Severus wants to change the past
Severus Snape's PoV
It is 31 October 1991 today, it has been 10 years since her death. Ten years of my loneliness and meaningless life. I hate it! Sometimes I wish I was the one who was dead instead of her, my beautiful Lily.
I have to teach her son today. It is Thursday and I have Potions lesson today with her son, hers and Potter's son. I think he just look like his father, but he have his mother's eyes.
His son walks into my classroom as I think of this, with his friend Weasley. Granger raised her hand as always as I asked a question, but I ignored her like always. I want to admit that she is smart but I can't. I have to protect my mask, my mask of the Death Eater's kids. They will told their parents if I give points to Granger. And I will be punish by the Dark Lord if he returns.
It is now a free lesson for me. I am sitting at the desk in my office. I start to write in a parchment:
We have returned once again to the start
Your youthful face is still in my memory
We have finally arrived at this day
The old photograph under the table mat
Links together numerous old memories
Today the boy and girl will go on their final date
We have returned once again to the start
Standing blankly in front of the mirror
Clumsily fastening the green and silver tie's knot
I'll brush my hair into the style of an adult
And wear a handsome-looking suit
In a bit, when I meet you, I'll be better looking than you expected
Oh, how I wish we could return to those times
Return to our seats in the classroom, deliberately trying to get you to gently scold me
The combinations on the blackboard, are you willing to solve them?
Regardless of the seating, he will always love her
The heavy rains we missed in those years
The young love we missed in those years
I really want to hug you, embrace my missed courage
I used to want to take on the world
But in the end I realized
You are my whole world
The heavy rains we missed in those years
The young love we missed in those years
I really want to tell you that I never forgot
That night the whole sky was filed with stars
The promise in a parallel universe
That the next time we meet, I will tightly embrace you
Tightly embrace you
I can feel my eyes are filled with tears when I finished writing it. My mind is now filled with the first time I went to Hogwarts, I was sitting in the compartment with Lily, Potter and Black. Potter and Black teased me and soon Lily and I went to another compartment to sit. In that compartment, we meet Andromeda Black and Ted Tonks. They are the head boy and head girl of that year. I make friends with them but soon they graduated from Hogwarts and I haven't meet them afterwards.
I was sorted in Slytherin, away from Lily who is sorted in Gryffindor, the same house with Potter and Black. I made friends with Lucius Malfoy, and somehow I regret it now, as he is the one who lead me to the Dark Lord. He is the one who persuaded me to join the Death Eaters.
Potter and Black start to humiliate me in public, they prank me at first in the Great Hall. I still remember the first time they humiliated me, they used Lupin's knowledge of many spells to change my hair to pink, my Slytherin robes to a red dress and make me dance on the Slytherin table. It is really embarrassing for me as they laughed at me, along with the whole school, except for the Professors and Lily.
I remembered the day Lily and I drew apart, the Defence Against the Dark Arts OWLs. I was humiliated and embarrassed at the moment when I said the word "Mudblood" to Lily. As I was stripped to my underwear by the marauders. People laughing at me and teased me makes me want to hide...and cry. No one helped me except her...but I drive her away
The days after that was not good either, with Lily ignored me, I was attacked by the Marauders every day. No one help me, even the teachers think I am lying when I was attacked. They believe the Marauders but not me, the wannabe future Death Eater.
Back to present, I am looking at the song I have written, it is full of what I feel for her. I put the parchment at the bottom of my drawer, hoping no one will see it as I walked towards to the Great Hall to have the Halloween Feast.
I sit down at my chair and looks bored as i eat the food. Suddenly, that coward runs in and shouts, "TROLL IN THE DUNGEON!!! TROLL IN THE DUNGEON!!" And I immediately ran to third floor corridor and I saw him tried to sneak inside the door. I was bitten by that three headed dog, I immediately screamed in pain, and I saw Quirrell has ran outside as he heard a girl screams. I immediately ran after him, ignoring the pain, I saw the troll in the girl bathroom and Miss Granger is standing there along with Potter and Weasley.
I saw Potter look at my injured leg, I immediately hide it away from him. Minerva awarded them five points each. I think they should get points taken away instead of earning them....
As I take care of my wound on my leg, I really hope I can change the past...change the fact that I haven't call Lily a mudblood and the fact I joined the Death Eaters...I want to change it so Lily won't be dead...I will give everything to have her back...even I have to sacrifice myself.