Hurt & Over it

The first couple of days had been the worst, I felt as if I was punched in the chest by hulk, and all the air was knocked out of my lungs, I can't do this, why did I tell him that? You just had to do it didn't you, I said to myself, oh my god your so naïve, as I push the thought of Scott away and the numerous voicemails and calls from Alex and Car(short for Alexandria and Cara) my best friends in the entire world......... They know me more than anyone and know when something is up with me, I didn't feel like talking and I hadn't told them about the break-up, or the time apart, I don't even know what it is. Chase obvious to the situation, opens the door and checks up on me, as Bianca stops at the door. Chase assures me that everything will be ok and it only takes time, I could see the hurt in his eyes for me and I rubbed his arm gently, letting him know I'm ok. Chase and I have always been close, maybe because we were only 3 years apart or the fact that it was always just us, when mom and dad got tied up at work we'd always kept each other company, and no matter what girl chase was entertaining, I always came first.

I told Alex and Car what had happened and they both came in to hug me, as the weeks went on by, I got stronger and was more determined not to answer any of Scott's calls as I would just keep falling into depression, as his constant emails and text kept doing the past couple days. It has been 6 months since I last saw Scott and I thought of reading the last email he sends before he decided he would stop bothering me if I didn't respond.

You see what no one but Chase knows is that Scott cheated on me with that bitch Cammy. Let's just say I didn't wanna tarnish his reputation among my family. How I found out is a story for another time trust me.

Scott's Email......................

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To: My heart

From: Your Heart

This will be my last letter to you if you decide not to respond. I've left you tons of voicemails, calls, and texted messages and you still have decided to ignore me. I love you and I always will, but please just talk to me, I know I broke my promise but we can work it out baby, I know six months is a long time but are you willing to throw away the years we had, the love, the fun and joy we shared? please just talk to me. Ps, I love you.

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As I am about to wrap myself between the sheet and cry myself to sleep, here comes Bianca......... "Oh, no you don't", she says, it's been 6 months and it's time to get out and socialize with your friends, Chase is way too stressed out for this, wait- what? I ask, what's wrong with Chase? I immediately looked panicked, as Bianca tries to calm me down, no no no no no..... it's nothing.... he just worried about you, that's all I meant, she said. I let out a breath I never knew I was holding, ok great I said. "ok, so we're going to a girls' night out with Alex and Car, so get yourself together, we leave at 7, said Bianca. We both got ready at the same time and I can tell Chase is super happy right now as he winks at Bianca and kisses me on the forehead, telling us to have fun.

You look nice, Bianca said, thanks and so do you. Are we ready? yup, I said....... let's get outta here, (before I changed my damn mind). We met up with the girls and I hadn't had so much fun in a while, just us girls......... no boys and definitely no drama. I was sure that all of us were a bit tipsy and decided to grab a cab and head to my house. We basically laughing our guts at particularly nothing, as we didn't even notice Chase looking at us......... "Wow, had fun I see", said Chase..... "Yes, I did, all thanks to Bianca", who gives a gracious bow and we all start laughing again. Chase gave Bianca the "I'm proud of you look", as we all went to bed without leaving both Chase and Bianca at the kitchen counter.

Chase grabs his girlfriend by the waist and pulled her into him, "thank you so much", he said as he kissed her meaningfully but gently, I know a better way of thanking me, she gleamed, as she pulls away....... raising her eyebrows at him........... and he smirks at her, grabbing her closer to him, she laughed and pulled away from him.......... "Oh no, my little British prince, not that"- she said, and he pouted, what then might I ask? he said...... I get to drive your Bugatti, come on, give it up.......... she said smiling as he had no way of getting out of this...... But- I- he tries to get a word in, but she's not having it. He takes out the keys and was about to give them to her when he pulls them back and asked, "how long?"

"How long what?" she asks as if she's oblivious to what he's asking, as she laughed and grabs the keys saying 1 week...... "Wait- what?" he ran after her as she ran with the keys to his room.

The next month sped along faster and what seemed like ages since I'd seen or even heard from Scott, he really meant it, he clearly giving me space and as if the universe was waiting to strike me down further, there was Car with a mag in her hand, looking all suspicious and scared at the same time. Car, I looked questioningly, looking from her to the paper, what's that? I asked, knowing it had to be something important. "well are you gonna show it to me". She started laughing, showing me she made the cover of Vogue, as they asked her 21 questions. We jumped up screaming because it was actually a pretty big deal for her.

Car went home after a bit then suddenly my phone went off, I picked it up quickly only to see an image of Scott and Cammy in bed. The phone fell from my hand and I started hyperventilating, I couldn't see anything and I knew it was welled up tears in my eyes. I wiped them angrily, "No," I said, "I will not cry over him, I obviously wasn't worth it for him, he couldn't even go a few months without being a cheating ass bitch.

I screenshot the photo and sent it to him. "I hope it was worth it" I captioned and sent it to his phone.

I turned my phone off and lay in my bed.

I knew it was that bitch Cammy who had sent the picture to my phone, even though it was an unknown number. Who else could've taken a picture with them and sent it directly to me! There wasn't even a bribe attached to the picture so I'm sure it wasn't a paparazzi photo.

I just want to hit something, I needed to get out of the house. I grabbed my black sports bra and a pair of black leggings and started jogging. This always clears my head. I felt the tears running and I angrily wiped them from my face. He was such a fucking asshole, maybe this wasn't even his first time cheating.

The thought made me angrier and I went onto the nearby bushes and began to scream......

I hated feeling like this, I felt like a fool, I was so stupid to think he would've been faithful to me, he deserved a fucking trophy if you asked me. I began running again and this time I went home.

I got into the house and saw Chase and tried to avoid him but he was already there asking me what was wrong.

"Nothing," I said, as he scuffed and followed me up the stairs. "Chase I don't wanna talk about it just leave me alone," I said. "Just tell me", He yelled getting angry. My phone was vibrating and I just ignore it.

Scott calling.......

It stopped and there were about 30 missed calls and messages.

"What did that bastard do" questioned Chase.

It was buzzing again and this time Chase answered.

"What the fuck did you do you piece of shit" he yelled.

"I'm sorry man I didn't mean to hurt her, I was drunk I didn't even know it happened" Scott cried.

"I'm going to fucking kill you, you hear me". "Don't you dear call her again"

Chase warned as he hung up the phone and pull me into his embrace.

I started crying as Chase soothes me, I took the phone from his hand and show him the picture.

He deleted it and threw the phone on the bed as we sat down.

"Hey," he said it's ok, he doesn't deserve you," he said.

"I know, it just hurts so freaking much, I need to hit something"

"I have an idea," said Chase standing up and pulling me with him.

"Where are we going? I asked.

"You'll see" he stated, as we drove off.

We stopped in front of a building and that was the first time I started boxing.

I knew I had to talk to Scott no matter what but I was too emotional.

As we drove home Chase looked worriedly at me, "I think it's best if no one is aware of why the both of you broke up, especially our parents and his". I laughed thinking the exact thing.

"I know right".

"You are a very great boxer he said smiling. That was a good first day".

"I liked it", I said "I think I wanna go back until I get the anger out".

"What are you gonna do?", He asked looking at me.

"I don't know I shrugged looking out the window. "I don't think I have the energy for this relationship any longer, I'm done". I stated, knowing it's true.

(End of flashback)