Confusing

I couldn't sleep because I kept thinking about Paijo's words.

Even if I'm not the person he likes, at least I think he thinks of me as a friend because of that, he's willing to help me.

But after what he said that night, I felt that he really hated me. Either all this time he was just pretending to be nice, or small talk because Bambang considered me a younger brother, or I don't know. But deep in his heart, he really hates me.

Without thinking, I opened a friend's contact on social media, and immediately blocked the man's account. I also immediately blocked the number from my cellphone.

If we weren't friends, the next time I needed someone, I wouldn't be able to ask him for help, and that way, he wouldn't find me a bother anymore.

Maybe it's not a big deal, but somehow it hurts my feelings.