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I Don't Deserve Love

In the year 2024, Everett, a villain haunted by his loveless existence, undergoes countless regressions, each one devoid of the warmth of love. From his very first regression, he is thrust into a world where love seems like a distant dream. Despite growing accustomed to the sorrow that accompanies him, Everett clings to a flicker of hope, yearning for love to find him. It is in his 900th regression, when despair has consumed him, that he encounters Ayden, a man who has experienced his own share of heartache and abandonment. Adyen becomes the unexpected father figure in Everett's life, offering him a glimmer of solace in the midst of their shared sorrow. As their journey unfolds, Everett is torn between the darkness of his past and the possibility of a brighter future. Suspense hangs in the air as he grapples with his own worthiness of love and the consequences of his past actions. Amidst the sorrow that has shaped their lives, Everett and Adyen forge a bond that defies their painful histories. "I Don't Deserve Love" is a gripping tale that explores the depths of despair, the resilience of the human spirit, and the transformative power of love. It delves into the haunting question of whether redemption is possible, even for those who believe they are undeserving.

Esese_Davwebor · Fantasie
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Prologue

Love...

What was that?

That word was a weird and confusing thing to me

Many of my companions and servants talked about it, like it was something good

Why?

I didn't see what was so good about it, more of I didn't quite understand what was all the fuss about the word "Love"

When ever I brought it up it spread like wildfire on the run

Everyone brought a meaning of it

Some called it the ability to care for someone

Some called it safety while others saw it as something cruel..

But if you were to ask me... I would say

Nothing

I don't know what Love is

None have I ever felt or be given love

Why you may ask...

Because that was how I was programmed

A villain...

Not just any villain but a villain that was programmed to never love and to never receive love

I was the villain of every story

The scourge of the world...

Smirk

It was funny...

Even when I refused to think of the word love, it comes back to me in strange waves

I sometimes wonder

What was it...

If I had not be made a villain but a hero

Would I....

Would I have felt what others had

Would I have been loved

It was a thing that lingered in my mind throughout all my regressions as the game villain

I had hope but then lost it

Because that was how my life was programmed

I was never to receive love none was I ever to give

It was cruel but i didn't know

Being derived of it for so long makes me empty

I don't feel anything anymore

So why?

Why is it that I am thrust into this dilemma again

It was said on my description that love was impossible for me

I was always meant to be an orphan

So who was this....

Who was this man that reached down to pick up me

The discarded and abandoned baby by the road side on my 900th regression

He was smiling as he gazed lovely to me

I was petrified

Was I being taunted again by my developers to remove any hope or doubt of being loved

But why..

Why do I giggle when the man cuddles me

....

In this world

Can I finally be loved?

I hope... no.... I pray for it

I just want to feel what love is...

Will I finally be able to...?

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