Chapter 25: I Only Need You

...Everyone had fancy dinner cooked by the palace chefs. It's very good but they have to say they want seafood more since it's very difficult to get in Angis or Capital because ice magic is rare and not commercialized."Fay let's visit the library!". Lisa suggested."Yes!".They went their way to the palace library. It's very big, although not as large as the Mages Association Grand Library in the Capital. They tried to search here and there. But it's really full of educational books.Meanwhile, Wain went to knock on Trevor's room to talk to him."Heyy".'Come in'.Trevor welcomed him in. Wain sits himself on his bed."Trevor, I need talk to you".Trevor felt a bit of anxiety. It's rare for Wain to be so serious. He still hates him? Or, did he cross the line in the bath before? He was just teasing them really. But maybe he did too much, he thought.Trevor sat next to Wain, readying his ears while clenching his fist."Do you really like him?". Wain asked straight to the point.Trevor is startled. He doesn't know why he is asking this out of nowhere. But he had to take a deep breath before answering."I do".'I see...'.Since Wain is silent afterwards, he added some lines on his own."Wain. I am sorry for crossing the lines back there. I know you have been with him for so long. I got carried away... I just... I don't know... I really like him. At times I forgot to hold back…".Wain is silent. He took a deep breath before asking him another question."Do you want to be with him?".Trevor felt so confused at this question.'I do... But... He already rejected me. And he has, you. Why are you asking me this?'.Wain too is wondering why he is having this stupid idea. But he has to still say them. It hurts his heart a bit, but he really thinks this is a good idea.'I don't mind, if you want to be with him'.Wain almost choked on his own words. It's not that he's fine with it, but... he felt undeserving. And Trevor is the only one he would feel assured to love Fay. Trevor is not sure what to reply to this. His brain almost short-circuited hearing this from Wain. He knew how much they stick-close to each other each day."Are you... really okay, with me being with him?".Wain nodded."Wain. What's wrong with you?". Trevor furrowed his eyebrows and asked with concern. He felt weirded out honestly. It's bizarre even.Wain had to be honest with him.'I feel guilty... I cheated on him... I can't even look at him properly now...'. He had to look down, unable to face Trevor who he had scolded for hurting Fay. It's very hypocritical of him.Trevor can't believe his own ears.'You really...why did you... with who...?'. Trevor knows Wain loves Fay deeply. It never crossed his mind he would do that to Fay. Even he felt angry at him as his brows knitted closer. Fay had loved him so much, and he still betrayed him?"It's with her… you know who".Trevor genuinely doesn't know who he's talking about. But he tried to guess from the latest ex he had before Fay.'Is it... Akasha?'.Wain nodded with guilt.'Haa?!... Why? What??? Why her? Don't she have problems with her head. He even accused you of cheating and man, I remember she called you a stupid dog in front of everyone! What in Elysia possessed you!?'.Wain kept quiet. He too remembers that."…I did cheat on her...". He had to look sideways.Trevor opened his eyes wide. He truly believed Akasha was insane with the way Wain explains the 'misunderstanding' and how she acts. He didn't think Wain had lied to him.Wain then explained how he went to apologise to her. Because he knew he had hurt her and did her wrong. He really wants to be a better person and clear his own guilt. But he realised she's hurt too much and he had to take responsibility for it. He had told him how he saw she had hurt herself, and has neglected to care for her own wellbeing.Trevor kept quiet hearing the whole story.'Why did you tell me all this...?'. Trevor did feel disappointed in Wain, but he understands his mistakes after hearing the whole reason. It may be unfair to Fay, but abandoning Akasha after he had done her so wrong is also unfair to her. Even he's not sure if he can be firm to push someone who he had done so much wrong away."I... I really feel so bad. I am such a stupid guy. I am hurting Fay behind his back. I really can't do this...". Wain broke down in a sudden.Even Trevor is surprised to see him like this. He had never seen him cry. And it just shows how much his mistake hurts him from the inside. He had to pat his back. Trevor thought for a moment, finding a solution to this problem. And he too, doesn't want to see Fay get hurt. And he knew what the simplest solution is and its very easy."Wain..."."Just, end it with her".Wain looks at Trevor. He doesn't think Trevor understands why he had to stay with her."I know you did her wrong. But... You love Fay most. So just end it with that woman. I know it's horrible to say this but, you don't have to care about her".Wain but his lips. It's true. Even he knows and is self aware of what it would mean. It means hurting her and abandoning her after he had done her so wrong. It would mean he would become a monster to her. And seeing how bad her condition before, it means to completely turn a blind eye to the consequences, leaving it up to her as if it's none of his concern anymore.He thought about it. It's cruel. And yet Trevor is right. He had to sacrifice his conscience to be with Fay rather than juggling between both of them. And he didn't love that woman. He only loves Fay. The choice is obvious.Thinking about it, he gets more and more convinced. Trevor words had totally convinced him. He feels sorry for her, but it's what he needs to do."Thanks. I see what I need to do now".Trevor patted his back again.'Wain. Thank you for trusting me with these...'.Trevor felt touched that Wain could tell him his secrets. He trusted him enough to spill it out. He naturally will keep it to his grave. Even he can't bear to see Fay get hurt, and he feels bad for Wain.Wain feels glad that Trevor is still his friend. He thought about things again. Even if, he will end things with her completely, but thinking about how Trevor is as a person, and that Fay seems to like him as well… perhaps, he would give him a chance."Trevor... I really don't mind if you want to love him. If Fay wants to accept you, I would too. All three of us can be together".'Umm… is that okay? I mean… I know it's not unheard of but…'. Trevor is not sure about this idea.'Yeah… I am fine if it's you'.'Maybe, you can treat him better than I did'. Wain looked down, having his own heart eaten away by his sins. He's really only open to this because a part of him feels too guilty to Fay to even stay with him."Wain…". Trevor felt a bit touched that his friend is really giving him a chance to love Fay, alongside him. He's not greedy. He knows Fay loves Wain. And when he thought about it, then couldn't he could squeeze in so he loves him as well?...Fay returned from exploring the library and lay down on bed to cuddle Wain.Wain took a deep breath to ask Fay things. He feels guilty towards him, and he really think about letting Trevor in seriously."Fay... What do you think of Trevor".'He's a nice person and a good friend. I have forgiven him completely, okay? Why?'."Do you, like him?".Fay felt hurt hearing this question.'Why are you asking this? I have told you already. I just need you. Sorry if I... looked at him before... that's really just because he's naked... it's difficult for me'.'I don't mind if you want to like him...'.Fay is startled at this. His brain almost short-circuited."You... Don't mind?". Fay is a bit confused and can't understand. Why is Wain saying this?"Trevor is a good man. And I am sure he regrets his actions before and will never hurt you again. And he seems to like you very much. I just thought, it's fine if he is to be with you as well. I noticed you do like him".'H-hey... I just got carried away before. I have feelings too and I can't help it at times...'."So... You do like him...?". Fay felt his heart hurt at this point. Is it because he glanced at Trevor that Wain is saying this?'He's attractive, I admit that. And it's really because he was... naked, up close. I only love you, Wain. I won't look at him anymore, okay? I am sorry Wain...'. Fay has tears pooling in his eyes. It's like Wain is scolding him for looking at another man and is saying this weird thing because of it.'Wont you, love him as well, alongside me?'....Fay doesn't understand where is he going with this."Wain... Won't you feel hurt if I like him?"."I won't. Because I know you still love me. And he would treat you good too".Fay can't understand why Wain is, okay, with this. He can't say a word.'We can be together with you. He is my friend and I am willing to let him love you'.'Wain... I still don't understand'.Wain is giving up a part of Fay, because of his own infidelity. He knew Fay's honest personality hearing his answers to his questions about Trevor.'I just want to be with you. I don't want Trevor'. Fay went to hug wain tight.'I only need you'."Three of us, can be together. I will still be with you".Fay has his brain fried off this time. But he still thinks about Wain's statement. Although polygamy is allowed and nothing is wrong with it in this world, monogamy is still the majority. But that's not the point...Why Wain is saying this...Fay can't help it but shed a tear. Why Wain is insisting on this. Doesn't he care if he likes another man?"Fay...". Wain saw Fay had a tear dropping to his side.He didn't know Fay would get hurt from him suggesting this.'I am sorry... I won't look at Trevor again. I am sorry... I am really sorry. Don't say this anymore... I just want you...'.Wain don't understand why Fay is like this. Why is he saying sorry to him suddenly? It's not like he asked him to break up with him. He is willing to let Trevor join in as well – not breaking up with him. So why is he crying?Wain can only caress him and wipe his tears away.'I love you. I only love you...'. Fay buried himself into him.Wain can't convince Fay anymore. Seeing Fay hurt, he thought it might be a mistake to even suggest such things to him. He thought Fay would be happy, since he can have more than him. But he's wrong....They returned to Angis after a while once Amber has a chance to take a break and bid her farewell. She thanked the party members for being with her all this time.Lisa, Amber and Fay hugged together, joined by Elvis, Trevor and Wain as well."If you guys want to kill any more Mithril beast or even Adamantite ones, invite me as well! Tell my secretary and maybe I can sneak out and can go with you guys. I am quite powerful if I have to say it myself". Amber had a smug feeling with her newfound power. Maybe she's even stronger than Fay, she thought.Amber looks at Kyubey who's on top of Fay's head all this time. She also has a Kyubey following her. So, there's really more than one Kyubey. She naturally would fulfill her promise to Kyubey as part of the contract. She already mobilized, moderately, things requested by Kyubey such as technology blueprints, magic crystals and various metals.Fay opened a portal to Angis, going back to their rooms....They took another day of break because the attention back in Atlanta stress them out.They had taken too long break already and needed to do some activity so they all went to the adventurer guild. Elvis is surprised to see so many personal requests for their party, and few for Fay especially from independent researchers and those from Mages Association to study this 'Dragon Race' and study space magic.'By the way... I thought you guys are still in Atlanta. How are you guys here so fast?" The quest handler had always felt it's weird all this time but kept quiet. They submitted the eggs and do quests in far away places and suddenly they came back too quickly.Elvis has no comment.'So... It's true he can use mass teleportation or spatial gates?'. She went to see Fay sitting in the table from afar. She can't see what part of him looks like a dragon. She's just confused at the news. Were they hallucinating?Elvis has no comment. Seeing it, she just sighed. She gave few documents that entails the requests for his party and Fay.He went to give the ones requesting for Fay.Fay read through them and is quite surprised. A few people want to run a blood test or get tissue sample from him. And even magic testing and experiment on space magic. The pay is quite good, given he doesn't really have to work much. But he's not interested in this though.He just put it down and went to see few documents Elvis had read. There's variety of quests. Mostly it's gold level quest though and it's more of collection quests for certain monster parts or rare plants that you would need to dive deep into unexplored lands.As for the Mithril one, it involves them searching based on minimal clues and rumours. That might take them for a long time to even see the shadow of the beast.Elvis thought for a moment. They don't have Amber with them. So, for the time being they need to get used to it. He decides to take simple monster hunting quests with the party....Fay is chopping some vegetables as they are camping after successfully killing a giant ape. This noble wants his balls(?), as they are good supplement for men prowess.Seeing Fay is free (from Wain), Trevor went to him."Hey...".'Hey'.Fay replied shortly. He really doesn't want to look at him. Wain doesn't like it, he concluded himself although that's a misunderstanding on his part. And he don't want Wain to think he likes another man other than him. It felt infuriating to him."Fay. I got you something".He took out a pretty bracelet made of scales of a magic beast from the sea.Fay only looks at it in a half a second before turning his eyes away, ignoring him.'I can't accept it, sorry'. Fay said coldly while still chopping vegetables."I-Its just as friends".'No....'. Fay had to take a deep breath.'Please, don't talk to me anymore'.Trevor was taken aback and felt his heart paused for a moment. Its so… sudden. He can't process this. He felt his heart crushed at the moment. Why, is he so cold so suddenly.'Fay... Why...?'."I have Wain. I already told you. Please... go away. Don't talk to me anymore". Fay don't even bother to look at Trevor.Trevor felt his heart broken at this point. To be treated so coldly so suddenly. Why...?'I get it... sorry Fay'.Trevor walked away, looking at the bracelet he bought him. He felt his heart shattered to pieces at this point. He went to Wain, helping him to prep some meat, wanting some company with his friend."Did you give it to him?". Wain knows Trevor bought a bracelet for him.'He... doesn't want it'.Wain is surprised at this. Because knowing Fay's personality, he would have smiled and say his thanks to Trevor, maybe commenting on how the bracelet is pretty, and it would end there – but why Fay is acting totally out of his prediction?'Really? I mean, you tell him its just as friends, right?'.Trevor had tears pooling in his eyes.'He... He said he don't want to talk to me anymore... He told me to go away...'.Wain gulped. For Fay to treat him so coldly. He knew Fay had always been a sweet person. He knows it must be because he suggested those things to Fay. He didn't expect Fay to be this decisive at treating Trevor so harshly just to show he only loves him.Wain looks at Fay, who's still focusing on chopping the veges.He really feels bad for Trevor. He really had think things through and feels that Trevor deserves to love him. But Fay won't give him a chance at all. Is it his fault? He never meant it to go this way. Is he ruining everything?The meals are done as they picnic at in the jungle. It's a nice change once in a while. They return to town shortly, resting for the rest of the day."Fay... You don't have treat him so coldly". Wain caresses his back.'No. I only like you. I don't want him'. Fay went to bury himself into Wain's chest."I mean he's your friend, right? You shouldn't-".'No. He's not'.Wain is taken aback. He had to sit up straight and look at Fay in shock. What is wrong with him? To say that without holding any of his words back… to say Trevor wasn't his friend. He felt his own heart hurt for Trevor."Fay. Why are you, saying this?". He felt his heart racing. Fay is too decisive, and ruthless. He can't just cut Trevor off like that. Not like this. He doesn't want this. It's unnecessary to treat Trevor like this.'I don't want him. I just want you...'. Fay went to hug him tighter, dragging him back to lay down on bed."Fay... He's your friend. I don't mind if he likes you. You don't have to cut him off".'No. I don't need him as a friend. I just want you'.Wain gulped. Why it comes to this? Has Fay always been this extreme?He really doesn't know what to do with him now. Trevor would be hurt. And it's just unnecessary for Fay to do this."Fay, I really don't mind him, okay? He's a friend of yours too so-".'Stop saying you don't care...', Fay has tears in his eyes. Wain is taken aback again."I love you. I only love you. Please... Stop saying that... I only need you. I don't want Trevor. I don't want him. I just want you... I won't look at him. I won't talk to him. I don't care about him. I just need you...".Wain is taken aback again. He doesn't know how to form his words. It's as if, anything he says will be interpreted as something else entirely. How did it go to this?Wain caresses his hair trying to calm himself down."It would hurt Trevor if you suddenly cut him off like this...". He never wanted this.'I don't care. I just need you...'.Wain bit his lips. Why it's like this? How can he just say he doesn't care about hurting him. Even he can't bear the idea that Fay would treat Trevor like a ghost again after he had forgiven him. Now he's doing it again for a him.He can only close his eyes take few breaths. He doesn't know what to say to Fay. It might as well be his fault....