Love...
What was that?
That word was a weird and confusing thing to me
Many of my companions and servants talked about it, like it was something good
Why?
I didn't see what was so good about it, more of I didn't quite understand what was all the fuss about the word "Love"
When ever I brought it up it spread like wildfire on the run
Everyone brought a meaning of it
Some called it the ability to care for someone
Some called it safety while others saw it as something cruel..
But if you were to ask me... I would say
Nothing
I don't know what Love is
None have I ever felt or be given love
Why you may ask...
Because that was how I was programmed
A villain...
Not just any villain but a villain that was programmed to never love and to never receive love
I was the villain of every story
The scourge of the world...
Smirk
It was funny...
Even when I refused to think of the word love, it comes back to me in strange waves
I sometimes wonder
What was it...
If I had not be made a villain but a hero
Would I....
Would I have felt what others had
Would I have been loved
It was a thing that lingered in my mind throughout all my regressions as the game villain
I had hope but then lost it
Because that was how my life was programmed
I was never to receive love none was I ever to give
It was cruel but i didn't know
Being derived of it for so long makes me empty
I don't feel anything anymore
So why?
Why is it that I am thrust into this dilemma again
It was said on my description that love was impossible for me
I was always meant to be an orphan
So who was this....
Who was this man that reached down to pick up me
The discarded and abandoned baby by the road side on my 900th regression
He was smiling as he gazed lovely to me
I was petrified
Was I being taunted again by my developers to remove any hope or doubt of being loved
But why..
Why do I giggle when the man cuddles me
....
In this world
Can I finally be loved?
I hope... no.... I pray for it
I just want to feel what love is...
Will I finally be able to...?