Chapter 10

Two weeks passed when Xander and I broke up. I manage to survive these two weeks of hell. And the good thing that today is the last day of our final exam means the semester is already finished. I decided to focus on my studies and did not let myself to distracted by other things. My brother calls me from time to time to check up on me and I'm truly thankful because of it. Who needs a boyfriend? My brother is enough. LOL. Xander always tries to approach me, but before he gets close, I try my best to avoid him. I distance myself because the wound in my heart is still fresh and I don't want to associate myself with him anymore.  

After I finished my exam, I walk out of the room to go to Faculty but Xander suddenly block my path.

"Let's talk"

"There's nothing for us to talk about," I said then ready to leave him but he suddenly grabbed my arm.

"I said let's talk," he command then tighten his grip on my arm. I winced in pain and he realized that I get hurt because of it. He let go.

"I'm sorry, you've been ignoring me these past few days, that's why I'm angry. So can we talk now?"

I looked at him without a hint of emotion on my face. "Why can't I ignore you? Who are you?"

"I'M YOUR BOYFRIEND!!!" He exclaimed. Some students decided to stop and surrounded us. They are here to hear some gossip, a lot of people love that. Tsk. If only I knew that he wants to embarrass me like this, I should have just confronted him in front of his friends before. Well, let's just forget about it and deal with this situation first. I looked at him with confusion written on my face. It seems that this guy is forgetting something.

"Hey! What do you think you are doing? Are you crazy? Have you forgotten what you have done?" I asked.

"What did I do? I did nothing. And what I said is right, I am your boyfriend, am I wrong?" He repeated. I think this guy's brain has a problem. I always think that this guy is so smart, but I guess it is just me being blind.

"Correction. EX-BOYFRIEND." I said while smirking.

"I didn't agree to break up with you! You just left me alone. You didn't even let me explain myself. I still love you. Let's just forget what happened. Come back to me" this conversation will not end soon if it goes like this. My emotions are not stable if this goes any longer I guarantee that I can't stop myself from punching this j*rk.

"What's there to explain? I believe what I already heard. No amount of lies will make me believe you again,"

"Then you explain to me then! Why are you with a man that night?" He can cause a misunderstanding the way he said those words, and I didn't get it wrong, students around us start to gossip. I rolled my eyes.

"What do you mean by that.?" I asked.

"You cheated on me! You go hanging around men behind my back!" He answered

"What are you talking about?" I asked him in confusion.

"He answered your d*mn phone when I called you! So explain yourself to me! Why are you together with that man in the middle of the night? I thought you were so pure. I didn't expect you're also wild." He looked at me with disgust written on his face. Eh? I grin. My brother didn't tell me about this. I wonder what they talk about. Guess their conversation is not good seeing his reaction like this.

"Well, I guess green hat suits you" I didn't clear up the misunderstanding because I think it is for the better and also I will leave this place soon. "Well, if you excuse me," I said then left him there.

"Wait!" he said, but I ignore him. I can feel his gaze following me.

After the confrontation, I went directly to the faculty to process my papers to transfer. Yeah! My brother proposed this idea and I agree with him. It is a bit sad though I stayed here for only a year. I thought I can finish my studies here but I guess I can't. I know I can face those students who ridiculed me, but I'm too tired to deal with them and maybe it's for the better. After I finished my transaction in the faculty. I decided to walk around the school because it's my last day here. While walking, I saw Xander and Charlotte talking. I can't hear what they are talking about, but it seems that they are fighting. He held Charlotte's face and kissed her. Heh! Earlier he said that he wanted me to come back to him, then not even a day, I see this. What a joke.  These past few weeks he's trying hard to get my attention, but then it turns out that he's still with her. What am I even expecting?. I thought I already accepted it but I guess only my brain does, but my heart still can't. I averted my gaze from them and walk away and decided to go home.

Staring blankly at a plain in my room makes me think about my life. When I was young, I remember that I used to think that life is full of adventures. But to me, it's boring because, after it happened my 10 years old me, didn't even step outside of our home. I am not a princess like in a fairytale. I'm not a damsel in distress. I am just… me, a girl who has the money. besides that I have nothing. I am caged in our house for my safety. That's the only thing that a rich parent will do. But now my parents gave me the freedom to do what I want. No bodyguards, no strict rules. It is just me being me and I'm truly grateful because they let me experience what life is. What life lies beyond our mansion. 

It's been five years since they let me live alone. Well at first I can't get used to it because I have no experience in dealing with house chores, but lately, I realize that I'm improving. I met a lot of good people during my junior high school and I have a lot of good memories with it just add the memories of me and Jayke. My parents knew all about what was happening in my life because I told them, but I guess not all because I didn't tell them about the issue between Xander and me. Well, I believe that my brother already told them. The good thing about them is that they are not the type of parents who will meddle in their daughter's affair. They will just meddle if I told them. That's why they are the best. I know that they don't like seeing me hurt, but if I don't experience pain, how will I become stronger?. Without pain, there would be no suffering. Without suffering, we would never learn from our mistakes. To make it right, pain and suffering are the keys to life. Without it, there is no way in life. In short, from pain, you can develop wisdom and from suffering, you can develop strength.