him"-Siana

"I dnt want to, simple"

"agh..... you know him... but he isn't that bad right? "

"I know, just ignore, will you? "

we both laughed at this.

Siana is a friend when I got to office. She isn't all selfish as all but maybe one or two times she also may think about herself before me. I wouldn't blame her for that.

What a tiring day. Just normal. Nothing abnormal at all.

This is what all my days look.

Boring.

Nothing like a fun loving girl.

I know it's boring. Maybe because I m boring. Or maybe because I dnt have a boyfriend. People talk about it. But doesn't matter much.