The feeling 2

OLIVE

Seeing Nolan talk to the rest and not me, made me feel left out. I felt left alone. Most of the time, I had to stay indoors, just to avoid seeing him. And as much as the rest tried to talk to me, it wasn't like when Nolan and I talk. I knew in the past we were both comfortable not talking to each other. I could go days, weeks, and even months and not talk to him. I could sit in a room with him and not feel his presence. But now, a day without talking to him made me feel so bad. I feel empty. I had thought telling the ruthless alpha I love him will help me get over the little feeling I was beginning to have for Nolan. Yes, I feel a thing a small. Though the feeling is still little and hasn't been confirmed yet. I was afraid the more time I spent in the fire pack will only wake up the feeling I had been trying so hard to kill. Then I had to think about the ruthless alpha too. I was very sure I loved him but was so confused about, why I loved him and still have a little feeling for Nolan. So when I had the opportunity to tell my feeling to the ruthless alpha, I told him.

Telling him, I had thought everything will return to normal. I won't have to think or worry about Nolan. I never thought he would avoid me for any reason. None I could think of. At first, I thought it was one of our usual fights. The one that lasts for a week or two. But as hours changed to days, and days to a month. I realized he was serious. He was very serious about avoiding me. I couldn't bear it anymore. I couldn't bear seeing him talk to others and not me. I couldn't think of the ruthless alpha as I always do. I stopped daydreaming about him. I spent most of my time thinking about Nolan. And the more I thought about him, the more the feeling I thought I had killed kept growing. I kept trying to hold myself back. I tried to keep away from them. But not for long. I called my mom and told her what was going on. She was happy to hear I was beginning to develop feelings for my mate but was disappointed we kept having a right. She told me to settle out the difference. That was the reason I came to Nolan, to beg him. He was surprised to see me beg him. He couldn't hide his surprise. I was so happy when he said he had forgiven me.

I smiled. I hope we get to understand each other soon. I opened the fridge and brought out the jug containing the pineapple juice. I picked two glass cups and a tray. I placed the cups on the tray with the jug filled with pineapple juice and headed to Nolan's room. Ella met with me in the hallway. She stared at me. "Where are you going with a jug of pineapple juice and two glass cups?". I smiled. "And why are you smiling sheepishly"

I rolled my eyes. "I am not smiling sheepishly, ok?"

She shrugged. "Whatever" she mumbled. "Where are you going?"

I chuckled. "It's a secret"

She furrowed her brows. "A secret?" She asked and I nodded. She scoffed. "I saw you come out of Nolan's room a few minutes ago and now you're going upstairs with two glass cups and a jug of pineapple juice. That can only mean one thing. You're heading for Nolan's room"

I chuckled. "Busted"

She folded her arms. "Tell me. What am I missing"

I rolled my eyes. "Nothing. We only agreed to settle our differences"

Ella shrieked. "Are you been serious?" Ella yelled

I groaned. "Hey, you're yelling"

She jumped. "I am so happy for you" she yelled

"Stop yelling please"

She chuckled. "Sorry". I rolled my eyes. "Does that mean you will be accepting him as your mate?"

I batted my lashes. "No!!. I mean that shouldn't be the next step"

She chuckled. "Well, I see hope. You should go. I don't want you to keep Nolan waiting. And please stop blushing"

"I am not blushing"

"You are. Your face is red like a ripe strawberry". I rolled my eyes. "I am so happy for you"

I smiled. "Thanks". I left Ella and returned to Nolan's room. I stood by the door. "Nolan?". I heard him say a yes. "Can you help me open the door, please?". Nolan helped me to open the door and I walked. He offered to help me take to the tray to the table. I followed him from behind and sat down on the bed. I will serve" he said. I watch him pour the juice into the glass cups. He handed one of the cups to me. I took it from him. He sat down beside me.

"Let's make a toast". He furrowed his brows. "A toast for a new beginning and a better tomorrow". He nodded. I raised my cup and he did the same. "Cheers for a new beginning, a new me and a new us. A better tomorrow for us and our friends". I touched my cup with his and then sipped. I dropped the cup on the table. "Thanks for forgiving me"

He nodded. Everywhere was silent for a while. I stood up. "I will head back to my room"

I made to leave but he stopped me. "Olive?". I stared at him. "Are you free this night?". I nodded. "I will like us to visit a cinema"

I batted my lashes. He wants us to visit the cinema?. I smiled. "I will love to"

He nodded. "See you by 6 pm"

I nodded. "Ok"

**

Clothes were scattered across my closet. I had tested almost every cloth in my closet. Ella sat on the couch, legs crossed and chewing gum. She does that to piss me off. She made a sign and I rolled my eyes. "Can you stop making that sound? Or maybe you stop chewing the gum"

"I can't stop chewing my gum"

I groaned. "Then stop the sound. It's so annoying"

She hissed. "Just like seeing you reck your closet is so annoying"

I frowned. "It's my closet, not yours"

"Whatever" she mumbled. She dropped her legs. "You haven't told me where you are going and why you have to scatter your clothes?"

I rolled my eyes. "Where I am going to, does not matter. Just help me get something nice to wear"

"Why will I want to do that?"

"Because you are my friend"

She hissed. "Friend and you can't tell me what the occasion is all about"

I groaned. "Come on, just help me out"

She stood up. "I can't believe you are hiding it from me". She sighed. "If you can't tell me who you are going out with, you can as well tell me where, so I can pick the right cloth"

I rolled my eyes. "The cinema"

She furrowed her brows. "You're going to the cinema with Nolan?". She wouldn't let me a say word. "Wow, that's the reason you've been so happy"

I frowned. I did not tell her I was going out with Nolan. I did not remember calling Nolan's name. Why will she conclude he was the one I was going out with?. I groaned. That's the reason I had kept it from her. I sighed. "Will you help me out or not? "

She chuckled. "Sure. Anything for Nolan". I groaned but said nothing. I watched her pick some clothes. She stretched it to me. It was a blue t-shirt, black leather trousers, and a leather jacket.

I frowned. "What is this for?"

She chuckled. "You are going to the cinema with Nolan. He knows what kind of clothes you love to wear. There is no point in trying to impress him. Just be your normal self"

I batted my lashes. She was right. I was so lost in trying to impress Nolan and forgot totally that he knows me too well. If I dress differently from what he was used to, he will know I was only trying to impress him. I sighed. "Thanks, Ella. You're the best"

She chuckled. "I know I am. Go get dressed. I will be waiting here". I pecked her checks and went to get ready.

**

By the time I was out of my room and to the car park, Nolan was waiting by the car. He smiled when he saw me. I smiled back. "Ready?". I nodded and he opened the door for me. I expected him to compliment me or so but he never said a word. All he did was start the car and drove out of the pack's gate and into the street. I kept staring at him, hoping he would say a word or even look at me for once. All he did was focus his full attention on the road. I groaned. What kind of a feeling is this?. The one which longs for his attention?. A feeling which wants his compliment. I sighed. I hope I will be able to control this feeling that has refused to go!!.